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'The Copernicus of consciousness." — THE VILLAGE VOICE 
HALLUCINATIONS 



Being an Account of the Author's Extraordinary Adventures in the Devil's 
Paradise 



"Around us, the jungle; ahead of us, the Secret...." 



ALSO BY TERENCE MCKENNA 



The Invisible Landscape (with Dennis McKenna) 
Food of the Gods The Archaic Revival 

Trialogues at the Edge of the West (with Ralph Abraham and Rupert Sheldrake) 
Synesthesia (with Tim Ely) 

TRUE HALLUCINATIONS. Copyright © 1993 by Terence McKenna. All rights 
reserved. Printed in the United States of America. No part of this book may be used or 
reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of 
brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews. For information address 
HarperCollins Publishers, 10 East 53rd Street, New York, NY 10022. 

first HarperCollins paperback edition published in 1994 ISBN 0-06-250652-8 (pbk) 

An Earlier Edition of This Book Was Catalogued As Follows: McKenna, Terence K. 

True hallucinations: being an account of the author's extraordinary adventures in the 
devil's paradise / Terence McKenna. — 1st ed. 

p. cm. 

Includes bibliographical references. ISBN 0-06-250545-9 (alk. paper) 

1. Hallucinations and illusions — Miscellanea. 2. Psilocybe cubensis — Psychic aspects. 3. 
Psilocybin. 4. McKenna, Terence K. — Journeys. 5. La Chorrera (Amazonas, 
Colombia) — Description. 6. Unidentified flying objects. 7. Shamanism. I. Title. 
BF1999.M453 1993 

133— dc20 91-58904 
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This edition is printed on acid- free paper that meets the American National Standards 
Institute Z39.48 Standard. 



To 

Dennis McKenna, 

who realized that 

"A stitch in Time saves nine." 



CONTENTS 

Preface xi 
Chapter One: The Call of the Secret 1 

In which our cast of characters, including a mushroom, are introduced, and their peculiar 
interests sketched. The Amazon jungle is invoked and the descent of one of its rivers 
undertaken. 

Chapter Two: Into the Devil's Paradise 13 

In which Solo Dark and Ev are introduced and the past history of each of our party is 
outlined. Philosophical musings during a languid descent of the Putumayo River. 

Chapter Three: Along a Ghostly Trail 27 

In which we meet a peculiar anthropologist and his wife, and we depart from Solo Dark 
and make our way to our destination at Mission La Chorrera. 

Chapter Four: Camped by a Doorway 39 

In which we become acquainted with the mushrooms and shamans of La Chorrera. 



Chapter Five: A Brush with the Other 47 

In which we move to a new home, and Dennis has a bizarre experience that divides our 
group. 

Chapter Six: Kathmandu Interlude 55 

In which a flashback to Tantric excesses in the head nests of hippie Asia illuminates 
strange mushroom experiences at La Chorrera. 

Chapter Seven: A Violet Psychofluid 65 



In which Dennis begins to outline his approach to the Alchemical Opus and a psychofluid 
that may or may not be translinguistic matter is debated. 

Chapter Eight: The Opus Clarified 79 

In which Dennis reveals his strategy for commencing the Great Work. 
Chapter Nine: A Conversation Over Saucers 87 

In which the details of the plumbing of the Resurrection Body are rehearsed for each and 
all, and a partial test of our theory is made. 

Chapter Ten: More on the Opus 97 

In which we refine the theory and begin preparations for experimental test flights of the 
Sophie Aerolith. 

Chapter Eleven: The Experiment at La Chorrera 105 

In which the experiment is attempted and the brothers McKenna are driven mad by its 
unexpected aftermath. 

Chapter Twelve: In the Vortex 119 

In which we discover that the Universe is stranger than we can suppose, Dennis makes a 
shamanic journey, and our group is polarized and divided. 

Chapter Thirteen: At Play in the Fields of the Lord 127 

In which Dennis and I explore the contents of our mutual illusions and illuminations. 
Chapter Fourteen: Looking Backward 137 

In which several miracles are recounted, not the least of which is the appearance of James 
and Nora Joyce disguised as poultry. 

Chapter Fifteen: A Saucer Full of Secrets 153 

In which we plan our departure, I encounter a flying saucer, and theories sprout like 
mushrooms as we return to Berkeley. 

Chapter Sixteen: Return 167 

In which Ev and I return alone to La Chorrera and a new comet heads toward the earth. 
Chapter Seventeen: Waltzing the Enigma 179 



In which I flash back to my near recruitment by a band of renegade Nazi scientists while 
visiting Timor. 

Chapter Eighteen: Say What Does It Mean? 1 93 

In which I attempt to link our experiences to a science that is anything but normal. 
Chapter Nineteen: The Coming of the Strophariad 205 

In which Ev and I part company and the mushroom delivers an oration while turning into 
an underground growth industry. 

Chapter Twenty: The Hawaiian Connection 215 

In which pirate Mantids from hyperspace attack me and my new lover in the volcanic 
wastes of Kau, Hawaii, and I deliver my last words on the Unspeakable. 



Epilogue 223 

In which I return to the present, introduce my fellow explorers as they are today, and 
genuflect before the weirdness of it all. 

Acknowledgments 229 Further Reading 23 1 



PREFACE 

SOMETIME DURING THE EARLY 1980s, while visiting the Esalen Institute, where I 
had been invited to participate in a conference on shamanism, I realized that my innate 
Irish ability to rave had been turbo-charged by years of psilocybin mushroom use. Aided 
by my devotion to psilocybin and the experiment at La Chorrera that is the subject of this 
book, I had apparently evolved into a sort of mouthpiece for the incarnate Logos. I could 
talk to small groups of people with what appeared to be electrifying effect about the 
peculiarly transcendental matters that you will read about in these pages. 

These verbal performances seemed to me rather mundane while they were occurring, but 
relistening to them on audiotape I could see the source of other people's fascination. It 
was as though my ordinary, rather humdrum personality had simply been turned off and 
speaking through me was the voice of another, a voice that was steady, unhesitating, and 
articulate — a voice seeking to inform others about the power and the promise of 
psychedelic dimensions. 

Dozens, now perhaps nearly a hundred, of my talks and lectures were recorded, 
distributed, sometimes pirated, passed among friends, and played on small underground 
radio stations. I began to make my living as a lecturer and teacher at various spas and 



growth centers. I was discovered by the notorious Roy of Hollywood, whose late-night 
radio show made me an underground mini-star, at 



least among the insomniacs of Los Angeles. Merely by talking about the events at La 
Chorrera I had become a minor celebrity. 

Eventually rumor of my status as a raver and a West Coast underground figure reached 
even into the great glass boxes along Fifth Avenue in Gotham itself. Publishers that I had 
imagined would not give me the time of day were suddenly interested in my work. Let us 
hope that as you read this, my books — this one and others that have preceded it — are 
spreading these strange ideas and making my life comfortable and others rich. 

There is a strange paradox surrounding all of this: my ideas are now in the public arena 
and an informal plebiscite is being held on them. If they spread, become popular, and 
function as catalysts of social change then the hope that they may have a special destiny 
will be sustained. If, on the other hand, they have their moment in the sun and then fade 
from public notice, my work and my vision will have been judged to be no more than 
another fleeting facet of our surreal and paranoia-infected culture. I have no idea where 
these ideas may lead. Certainly with several books now in print I cannot claim that I was 
not given a fair hearing. It is apparently the public who will decide if this phenomenon 
has run its course or if it is only beginning to make itself felt. 

I mention all of this not to inform my reader of the less-than-interesting details of my 
personal effort to feed a family, but because this career of mine is now the only and best 
evidence that something extraordinary, perhaps something of historical importance, may 
have happened at La Chorrera. For the loquacious mushrooms encountered there have 
spun a myth and issued a prophecy, in quite specific detail, of a planet-saving global shift 
of consciousness. They have promised all that has happened in my life over the last 
twenty years, and they have promised much more for the future. If you read onward you 
become a part of this tale. Caveat lector. 



CHAPTER ONE 

THE CALL OF THE SECRET 

In which our cast of characters, including a mushroom, are introduced, and their peculiar 
interests sketched. The Amazon jungle is invoked and the descent of one of its rivers 
undertaken. 

For THOUSANDS OF YEARS the visions imparted by hallucinogenic mushrooms have 
been sought and revered as a true religious mystery. Much of my thought over the past 
twenty or more years has been caught up in describing and contemplating this mystery. 



Closely guarded by the chaotically jeweled Angels — "Every angel is terrible," wrote 
Rilke, and at once sacred and profane — the mushroom has risen in my life much as it 
may rise at some future point in human history. I have chosen a literary approach to the 
telling of this tale. A living mystery could take any shape — it is master of place and 
space, time and spirit — yet my search for a simple form to convey this mystery brought 
me to follow tradition: to write a chronological narrative of a story that is both true and 
extraordinarily bizarre. 

In early February of 1971, 1 was passing through southern Colombia with my brother and 
some friends on our way to an expedition into the Colombian Amazonas. Our route led us 
through 



Florencia, the provincial capital of the Departmento of Caqueta. There we paused a few 
days awaiting an airplane to carry us to our embarkation point on the Rio Putumayo, a 
river whose vast expanse is the border between Colombia and her two southern 
neighbors, Ecuador and Peru. 

The day we were to depart was especially hot, and we left the oppressive confines of our 
hotel near the noisy central market and bus station. We walked southwest, out of town, 
perhaps a mile. Here were the warm waters of the Rio Hacha, visible across rolling 
pastures of tall grass. After swimming in the river, exploring deep pools carved by the 
warm torrent in the black basaltic stream bed, we returned through the same meadows. 
Someone more familiar than I with the appearance of the mushroom Stropharia cubensis 
pointed out a single large specimen standing tall and alone in an old bit of cow manure. 
Impulsively and at my companions' suggestion, I ate the whole mushroom. It occupied 
but a moment, and then on we trudged, tired from our swim, a tropical thunderstorm 
moving toward us along the eastern edge of the Andean cordillera where Florencia is 
located. 

For perhaps a quarter hour we walked on, mostly in silence. Wearily I hung my head, 
almost hypnotized by the sight of the regular motion of my boots cutting through the 
grass. To align my back, to throw off my lethargy, I paused and stretched, scanning the 
horizon. The feeling of the bigness of the sky, which I have come to associate with 
psilocybin, rushed down on me there for the first time. I asked my friends to pause and 
then I sat down heavily on the ground. A silent thunder seemed to shake the air before 
me. Things stood out with a new presence and significance. This feeling came and passed 
over me like a wave just as the first fury of the tropical storm burst overhead, leaving us 
soaked. The eerie sense that some other dimension or scale of being had intersected with 
the bright tropical day lasted only a few minutes. Elusive but strong, it was unlike any 
feeling I could recall. 

In our sodden retreat, the extended, oddly shimmering moment preceding our frantic 
withdrawal went unmentioned by me. I recognized that my experience had been induced 



by the mushroom, but I did not want to let thoughts of it distract me, for we were after 
bigger game. We were involved, I imagined, in a deep 



jungle search for hallucinogens of a different sort: plants containing the orally active drug 
di-methyltryptamine (or DMT) and the psychedelic brew ayahuasca. These plants were 
long associated with telepathic abilities and feats of the paranormal. Yet the patterns of 
their use, which were unique to the Amazon jungles, had not been fully studied. 

Once I had come down, I dismissed the mushroom experience as something to look into 
another time. Longtime residents of Colombia assured me that the golden-hued 
Stropharia occurred exclusively on the dung of Zebu cattle, and I assumed that in the 
jungles of the interior — where I was shortly to be — I could expect no cattle or pasture. 
Putting the thought of mushrooms from my mind, I prepared for the rigors of our descent 
down the Rio Putumayo toward our target destination, a remote mission called La 
Chorrera. 

Why had a gypsy band such as ours come to the steaming jungles of Amazonian 
Colombia? We were a party of five, bound by friendship, extravagant imagination, 
naivete, and a dedication to travel and exotic experience. Ev, our translator and newly my 
lover, was the only member of the group not a long acquaintance of the others. She was 
an American, like the rest of us, and she had lived several years in South America and 
had traveled in the East (where I had passed her once in the Kathmandu airport at a 
moment of great duress for us both — another story). She was recently free of a long 
relationship. 

On her own and having nothing better to do, she had fallen in with our group. By the time 
we reached La Chorrera, she and I would have been together less than three weeks. The 
other three members of the group were my brother, Dennis, the youngest and least 
traveled of us, a student of botany and a colleague of long standing; Vanessa, an old 
school friend of mine from the experimental college in Berkeley, trained in anthropology 
and photography and traveling on her own; and Dave, another old friend, a gay meditator, 
a maker of pottery, an embroiderer of blue jeans, and like Vanessa, a New Yorker. 

Four months before our descent into the watery underworld of the lower Putumayo, my 
brother and I had endured the grief of our mother's death. Before that I had been traveling 
for three years in India and Indonesia. Then I had worked as a teacher in the English 



mills of Tokyo and, when I couldn't put up with that any more, fled to Canada. In 
Vancouver our crew held a reunion and planned this Amazon expedition to investigate 
the depths of the psychedelic experience. 



I deliberately do not say much about any of us. We were mis-educated perhaps, but well- 
educated certainly. None of us was yet twenty-five years old. We had been drawn 
together through the political turmoil that had characterized our years shared in Berkeley. 
We were refugees from a society that we thought was poisoned by its own self-hatred and 
inner contradictions. We had sorted through the ideological options, and we had decided 
to put all of our chips on the psychedelic experience as the shortest path to the 
millennium, which our politics had inflamed us to hope for. We had no idea what to 
expect from the Amazon, but we had collected as much ethno-botanical information as 
was available. This data told us where the various hallucinogens were to be sought, but 
not what to expect when we found them. 

I have given some thought to how predisposed we might have been to the experiences 
that would eventually befall us. Often our interpretations of events did not agree, as is 
common among strong personalities or witnesses to an unusual event. We were complex 
people or we would not have been doing what we were doing. 

Even at age twenty-four, I could look back on nearly ten years of involvement with 
matters most people might consider fringe in the extreme. My interest in drugs, magic, 
and the more obscure backwaters of natural history and theology gave me the interest 
profile of an eccentric Florentine prince rather than a kid growing up in the heartland of 
the United States in the late fifties. Dennis had shared all of these concerns, to the despair 
of our conventional and hardworking parents. For some reason we were odd from the 
start, chosen by fate for a destiny too strange to imagine. 

In a letter written eleven months before our expedition I find that Dennis even then had 
the clearest conception of what might happen. He wrote to me while I was on Taiwan in 
1970 to say: 

As to the central shamanic quest and the idea that its resolution may entail physical 
death — indeed a sobering thought — I would be interested in hearing just how likely 



you consider this possibility and why. I had not thought of it in terms of death, though I 
have considered that it may well give us, as living men, willful access to the doorway that 
the dead pass daily. This I consider as a kind of hyper-spatial astral projection that allows 
the hyper-organ, consciousness, to instantly manifest itself at any point in the space-time 
matrix, or at all points simultaneously. 

His letters to me made it clear that his imagination had suffered no atrophy during the 
years of finishing high school in our small Colorado hometown. A steady diet of science 
fiction had made his imagination a joy to watch at play, but I wondered, was he serious? 

A UFO is essentially this hyperspatially mobile psychic vortex, and the trip may well 
involve contact with some race of hyperspatial dwellers. Probably it will be an encounter 



similar to a "flying lesson": instruction in the use of the transdimensional stone, how to 
navigate in hyper-space, and perhaps an introductory course in Cosmic Ecology tending. 

He was struggling, as was I, to come to terms with the elf-haunted psychic landscapes 
revealed by di-methyltryptamine, or DMT. Once we had encountered DMT, in the heady 
and surreal atmosphere of Berkeley at the apex of the Summer of Love, it had become the 
primary mystery, and the most effective tool for the continuance of the quest. 

Retention of the physical form under such circumstances would be, it seems, a matter of 
choice rather than necessity; though it could be a matter of indifference, since in the 
hyperspatial web all existing physical manifestations would be open. I would say that 
time is not of the essence for the venture except insofar as the culture-deaths of the tribes 
we are seeking are proceeding at an appalling rate. 

It was not our colorful fantasies alone that were centered on DMT-type hallucinogens. 
Our operational approach to discovering the secrets of the hallucinogenic dimension was 
centered on them as well. This was because, of the psychoactive compounds we knew, 



the action of DMT-containing hallucinogens, though very brief, seemed the most intense. 
DMT is not an object of common experience, even among psychonauts of inner space, 
and so a word must be said about it. In its pure synthetic form, it is a crystalline paste or 
powder that is smoked in a glass pipe with nothing else. After a few inhalations the onset 
of the experience is rapid, fifteen seconds to a minute. The hallucinogenic experience that 
it triggers lasts three to seven minutes and is unambiguously peculiar. It is so bizarre and 
intense that even the most devoted aficionados of hallucinogens usually pass it by. Yet it 
is the most common and the most widely distributed of the naturally occurring 
hallucinogens, and it is the basis, when not the entire component, of most of the 
hallucinogens used by aboriginal tribes in tropical South America. In nature, as a product 
of plant metabolism, it never occurs in anything like the concentrations at which it comes 
from the laboratory. Yet South American shamans, by chemically predisposing 
themselves to its effects in various ways, do find the same levels of reality-obliterating 
intensity achievable with pure DMT. Its strangeness and power so exceeded that of other 
hallucinogens that di-methyltryptamine and its chemical relatives seemed finally to 
define, for our little circle at any rate, maximum exfoliation — the most radical and 
flowery unfolding — of the hallucinogenic dimension that can occur without serious risk 
to psychic and bodily integrity. 

We thought, therefore, that our phenomenological description of the hallucinogenic 
dimension should begin by locating a strong DMT-containing aboriginal hallucinogen 
and then exploring with an open mind the shamanic states that it made accessible. To this 
end we had sifted the literature on tryptamine drugs in the Upper Amazon Basin and 
learned that ayahuasca or yage — the brew of Ban-isteriopsis caapi with the DMT 
admixtures — is known over a wide area,* just as are several kinds of DMT-containing 
snuffs, but there 



[* Ayahuasca is a term in general use throughout the upper Amazon Basin. It refers not 
only to the prepared hallucinogenic beverage but also to its main ingredient, the woody 
liana Banisteriopsis caapi. This often gigantic jungle vine is pulverized and boiled with a 
DMT-containing plant, usually Psychotria viridis, occasionally Diploterus cabrerena. The 
watery extraction is then concentrated through further boiling. Ayahuasca, also called 
natema, yage, pilde, is the most widely distributed and used of the equatorial New World 
shamanic hallucinogens.] 



was one DMT-containing hallucinogen that was severely restricted in its usage. 

Oo-koo-he is made from the resin of certain trees of the Myris-ticaceous genus Virola 
mixed with the ashes of other plants and rolled into pellets and swallowed. What was 
eye-catching about the description of this visionary plant preparation was that the Witoto 
tribe of the Upper Amazon, who alone knew the secret of making it, used it to talk to 
"little men" and to gain knowledge from them. 

These little people are one bridge between the motifs of alien contact and the more 
traditional strange doings of woodland elves and fairies. The worldwide tradition of little 
people is well studied in The Fairy Faith in Celtic Countries by W. E. Evans- Wentz, a 
pioneering study of Celtic folkways that was influential on UFO researcher Jacques 
Vallee's quest as well as our own. The mention of little men rang a bell, since during my 
own experiences smoking synthesized DMT in Berkeley, I had had the impression of 
bursting into a space inhabited by merry elfin, self-transforming, machine creatures. 
Dozens of these friendly fractal entities, looking like self-dribbling Faberge eggs on the 
rebound, had surrounded me and tried to teach me the lost language of true poetry. They 
seemed to be babbling in a visible and five-dimensional form of Ecstatic Nostratic, to 
judge from the emotional impact of this gnomish prattle. Mirror-surfaced tumbling rivers 
of melted meaning flowed gurgling around me. This happened on several occasions. 

It was the transformation of language that made these experiences so memorable and 
peculiar. Under the influence of DMT, language was transmuted from a thing heard to a 
thing seen. Syntax became unambiguously visible. In searching for parallels to this notion 
I am forced to recall the wonderful scene in the Disney version of Alice in Wonderland, 
in which Alice encounters the hooka-smoking caterpillar seated on a mushroom. "Who R 
U?" the caterpillar inquires, spelling out his question in smoke above his head. There has 
always been a suspicion of psychedelic sophistication associated with Lewis Carroll and 
his nineteenth-century story of a self-transforming wonderland. In the hands of Disney's 
animators, the synesthesia-like blending of sense perception is exaggerated and made 
explicit and literal. What the caterpillar intends to communicate is not heard but seen, 
floating in nearby space; a visible language 



whose medium is the convenient smoke that the caterpillar possesses in abundant 
supply.* 

Which is not to say that DMT is to be thought of as a stimulus for mere inner cartoons. It 
is not. The feeling that radiates from the DMT encounter is hair-raisingly bizarre. It is as 
much as one can stand without the categories of consciousness becoming permanently 
rewritten. I am occasionally asked if DMT is dangerous. The proper answer is that it is 
only dangerous if you feel threatened by the possibility of death by astonishment. So 
great is the wave of amazement that accompanies the dissolving of the boundary between 
our world and this other unsuspected continuum that it approaches being a kind of ecstasy 
in and of itself. 

The sense of being literally in some other dimension, which these bizarre DMT 
experiences had provoked, had been the focus of our decision to concentrate on 
tryptamine hallucinogens. After reading all that there was on psychoactive tryptamines, 
we came eventually to the work of the pioneering ethnobotanist Richard Evans Schultes. 
Schultes's tenured position as a professor of botany at Harvard had allowed him to 
dedicate his life to collecting and cataloging the world's psychoactive plants. His paper 
on "Virola as an Orally Administered Hallucinogen" was a turning point in our quest. We 
were fascinated by his description of the use of the resin of Virola theiodora trees as an 
orally active DMT drug, as well as by the fact that the use of this hallucinogen seemed to 
be limited to a very small geographical area. Schultes was an inspiring voice when he 
wrote of the hallucinogen oo-koo-he: 

Further field work in the original home region of these Indians will be necessary for a full 
understanding of this interesting hallucinogen.... Interest in this newly discovered 

[* That a Disney film should be a showcase for this notion is not as surprising as it might 
first appear. One has only to recall the carefully choreographed dances of Oriental 
mushrooms in Fantasia to wonder whether some portions of the Disney production group 
might have been shamanically inspired. After all, Fantasia was a very serious and 
ambitious effort to make synesthesia a motif for popular entertainment. Rumors persist 
that many of the European animators whom Disney hired for his extravagant projects 
were aware of the psychedelic experience. Among the Czech animators who joined the 
Disney group during this period were some who probably knew of the vision-producing 
power of peyote and its chemical constituent, mescaline.] 



hallucinogen does not lie wholly within the bounds of anthropology and ethnobotany. It 
bears very directly on certain pharmacological matters and, when considered with the 
other plants with psychotomimetic properties due to trypta-mines, this new oral drug 
poses problems which must now be faced and, if possible, toxicologically explained.* 

Based on Schultes's paper, we decided to abandon our studies and careers and to pay our 
own way to the Amazon and the vicinity of La Chorrera in search of oo-koo-he. We 



wanted to see if the titan-ically strange dimensions that we had encountered in the DMT 
trance were even more accessible via the DMT plant combinations that the shamans of 
the Amazon had developed. 

It was of these shamanic sacraments that I had been thinking when I had dismissed the 
Stropharia mushroom encountered in the pasture near Florencia. I was eager to press on 
with the quest for the exotic, barely reported, Witoto oo-koo-he. Little did I imagine that 
soon after our arrival at La Chorrera the search for oo-koo-he would be all but forgotten. 
The Witoto hallucinogen became totally eclipsed by the discovery of psilocybin 
mushrooms growing abundantly there and by the strange power that seemed to swirl 
around the fog-bound emerald pastures in which they were found. 

My first intimation that La Chorrera was a place different from other places came when 
we arrived at Puerto Leguizamo, our proposed point of embarkation on the Rio 
Putumayo. It can be reached only by airplane, since no roads make their way through the 
jungle to it. It is as tired and oppressive a South American river town as you could ever 
hope to see. William Burroughs, who passed this way in his search for ayahuasca in the 
fifties, described it then as "looking like some place after a flood." By 1971 it had 
changed little. 

We were scarcely installed in our hotel, having just returned from the ritual registration 
of foreigners that goes on in the frontier areas of Colombia, when the matron of the hotel 
informed us that 

[* R. E. Schultes, "Virola as an Orally Administered Hallucinogen," in the Botanical 
Leaflets of Harvard University, vol. 22, no. 6, pp. 229-40.] 



a countryman of ours was living nearby. It seemed incredible that an American could be 
living in such an out-of-the-way and thoroughly rural river town in Colombia. When la 
senora remarked that this man, El Senor Brown, was very old and also a black man, it 
became all the more puzzling. My curiosity piqued, I left immediately in the company of 
one of the loutish sons of the hotel woman. As we walked along, my guide could hardly 
wait for us to get out the door of the hotel before informing me that the man we were to 
see was "mal y bizarro." 

"El Senor Brown es un sanguinero," he said. 

A killer? Was I on my way to visit a murderer, then? It seemed unlikely. I did not believe 
it for a moment. "?Un sanguinero, dice?" 

The horror that the rubber boom brought to the Amazon Indians in the early years of this 
century has lived on, a memory for the oldest people and a terrifying legend for younger 
Indians. In the area surrounding La Chorrera, the Witoto population had been 
systematically reduced from forty thousand in 1905 to about five thousand in 1970. 1 



could not imagine that the man I was to meet had any real connection to those distant 
events. I supposed that this story I was hearing meant that I was about to meet a local 
bogey man around whom extravagant stories had grown up. 

We soon reached a ramshackle and undistinguished house with a small yard hidden 
behind a tall board fence. My companion knocked and yelled and soon a young man, 
similar to my guide, came and opened the gate. My escort melted away and the gate 
closed behind me. A large pig lay in the lowest, wettest part of the yard; three steps up 
was a veranda. Upon the veranda, smiling and motioning me forward, sat a very thin, 
very old, much wrinkled black man: John Brown. It is not often that one meets a living 
legend and, had I known more about the person I confronted, I would have been more 
respectful and more amazed. 

"Yes," he said, "I am an American." And, "Yes, hell yes, I am old, ninety-three years. Me 
hee-story, baby, is so long." He laughed dryly, like the rustle of roof thatch when 
tarantulas stir. 

The son of a slave, John Brown had left America in 1885, never to return. He had gone to 
Barbados and then to France, had been a merchant seaman, and had seen Aden and 
Bombay. Around 1910, he had come to Peru, to Iquitos. There he had been made a 



work-crew foreman in the notorious House of Arana, which was the main force behind 
the ruthless exploitation and mass murder of the Indians of Amazonas during the rubber 
boom. 

I spent several hours that day with E lSenor Brown. He was an extraordinary person, at 
once near and yet ghostly and far away, a living bit of history. He had been the personal 
servant of Captain Thomas Whiffen of the Fourteenth Hussars, a British adventurer who 
explored the La Chorrera area around 1912. Brown, who is described in Whiffin's now 
rare work, Explorations of the Upper Amazon, was the last person to see the French 
explorer Eugene Robuchon, who disappeared on the Rio Caqueta in 1913. "Yes, he had a 
Witoto wife and a big black dog that never left him," mused Brown. 

John Brown spoke Witoto and once had lived with a Witoto woman for many years. He 
knew the area into which we were going intimately. He had never heard of oo-koo-he, 
but in 1915 he had taken ayahuasca for the first time — and at La Chorrera. His 
description of his experiences was an added inspiration to continue toward our goal. 

It was only after I returned from the Amazon that I learned that this was the same John 
Brown who had exposed the atrocities of the rubber barons along the Putumayo to British 
authorities. He first spoke to Roger Casement, then the British Consul in Rio de Janiero, 
who had gone to Peru in July 1910 to investigate the atrocity stories.* Few remember, so 
strewn with horror is the history of the twentieth century, that before Guernica and 
Auschwitz the Upper Amazon was used as a rehearsal stage for one of the episodes of 



mechanized dehumanization so typical of our age. British banks, in collusion with the 
Arana clan and other laissez-faire operators, financed wholesale use of terror, 
intimidation, and murder to force the Indians of the deep forest to harvest wild rubber. It 
was John Brown who returned to London with Casement to give evidence to the Royal 
High Commission investigation.+ 

[* For details, see W. E. Hardenburg, The Putumayo: The Devil's Paradise (London, 
1912). Extracts from Casement's report are reprinted there as well. Also see Michael 
Taussig's Shamanism, Colonialism and the Wildman (Chicago: University of Chicago 
Press, 1987). 

+John Estacion Rivera, a Colombian historian, has told the story differently and 
implicates Brown in the murders, thus providing the basis for the san-guinero story.] 



I returned to talk with him the next two days while preparations were made for our trip 
downriver. I was impressed by Brown's sincerity, by the depth of his understanding of 
me, by the way that Roger Casement and a world nearly forgotten — a world known to me 
only from its brief mention in the pages of James Joyce's Ulysses — lived and moved 
before me in those long, rambling conversations on his veranda. 

He spoke long and eloquently of La Chorrera. He had not been there since 1935, but I 
was to find it much as he described it. The fever-haunted old town on the lowland across 
the lake no longer stood, but the dungeons for the Indian slaves could still be seen, 
crumbling iron rings set deep in sweating basaltic stone. The notorious House of Arana 
was no more, and Peru long ago abandoned her claims to that area to Colombia. But the 
old town of La Chorrera was ghostly indeed, and so was the old rubber trail, or trocha, 
that we would shortly use to walk the hundred and ten kilometers that separate La 
Chorrera from the Rio Putumayo. In 191 1, up to twenty thousand Indians gave their lives 
to push that trail through the jungle. Indians who refused to work had the bottoms of their 
feet and their buttocks removed by machete. And for what? So that, in a surreal act of 
hubris typical of techno-colonialism, a motorcar could be driven the entire length of the 
trail in 1915. It was a ride from nowhere to nowhere. 

Walking those gloomy, empty trails, I seemed often to hear a grumble of voices or the 
rustle of chained feet. John Brown's rambling monologues barely prepared me for its 
strangeness. On the morning that our boat was leaving to carry us downriver, we stopped 
at his house on our way to the landing. His eyes and skin shone. He was the gatekeeper of 
the Plutonic world downriver from Puerto Leguizamo, and he knew it. I felt like a child 
before him, and he knew that too. 

"Bye, bye, babies. Bye bye," was his dry farewell. 



CHAPTER TWO 



INTO THE DEVIL'S PARADISE 

In which Solo Dark and Ev are introduced and the past history of each of our party is 
outlined. Philosophical musings during a languid descent of the Putumayo River. 

DID I SAY WE WERE a party of five? We would be five when we arrived at La 
Chorrera, but we were six departing from Puerto Leguizamo. Ev and I were living 
together as much as a couple can live together when they pile off a boat every night with 
four other people to hang their hammocks in the trees. But he was with us too. Solo Dark. 

I must explain Solo. He was part of a fringe religion happening in South America, which 
I had not found in India, called the New Jerusalem. Devotees, who seemed to be 
primarily fruitarian, were a tribe of mostly Americans who since 1962 or 1963 had been 
drifting down through Latin America, chiseling on each other, living with each other, 
hating each other, and weaving intrigues. They communicated through Ouija boards with 
entities they called "Beings of Light." An entire mythology had been constructed around 
reincarnation. According to them, everyone was a reincarnation. 



One person assumed himself to be the reincarnation of Rasputin; another, who was a 
refugee from the inner circles of the Hari Krishna cult and wore white robes and white 
rubber rain boots, was the reincarnation of Erwin Rommel. The burning-eyed leader of 
this whole group was Solo. He had been Ev's companion for four years. 

Need I mention that Solo was strange? With his depthless baby blues and his wreath of 
wild long hair, he presented an imposing sight. He believed that he had been incarnated 
as several prominent historical personages: Christ, Hitler, Lucifer. It was a gamut both 
depressing and predictable. 

I was in a peculiar dilemma, as my categories were themselves not very rigid. I had spent 
most of the previous three years living either as a hermit scholar studying dead Asian 
languages or as a lone lepidopterist in the Indonesian outback. I was unfamiliar with the 
protocols that had developed among the more exotic of my peers in the post-Charles 
Manson era. I thought, "Can't we work this out? Aren't we all happy hippies?" Perhaps I 
had been in Asia too long. In any case, I was soon to learn that among the enthusiasts of 
the New Jerusalem there were a lot of weird personae difficult to tolerate. 

If Solo did not approve of something you were doing, he would look blank for a moment 
and then announce that it had been revealed to him that instant, by the Beings of Light, 
that you shouldn't, for example, peel fruit with metal knives. The tiny minutia of 
existence were controlled by these hidden forces. Solo traveled with animals: dogs, 
kittens, monkeys (he had a monkey that he supposed to be Christ incarnate). He insisted 
that all the animals be vegetarian, so the animals became twisted and unhealthy. As their 



eyes were going around in circles he would tell me, "This is Buddha; this is Christ; this is 
Hitler." It was not quite this demented — I exaggerate to give the flavor — but it was clear 
that in Solo's head it was this loose. 

As we put off from Puerto Leguizamo, we were, therefore, six: Vanessa, Dave, Ev, 
Dennis, and myself. And Solo. Six freaks. 

Our group had first come together on New Year's Eve, a little over two months before, 
when we met with Solo and Ev, who were still a couple then and not intending to join us. 
Our encounter had occurred in the fog-girt town of San Augustine in Colombia. Now 



that night seemed long in the past. Only a day or two after that evening, Vanessa, Dave, 
and I had left for Bogota. In the days following our departure, Ev and Solo raged at each 
other. At the pinnacle of the final row, Solo deliberately unhorsed her into a deep mud 
puddle in front of a number of guests. Ev left him then and came to Bogota to live in an 
apartment that she and Solo had said we could all use. In the two weeks while we 
gathered together the equipment for the expedition, Ev and I made our way to each other, 
and she joined our original group of four. The harsh Andean light streaming through the 
skylight of the pension was transformed into a lush intensity by rites of parting and 
defiling that drew Ev and me together. But this was no idyll for everyone. For Vanessa, 
who had once been my lover, it was surely a source of resentment. Doorways within the 
mirrored labyrinth of feelings opened and beckoned. 

I said to her, "Look, I like this woman, and she speaks Spanish." This was my best 
argument, appealing as it did to reason. "Are you seriously suggesting that we trek many 
days into the Amazon Basin with our specious grip on the local language? It makes very 
good sense that Ev come." 

Eventually Vanessa agreed. In the meantime the situation grew more complicated: Dave, 
unaware of Ev's attachment to me or of her abandonment of earlier plans to travel to 
Peru, had invited Solo along. Dave had been much impressed with Solo's knowledge of 
the Colombian outback during our first meeting in San Augustine, and so he cabled Solo, 
inviting him to meet us in Florencia and travel into the Amazon! When we piled off a 
vintage Colombian Air Force plane at Florencia, we were Dave, Vanessa, Ev, Dennis and 
I, Ev's puppy Lhasa, and a half- ton of equipment to be transported down the Putumayo. 
Waiting for us at the airport was Solo, thinking that the woman he had lived with for four 
years had gone to Peru with the incarnation of Rommel in white robes and matching 
rubber boots. When he discovered the truth, there was an emotion-fraught sorting out 
scene at the airport fence. 

Later, in town, Ev and I took one room at the hotel, leaving Solo to figure it out for 
himself. With no possibility of grace on anyone's part, I was hoping that Solo, seeing that 
Ev's life had taken a new direction, would hit the road. I was disconcerted to 



encounter Solo, and as I am a bit of a wimp, hating tension, I chose not to address the 
situation directly. 

Solo came to our room. He talked about the need to see all points of view, then he cut to 
the chase: 

"Well, it looks like there is nothing here for me. I'm planning to fly back to Bogota." 
"Thank God," thought I. 

Then he went to his room and went into communication with the Beings of Light. He 
came back two hours later to say, "You can't find it without me." 

By this he meant the oo-koo-he. "You don't know anything about the jungle. I'm a man of 
the forest." 

With great reluctance I went along with this idea. When next we flew, it was on to Puerto 
Leguizamo. And we now had Solo, his dog, his cat, and his monkey. He wore robes and 
had a staff adorned with bright Rowing fajas, locally woven strips of fabric. He looked 
both menacing and ridiculous. 

I knew that the boats left Puerto Leguizamo very irregularly, and I thought we would 
have to wait, perhaps even up to two weeks. The hotel was tiny; the food terrible. I 
figured we would rub up against each other and then Solo would leave. He enjoyed 
cornering Ev into long, intense conversations. It was becoming a strain on everyone. 

But it did not happen as I had anticipated. It turned out that there was a boat, the 
Fabiolita, departing downriver in two days. And so, in what seemed like hours, the 
arrangements had fallen together and we had paid six hundred pesos to secure our fare. 
At dawn on the appointed morning, all our animals, cameras, the / Ching, butterfly nets, 
formaldehyde, notebooks, a copy of Finnegans Wake, insect repellent, chloroquine, 
mosquito nets, hammocks, binoculars, tape recorders, granola, peanut butter, and dope — 
and all the other things one must have to go into the Amazon Basin — were piled at the 
river's edge. On the tiny trading boat that was to be our vessel, Ernito, our captain, 
indicated that our berth would be the area on top of the cases of bottled sodas colored 
fluorescent chartreuse, electric lemon, and magenta. We were informed that it was six to 
twelve days to where we wanted to go, "depending on business." John Brown came down 
to wave good-bye. He actually pulled out a large, 



white handkerchief and waved it. Then he dwindled to a speck. Puerto Leguizamo 
disappeared and the river, the green bank, the shrill of insects and parrots, and the brown 
water became our world. 



We made our way under power, but slowly, to the middle of the shining brown river 
beneath an immense sky and an immense sun. A delicious moment — when one has done 
all that one can for a journey and is at last in motion, no longer responsible, since that 
burden has been given to pilot or engineer, boatman or ground control. The world one is 
leaving has been truly broken away from and the destination is still unknown. A favorite 
kind of moment, more familiar, yet less considered in the sterile environs of ocean- 
crossing passenger planes, and so how much richer here, surrounded by the cargo of sun- 
dried fish and local bottled sodas toxic with brilliant dyes. 

I made a small space where I could sit cross-legged and rolled a joint out of the 
extraordinary kilo of Santa Marta Gold that we had laid in as a part of our provisions 
during the month in Bogota. The flow of the river was like the rich smoke I inhaled. The 
flow of smoke, the flow of water, and of time. "All flows," said a beloved Greek. 
Heraclitus was called the crying philosopher, as if he spoke in desperation. But, why 
crying? I love what he says — it does not make me cry. Rather than interpret pante rhea as 
"nothing lasts," I had always considered it a Western expression of the idea of Tao. And 
here we were, going with the Putumayo's flow. What a luxury to be smoking, again in the 
tropics, again in the light, away from the season and places of death. Away from living 
under Canada's State of Emergency, on the edge of war-bloated, mad America. Mother's 
death and coincidentally the loss of all of my books and art, which had been collected, 
carefully shipped back and stored, and then had burned in one of the periodic brushfires 
that decimate the Berkeley hills. Cancer and Fire. Fire and Cancer. Away from these 
terrible things, where Monopoly houses, waxy green, go tumbling into fissures in the 
animated psychic landscape. 

And before all that, Tokyo: its outer-planet atmosphere, the pretension of fitting into the 
work cycle. How inhuman does one become in an inhuman situation for a little while? 
The nights on the trains. The airless rooms of the Akihabara English language schools. 
Tokyo demanded the spending of money, the saving of which was the only way out. 



I thought back over ten months of deepening alienation that had begun with leaving 
tropical Asia and, like a comet being drawn in to nearly brush its star, I was being drawn 
through Hong Kong, Taipei, Tokyo, and Vancouver before being hurled over war-toiling 
America and on into the outer darkness of other, new, and wretchedly poor tropical 
countries. The flight from Vancouver to Mexico City passed over my mother sleeping in 
her grave for the first winter. On over Albuquerque, only a pattern of freeway 
interchanges in the desert's night emptiness. On and on into what was then only an idea: 
the Amazon. 

Out on the river, the past could enter the stillness and exfoliate before the mind's eye, 
unfurling a dark fabric of interlocking casuistry. Forces, visible and hidden, stretching 
back into one's past; migrations; religious conversions — our self discoveries make us 
each a microcosm of the larger pattern of history. The inertia of introspection leads 
toward recollection, for only through memory is the past recaptured and understood. In 



the fact of experiencing and making the present, we are all actors. But in the lacunae — in 
the rare moments of sensory deprivation when experience in the present is a minimal 
thing, as on a long plane ride, or any indolent, self-examining trip — then memory is free 
to speak and call forth the landscapes of our striving in moments now past. 

Now — the now that is a time beyond the confines of this story, a now in which this story 
is past — I do not worry the past as I did then. Now it is set for me in a way that it was not 
set then. Not set then because so recent, still to be relived in memory and learned from. 
Five days of river travel lay before us — undemanding, freeing the mind to rove and scan. 

Two all-inclusive categories emerged for us on the broad river whose distant banks were 
no more than a dark green line separating river and sky: the familiar and the unfamiliar. 
The unfamiliar was everywhere forcing us to draw inane analogies in common 
conversation: The Putumayo is like the Holy Ganga. The jungle evokes Ambon. The sky 
is similar to the skies of the Serengeti Plain, and so on. The illusion of understanding was 
a lame way of getting one's bearings. The unfamiliar does not give up its secrets in this 
game — the Putumayo does not become like the Ganga. The unfamiliar must become 
known as itself before it is correctly recognized. 



The familiar things here are the people who have come with me. They appear as known 
quantities because I knew them in the past. So long as the future remains like the past, 
they would remain known. Certainly this is not New York, Boulder, or Berkeley, and it is 
not easy to become extra-environmentals, to develop a sense of appropriate action that is 
never at a loss for savoir faire. The cool aesthetic of the stranger: "Me, Ma'am? I'm just 
passing through." It is the familiarity of these people that makes them windows in my 
imagination opening into the past. 

Dennis, of course; his is still the time line longest on a track parallel to my own. No need 
to mention the matter of shared genes. Back our connection goes until lost in primal, 
unlanguaged feeling. We grew up in the same household, shared the same constraints and 
freedoms until I left home at sixteen. But I had held close to Dennis. 

Two and a half years earlier, in the middle of my twenty-second year, in the hold of the 
British Steam Navigation Company liner Karanja, I was weak and semi-delirious, 
wracked with hives, heartbreak, and dysentery. The eight days of passage from Port 
Victoria, Seychelles, to Bombay was then, in 1968, thirty-five dollars. In spite of being 
ill, I was obliged to travel the lowest class or my funds would not carry me home. My 
bunk was a metal plate that folded down from the wall. Public toilets and the hammer of 
the engines. Bilge water sloshed from one corner of the passageway to the other. Fifteen 
hundred displaced Indians from Uganda, victims of the Ugandan government's policy of 
Africanization, were traveling in the hold. All night long Indian women came and went 
from the toilets down my passageway, which was filled with bilge and engine throb. 
Without hashish and opium, I would have found it unbearable. To these middle-class 
Indians, my consolations and I were a stark example of depravity and moral failure, 



which they self-righteously pointed out to their children in long bird-like lectures on the 
evils of hippies and life in general. 

After many days and nights of this, I awoke feverish in the middle of the night, the air 
redolent with curried food, excrement, and machine oil. I made my way to the exposed 
deck on the stern. The night was warm, the smell of curry not altogether lost even there. I 
sat down with my back against a heavily painted metal box 



of fire-fighting equipment. I felt my fever lift and a great sense of relief come through 
me. The recent past, my romantic disappointment in the Seychelles and in Jerusalem, 
seemed to release its hold on me. I had a clear space in which to turn toward the future 
and discern it. Unbidden came the thought that I would go with Dennis to South America. 
Even then, I knew it for a certainty. 

And, in time, it happened. Not immediately, not before much more wandering in the East, 
but eventually, by February 1971, the prophecy was all round us. River, jungle, and sky 
enclosed us now and bore us toward La Chorrera. This boat was very little like the 
Karanja, but its small diesel engine was an echo of the larger engines further away in 
time. Yes, Dennis came first, came in with the sepia-toned memories of our growing up 
in a small Colorado town. There he was, always there beside me; we were two flies 
frozen in the backlit world of amber memories of summer outings and afternoons. 

These others, different histories. 

Vanessa and I had been student radicals together at Berkeley from 1965 to 1967. She was 
from New York — the Upper East Side. Father a prominent surgeon; older sister a 
practicing psychoanalyst; a mother who gave teas for the wives of U.N. delegates. 
Vanessa first attended private schools, then in a gesture of liberal chic, her parents 
supported her in her choice of Berkeley, a state university. She is intelligent, with a 
slightly feral twist to her gawkish sexuality. Her large brown eyes cannot hide a kitten 
cruelty and a mean love of puns. We were part of the Experimental College at Berkeley, 
but in the fall of 1968, 1 went to New York to try to sell the tortured manuscript that had 
been generated by my self-enforced seclusion in the Seychelles Islands, from where I had 
returned only a few months earlier. This was a rambling, sophomoric, McLuhan-esque 
diatribe that was to die a bornin', fortunately. But in the complex autumn of that year, I 
took that work and flew to New York, in which place I knew no one but Vanessa. 

She dug me out of a flophouse on West 43rd Street where I had crash-landed and 
persuaded me to move up to the Hotel Alden on 



Central Park West, a place her mother had chosen for me. Our current riverine departure 
for the heart of Comisaria Amazonas followed by three years the languid moment when 



Vanessa and I sat together at the outdoor restaurant near the fountain in Central Park, she 
with her Dubonnet and I with my Lowenbrau. In the eyes of the poor scholar and 
revolutionary that I then imagined myself to be, the scene seemed staged in its casual 
elegance, the production values definitely higher than I could usually afford. The 
conversation had arrived at the subject of my brother, then only eighteen, whom Vanessa 
had never met: 

"Dennis really is some sort of genius, I guess. Anyway, I'm his brother and am quite in 
awe of him, having seen it all from close up, as it were." 

"And he had an idea that you think has great potential?" she asked. 

"Actually, that's putting it mildly. I think that he may have seized the angel of Gnosis by 
the throat and forced the beast to the mat. This idea he has that some hallucinogens work 
by fitting into the DNA is startling. It has a ring of truth that I just can't ignore. The 
political revolution has become too murky a thing to put one's hope in. So far, the most 
interesting unlikelihood in our lives is DMT, right?" 

"Reluctant agreement." 

"Reluctant only because the conclusion that it leads to is so extreme. Mainly that we 
should stop fucking around and go off and grapple with the DMT mystery. Because, you 
know, anybody who has studied Western Civ. for ten minutes can readily see that the 
places this stuff puts you in touch with.... It's some kind of outrage that, properly 
understood, might — you know that I think it would — have tremendous importance for the 
historical crisis everybody is in." 

"Okay. So say that I suspend my judgment. Then what's up?" 

"I'm not sure. How about a trip to the Amazon? That's where these psychedelic plants are 
endemic. And that's where there is, God knows, enough solitude for anyone." 

"Maybe. I'm trying to get on a dig that will happen in the Gibson Desert in Australia next 
year." 



"I understand. And I am committed to this hash thing in Asia in a few months, for who 
knows how long? No, this Amazon trip, if it happens at all, is off in the future. But you 
should think about it, and something else...." 

"He lowered his voice mysteriously ..." Vanessa provided in a radio drama aside. 

"Right. The something else is flying saucers. I know it sounds nuts but they're mixed up 
in this somehow. It's pretty murky now. Fortunately it doesn't matter yet, but DMT is 



somehow linked to the whole psychic, you know Jungian, side of the notion of saucers. 
Deep water, I know. It's a hunch, but strong." 

Dave was something else. We called him "the flower child." He was a delight-provoking, 
paradoxical amalgam of naivete and strong-willed insight. If they sold harlequin suits off 
the rack he would have worn one. A Polish count, Ambassador to the Court of Great 
Elizabeth and friend of my personal idol, Dr. John Dee, brightened his genealogy. I had 
met Dave during the summer of 1967 in Berkeley. We had both been hitchhiking from 
the corner of Ashby and Telegraph, and when one kind soul picked both of us up, we 
became acquainted on the ride over the bridge to San Francisco. In Berkeley, Dave 
supported himself selling the Berkeley Barb and whatever else you sell when you loiter a 
lot. Since those days, Dave had graduated, both from the upstate New York commune he 
idealized and from Syracuse University with a degree in ethnobotany. In letters that 
passed between us when I was in Benares he became determined to be part of the venture 
to the Amazon Basin. He was to find in the jungles and mountains of South America a 
world even more spellbinding than he expected. To this day he has not returned from our 
initial voyage. 

It was nearly two years before we could begin to put our plans into effect. Late in August 
of 1969 fate turned me from hash smuggler to fugitive when one of my Bombay-to- 
Aspen shipments fell into the hands of U. S. Customs. I went undergroud and wandered 
throughout Southeast Asia and Indonesia, viewing 



ruins in the former and collecting butterflies in the latter. Then came my time in Japan. 
Whether this gave me an edge on the others in experience seemed unlikely. Yet even my 
new status as desperado did not deter my passion for the Amazon. I still dreamed of 
visiting the green places of the vine people. 

Eventually, Vanessa, Dave, and I gathered in Victoria, British Columbia. We lived there 
three months in a clapboard house, which we rented from a family of Sikhs — we 
ransacked articles, wrote letters, and maintained a constant correspondence with Dennis, 
who was in Colorado. Building momentum, we amassed information on a near-mythical 
world that none of us had ever seen. 

While I lived in Canada, my mother died after a long bout with cancer. She was laid to 
rest, and then eventually Vancouver Island, lost in swirling snow, had fallen behind us as 
if by a series of telescoping leaps. At last our journey loomed: One by one the barriers to 
our entry into the anticipated magical world fell away, until we came to this indolent 
moment, our first day on the river. From my journal: 

February 6,1971 

We are at last freed of our umbilical connection to civilization. This morning, under the 
uncertain skies which mark the Amazon during the dry season, we have at last gotten 



underway. Part of a flotilla of gasoline and fruit soda suppliers who are on their way to 
La Chorrera and will certainly carry us as far as El Encanto on the Rio Cara-Parana. 
Moving toward the absolute center of the geography of the secret, I am moved to ponder, 
as ever, the meaning of this truly strange search. I am having difficulty processing the 
intense content of my expectations. There can now be little doubt that, given that we 
continue to press forward as we have, we shall reach a state of satisfaction. We have been 
so long seeking this thing and it is so difficult to understand. Projections concerning who 
we will be or what we will do when this excursion is over are unconsciously based on the 
assumption that our experience will leave us unaffected, an assumption which is 
doubtless false, but its alternative can hardly be imagined. 



Later: Two hours out of Puerto Leguizamo, upriver winds have caused us to tie up on the 
Peru side to await calmer weather. We are at Puerto Naranja. It is not shown on the Atlas 
Codazzi. The pattern of river travel immediately asserts itself. Following the channel 
means moving from side to side of the river, usually near one of the banks. The land is 
thickly covered by a dense canopy of jungle reminiscent of Central Seram or the coast of 
Ambon — a Venusian forest. The dull drum of the engine, the cooing of pigeons (part of 
our cargo), like the sacred Ganga, the brown, smooth water of the Putumayo soon flows 
through all our dreams and daydreams. 

Solo watches me fixedly. 

The familiar falls behind. The river is broad. The mystery for the present is in the 
strangeness of this place. The watery flatness. Five days descent of the Rio Putumayo 
will put us at the mouth of the Rio Cara-Parana. There is a mission there called San 
Raphael. We are looking for Dr. Alfredo Guzman, mentioned in one of our papers as the 
source of an authentic sample of the oo-koo-he we are looking for. Guzman is an 
anthropologist working with the Witoto upriver from San Raphael at a tiny village 
charmingly called San Jose del Encanto. This village is situated at the beginning of the 
old rubber-gatherers' trail that leads through the jungle to La Cho-rrera. Not only can 
Guzman aid us in our search, but he can help us hire bearers for the trek overland. Many 
days to anticipate this personage. 

In the meantime, the cramped world of this trading vessel, the Fabiolita, is ours, its 
mission, to sell plastic shoes, tinned food, and fishing line at the small clusters of houses 
on stilts that appear several times during each day of travel. We arrive, tie up, and while 
the jefe of our vessel makes negocios with the colonistas, I take my butterfly net and 
walk to the jungle, hoping to escape the stinging flies that swarm near the boat landings. 

Sometimes there are long, opinionated conversations, with everyone animated and taking 
part. Sometimes a silence falls among us that lasts for several hours once each of us is 
comfortable, watching the riverbank slide by or nodding on the edge of siesta. 



February 7, 1971 



A Sunday. Last night we arrived at an unnamed place and spread our mosquito nets and 
hammocks for the first time in the Amazon. Eight A.M. found us back out on a rainy 
river under leaden skies. The moods of the approach to the secret are many. The air is 
delicious with oxygen, and the odors which reach us from the passing liana-hung forest 
change with the frequency and subtlety of a sonata. Brief stops at police inspections and 
ever more isolated riverside dwellings mark this day as well. Today, after forty minutes 
early morning travel, we passed a shallow depression in a clay bank on the Peruvian side 
of the river. There, thousands of parrots gathered around a salt source. The sonic shrill of 
their many-throated voice and their iridescent green bodies cleaving the air heightened 
the impression of moving in an aqueous Venusian world. We tied up opposite the lick 
and some of our crew went across the river to capture some parrots to add to the traders 
already large menagerie. With our own small monkey, the nonhuman population of this 
ark of fools numbers two dogs, three monkeys, a kitten, a danta, a cock, a pig, and a crate 
of pigeons. Today is the day of the full moon and tomorrow we will arrive at El Encanto. 
There, if present plans hold, we will meet Dr. Guzman. The tensions that divide us have 
also surfaced. Vanessa and Solo, who have very little in common, seem warm friends. Is 
this because I have miffed Vanessa? It is not going well at all. Dennis is very quiet. Dave 
is worrying about the food supply; he is a chronic worrier. And naive. He seems to have 
thought that one just takes off one's shoes and goes to an Indian brother and says that one 
wants to learn the secrets of the forest and they say, "Come, my son, come with us and 
you will learn the secrets of the forest." Now that he is actually confronted with the 
Amazon jungle, he seems a bit taken aback. Solo's animals are falling off the boat into 
the river once an hour. The captain of the boat hates us because we have to stop to drag 
these soaking monkeys out of the drink. 

That night we camped on the Peruvian side of the river. After dark, around the fire, the 
conversation anticipated a total eclipse of the moon said to be due. We wondered after the 
fate of the Apollo 



14 crew which was returning that night from that same moon. These were the last bits of 
news we had received before our departure from Puerto Leguizamo. 

Sometime in the dead of the night I awoke in my hammock, and after listening to the 
seething insect-filled night, pulled on my boots and silently made my way to the bluff of 
a little hill overlooking our portage. There I had a view of the river and the way along 
which we had traveled in the fading light of the late afternoon. Now all was transformed, 
the jungle eerily silent very suddenly, the moon washed an orange-red, the eclipse in 
progress and 



near totality. 



The scene and the feeling were profoundly "Other." Alone in an immensity of jungle and 
rivers more vast than any I had ever known, we seemed witnesses to the emergence of 
strange dimensions, the clash of unearthly geometries, lords of places unseen and 
undreamed of by humanity. A few miles away, rain was falling from a cloud standing 
still in the sky; nearby foliage glistened black with 

orange highlights. 

Unknown to me in that moment was that the eclipse that had drawn me as a lone observer 
from my hammock to this eerie scene would in a few short hours trigger a groaning shift 
of billions of tons of impacted rock along the San Andreas Fault in Southern California. 
Chaos was about to break out in the hell-city of Los Angeles. In a pitiless cartoon, I could 
imagine the pop-eyed denizens in beehive hairdos pouring out under incandescent lights 
into choking pollution to wail their hysteria to mobile news teams. Knowing nothing of 
the world beyond the forest and the river I returned to my hammock oddly cheered and 
exalted — the bizarre moment seemed a portent of great things. 



CHAPTER THREE 

ALONG A GHOSTLY TRAIL 

In which we meet a peculiar anthropologist and his wife, and we depart from Solo Dark 
and make our way to our destination at Mission La Chorrera. 

SHORTLY AFTER DAWN the next day, our vessel left the broad course of the 
Putumayo and turned into the Rio Cara-Parana for the last few miles of the journey to 
San Raphael, where the boat would leave us. The Cara-Parana more correctly fitted my 
conception of a jungle river, it being only several hundred feet across at its widest point, 
with lush vegetation overgrowing the banks and trailing in the water. Its flow was so 
sinuous and unpredictable that we could seldom see more than a half mile or so ahead. 
By mid-morning we arrived at a low bluff surmounted by a white flagpole and a few 
corrugated buildings appearing lavish in a land of thatched huts on stilts. 

This was Mission San Raphael. We were properly, if unenthusiastically, received by 
Padre Miguel. He was thin, Castilian, with deep-set eyes and a barely noticeable palsy 
that was the result of malaria contracted years before. He had been in the Amazon over 
thirty years. It was not possible to read from his face what he 



thought of us. He had seen many anthropologists, botanists, and adventurers pass 
through, but I sensed that our longer hair and loose manner made him uneasy. His 
uneasiness increased when I asked about Dr. Guzman. In fact it was clear then, by the 



stiffening of the old priest's face, that my question hit a sore point. Nevertheless we were 
offered a ride upriver to where there was an inland trail to San Jose del Encanto. 

"Yes, Dr. Guzman is doubtless there. He passed through on his way to return to his 
language studies only three weeks before. And his wife was with him." The priest's gaze 
hardened. "You may be assured of finding him." 

We were given lunch by the nun in charge, La Madre being the form of address to the 
number-one nun at these missions. While we ate, Ev questioned the priest more carefully 
concerning La Cho-rrera. Yes, he confirmed, the trail took five days for a fully loaded 
expedition to traverse. We anticipated the need for porters to help carry our equipment. 
Padre Miguel said that we could get some help in El Encanto, but now was the time of 
hunting and men would be reluctant to leave the hunt to travel to La Chorrera. Since we 
were determined not to be over-burdened with equipment on the last leg of the push to 
reach La Chorrera, after lunch we sorted all of our equipment once again. Many books 
were reluctantly left behind; our plant and drug file was thinned down to only the 
essential articles; excess camera and insect-collecting equipment was stored: all went into 
a trunk to be left in the priest's keeping until we should return. Ev's pup Lhasa ended up 
with La Madre, whose admiration for the beast had seemed an opportunity too good to 
pass up. 

The chore finished, we stowed our lightened supplies in the priest's powerful speedboat — 
an immense luxury in a world where the paddle canoe is the standard mode of 
transportation. In a few minutes we were tearing over the surface of the brown river, the 
moving center of a cresting wave of tremendous mechanical noise. The priest looked 
considerably more human and at ease here, with his brown cassock beating furiously in 
the wind and his long beard trembling in the spray and the sunlight. After forty minutes 
of this furious travel, we had gone a day's distanpe by canoe. Suddenly the priest turned 
the small boat at a right angle to the flow of the river, 



making directly for a long, low spit of white sand. The engine cut off at what seemed the 
last instant, and in the shattering silence, we slid lightly aground on the sand bar. It was a 
spot that seemed no less desolate than any other place we had passed in our wild ride, but 
the priest clambered up the bank and pointed out a broad trail much overgrown with 
vines. It was half a mile to the village, Padre Miguel explained, as we moved our supplies 
into a jumbled heap on the sand. 

"I'm sure you will be well received," called the priest from the river as he wheeled the 
little speedboat around. Then he was gone. Long after he had turned a bend in the river 
and the sound of his departure had faded, the glassy surface of the river still moved and 
sucked against the banks as a last echo of the unusual commotion. 

Silence. Then a shrill wave of insect sound swept like a drawn curtain through the area. 
Silence again. There was jungle, river, and sky — nothing else. We were on our own now, 



without a seasoned expert in control, and we all became aware of it in that moment on 
that spit of sand on the shore of a jungle river identical to hundreds of other such rivers. 

The sense of time suspended could not last. We had to find the village and make 
whatever arrangements we could to move our supplies from the river. We had to act 
before dark; there would be time later to contemplate our situation. No one wanted to stay 
with the mound of supplies, so we hid them in the bushes away from the shore and started 
down the trail. Vanessa brought her box of cameras; I carried my telescoping fiberglass 
butterfly net. 

The trail was broad and easy to follow, obviously cared for. As we moved away from the 
riverbank, the vegetation became less lush, and we were walking through an eroded, 
scrubby, brush land. The soil was red, lateritic clay, and where it was exposed to the sun, 
it baked and shattered into sharp-edged, cubical fragments. After half an hour of walking 
the trail we topped a long, slow rise and looked down on an assemblage of huts on sandy 
soil under a scattering of palms. Striking us immediately was a single unusual house near 
the center of the village, which was not of the thatched and stilted variety. As we 
surveyed the scene below, we were ourselves observed, and people began running and 
shouting. Some ran one way and some another. To the first person who reached us, we 



asked for Dr. Guzman. Surrounded by people giggling and whispering, we reached the 
anomalous house. 

The structure was made of palm leaves expertly woven between long arched sticks. It 
was windowless and rested on the ground, looking vaguely like a loaf of brown bread. 
We all recognized it as a malloca, the traditional type of house peculiar to the Witoto 
people. 

Inside, resting in a hammock that hung between two smoke-darkened supporting posts, 
was Dr. Alfredo Guzman. His face was unnaturally gaunt, his eyes were dark and deep- 
set, and his hands were skeletal, nervous. He did not get up, but gestured for us to sit on 
the ground. Only when I sat did I see beyond the hammock to the shadowed rear of the 
malloca, where a plump white woman in khaki pants sat cleaning pebbles from beans in a 
stone-polished Witoto pot. After we were all seated she looked up. She had blue eyes and 
even teeth. 

Seeming to address us all equally, Guzman spoke: "My wife shares my professional 
interests." 

"How fortunate. It must make it much easier," Vanessa offered. 

"Yes." The flat reply became an unnerving pause. I decided to address the issue directly. 



"Doctor, our apologies for disturbing your solitude and the local social environment here. 
We can appreciate your wish to be undisturbed in your work. We are anxious to push on 
to La Chorrera, and we hope that you will help us arrange bearers here to go with us. 
Also, we are here with a special purpose. I refer to the Virola hallucinogens that you 
reported to Schultes." 

I am telescoping my account, of course; it all took longer and moved less directly. We 
talked for perhaps twenty minutes. At the end of that time, we learned that Guzman 
would help us find bearers and depart, but that this would take some days. We also 
learned that Guzman was an ardent Structuralist, Marxist, and male chauvinist, that his 
involvement with the Witoto approached the maniacal, and that he was regarded by his 
colleagues back in Bogota as bonkers. He gave us no encouragement that we would find 
the oo-koo-he, which he said was a secret of the men that was slowly dying out. At the 
end of this discussion, our small party and 



a dozen of the village people walked back to the river and carried our gear to a rundown, 
unused hut on the edge of the village. 

As we set up camp, Annalise Guzman approached us with several cups of steaming 
coffee and chatted with us. Unlike her husband, she seemed more relieved than dismayed 
by our presence. As she talked, a picture emerged. She had gone to the London School of 
Economics, studied anthropology, and did graduate work in Colombia, meeting the 
impassioned older man in a similar profession. She was now living a pendulum life, 
going between the striving, contentious world of the university in Bogota and the tiny 
village of San Jose del Encanto. Her husband's addiction to chewing coca was much on 
her mind. 

Like the males of the Witoto group, Guzman was a coca enthusiast, and he had become 
quite paranoid from constantly chewing it. When we saw him in the morning, he always 
had coca staining his lower chin. Because the tribe is very hard on women, Annalise had 
been told by Alfredo that, in order to become integrated into this society, she had to take 
on the women's role. This required pounding yucca root with stones and also making the 
coca, which the women are not allowed to chew at all. The men lie around in hammocks 
and listen to transistor radios. The women live with the dogs and the children under the 
houses, while the men lived in the houses. At five o'clock in the afternoon, the women are 
all sent to the sleeping place with the children and the dogs. The men retire into the long 
house for storytelling and coca chewing until four-thirty in the morning. The fart is their 
most highly appreciated form of humor. There are ten thousand variations on the fart and 
all are thought riotously funny. 

We lived with these people elbow-to-elbow, staying in that uncomfortable setting until 
the morning of the eighteenth of February. It took that long — nearly a week — to arrange 
for two young boys to leave the hunting to help us carry our supplies over the trail to La 
Chorrera. 



We were grateful for the pause in travel, since the voyage on the Fabiolita had left us 
rather worn. I spent part of each day collecting insects, or writing, or thinking in my 
hammock. That week we saw Dr. Guzman very rarely. He treated us with the same 
remote disdain that the other male leaders of the community affected. Not 



everyone was so shy; there were always several Witoto of all ages intently watching 
whichever one of us was most active at any given moment. In one of his oddest moves, 
Dr. Guzman asked us to answer any questions about the relationships prevailing within 
our group by saying that we were all brothers and sisters. This assertion brought the 
expression of amazement expected of any reasoning being. And so I think we were 
especially interesting to the people of the village because they were asked by their expert 
informant concerning all things in the outside world to believe that such a disparate group 
as we were all siblings. It was only one of the good doctor's peculiarities. 

Once in the heat of the afternoon when I was alone, collecting insects in the forest, I 
came around a large tree to surprise Guzman, who was standing absolutely still, poised 
above a small stream with a fish spear in his hand. We walked back to the village 
together, and as we walked, he told me his view of life. 

"Danger lurks everywhere. Never swim alone in the river. Huge forms move beneath its 
surface. There is the anaconda. The rivers abound with them. Snakes are everywhere. Be 
aware of this as you make your way to La Chorrera. The forest is unforgiving of error." 

I had spent months in the jungles of Indonesia, and I had been collecting insects every 
day in these Amazonian forests since the journey to San Jose del Encanto had begun. I 
had my own idea of the risks of the forests, not nearly so dark as the thoughts of the 
wildly gesticulating figure who strode raving at my side. Clearly, it had been our 
misfortune to stumble onto what was a very peculiar scene. Guzman had been ruling his 
wife with an iron hand. He lived in a nightmare world of delusions brought on by coca 
addiction. His wife had not had any Anglos to talk with since arriving in the jungle. 
Naturally she was wondering what was going on. She wasn't allowed to chew coca and 
he was behaving more and more like a male Witoto of the tribe. 

There were strange incidents that set everyone on edge. A bushmaster, most deadly of 
vipers, was killed near the village and brought back and shown around. Incidents? Say 
rather omens or ominous events. One morning an enormous tarantula, the largest I 



had ever seen, made a dash through the village, or so it seemed, since it was suddenly 
discovered very much in the middle of things. Had someone released it? 

Two nights before we were to leave the village, a tree burst into flames near our hut. This 
seemed unambiguously unfriendly and we accelerated our plans for departure. But we 



could not continue on without bearers, and only when the men came back from the 
hunting party could we expect to hire them. 

From Guzman we would learn almost nothing. About the oo-koo-he he said, "Ridiculous, 
my friend. You're not going to get it. These people don't even speak Spanish. They speak 
only Witoto. There were forty thousand of them killed here fifty years ago. They have no 
reason to like you and the drug is supersecret. What are you doing here? I urge you to 
leave the jungle while that is still possible." But in his way he was informative; we 
learned that the oo-koo-he was always made with the ash of other trees mixed into the 
DMT-containing resin. We felt that these additional ingredients must be the key to its 
oral activity, since normally DMT would be destroyed by enzymes in the large intestine. 
Dennis was determined that we make a firm botanical identification of the "secret 
activators." Ideally we hoped to be the first to get good collections of these plants. It 
would be our small contribution to Amazonian ethnobotany. 

Finally, on the eighteenth, we departed, the six of us in the company of two Witoto 
adolescents. The capitan of the village turned out to wish us a good journey. Even Dr. 
Guzman was smiling, delighted no doubt at the prospect of the village returning to 
normal after a long week playing host to a delegation from the global electronic tribe. 

There was no one more pleased to leave the village than I. As we strode along the wide 
path, or trocha, I felt my spirits rise. At last we had put all the encumbering obstacles 
behind us. Only Solo remained to plague me. I decided, Walter Mitty or not, I was going 
to have to burst his bubble. Relations inside our group were becoming too odd. Solo was 
doing things. He insisted on going first on the trocha. He would get far ahead, then 
sharpen sticks and put them on the ground in odd patterns, fetishes. 



During our journey downriver, before we got to El Encanto, we had been smoking weed 
all the time. Solo would just sit staring for hours and hours. I finally came to understand 
that he was probably going to kill me and was most likely completely deranged. That, 
strange as it may seem, would be my fate — I was going to be bumped off by somebody's 
psychotic old boyfriend who had somehow managed to sneak onto this Amazon 
expedition. 

I contemplated the irony of the situation. I recalled that mushroom maven Gordon 
Wasson and his wife had been accompanied by an undercover CIA agent during their 
second journey to the mushroom village of Huatla de Jimenez in the remote uplands of 
Mazatecan, Mexico. Psychedelic history would have been different if Wasson had 
detected that clumsy effort at co-option. Then the CIA's absurd notion that psilocybin 
might forever remain what it termed an "in-house prerogative" could never have been 
entertained. It was only the speedy publication of the molecular structure of psilocybin by 
Swiss pharmacologist and LSD-inventor Albert Hofmann that had short-circuited that 
dark and grandiose fantasy. I thought about turning points generally. I recalled John 
Wayne's observation that, "A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do." 



At this thought, I seized the moment and stopped on the trail and observed out loud that 
Solo was the world's most outrageous jackass. In other words, I just pitched the shit 
straight into the fan. For a moment it looked like we were going to punch each other out 
right there. Vanessa began yelling and shoving. Witoto bearers were standing around 
open-mouthed. The incident ended as a standoff, but as the day wore on Solo decided to 
turn back. He had no money, and he was in terrific pain because of an abscessed tooth. 
There was no reason for him to be there. The stress of isolation and bad food can push 
even a healthy person to the edge, and I had become convinced that he was deeply 
disturbed and capable of anything. He chewed coca to cut the pain of his tooth, but it 
didn't help. He needed medical attention. That night he came to me and explained that he 
did not have enough money to get back upriver. He offered me a kilo of his own crop, 
and I jumped at the chance to 



pay him a hundred dollars. When we broke camp the next morning he was already gone. 

Around us, the jungle; ahead of us, the Secret. After Solo's departure, I buttoned up my 
stash, hefted my butterfly net, and felt like Van Veen, the priapic hero of Nabokov's 
surreal love story Ada. After all, how often does one have the satisfaction of overcoming 
a rival? Especially a rival who claims to believe sincerely that he is Jesus Christ and 
Hitler? 

It was as lovely as a Bierstadt as we wended our way toward La Chorrera under the liana- 
tangled canopy of the climaxed Amazonian forest. Iridescent, blue morphos, butterflies 
the size of dinner plates, would occasionally be surprised while lounging languidly on 
broad leaves overhanging the trail. They would start upwards suddenly with an amazing 
show of watery, splendiferous sapphire quickly lost in the gloomy heights. We set a brisk 
pace and as we moved along my thoughts returned to Nabokov and the seemingly 
prophetic lines written in Pale Fire by his character, the apocryphal American poet John 
Shade: 

... that rare phenomenon The iridule — when, beautiful and strange In a bright sky above a 
mountain range One opal cloudlet in an oval forni Reflects the rainbow of a thunderstorm 
Which in a distant valley has been staged — For we are most artistically caged. 

That night we made our camp at a thatch-roofed shelter with a marker indicating we had 
come twenty-five kilometers during the day. We ate well that night on tinned cheese with 
reconstituted minestrone, and in the morning we were back on the trail as the ground fogs 
of dawn departed. It was a day of hard work, carrying the heaviest loads by a method that 
allowed each person two hours on and then an hour off. Quite a physical feat. I think that 
we were already feeling the effects of "the phenomenon," a backwash from our 
experimental tampering with the laws of physics that still lay days in the future. But it is 
impossible to say. We stopped eating. 



The women announced that we would eliminate breakfast and lunch to make better time. 
It was their decision since they were doing the cooking; it was too much of a chore to 
make a fire in the damp Amazonian forest. 

We would get up at four-thirty in the morning, have coffee, and walk twenty-five 
kilometers until about three-thirty in the afternoon. It was an ass buster, absolutely. The 
trocha went up and down, up and down. We would arrive at a river to find no bridge and 
have to figure out how to cross. We had to be aware of the possibility that the bearers 
might steal something or desert us. In spite of the exertion, the days were an exquisite 
immersion in the truly immense and vibrant forest through which we were passing. All 
day long on the second day we pushed forward against our flagging energies. At last we 
reached a shelter similar to the one we had used the night before. It was set on the top of 
a small hill just beyond a crude bridge arching a small river. After dark, around the fire, 
we smoked and talked long into the night, anticipating the adventure soon to come that 
we could sense but not yet imagine. The Witoto bearers unfolded their leaf-wrapped 
packets of food and ate apart from us, friendly but distant. 

Toward the afternoon of the fourth day, the bearers were visibly excited in anticipation of 
our arrival at La Chorrera. During one of our breaks, Vanessa pointed out a rainbow that 
lay directly over the path we were traveling. The appropriate jokes were made and we 
hoisted our loads and hurried onward. In a few minutes we were walking through 
secondary forest and shortly thereafter emerged on the edge of a huge clearing of rough 
pasture. Mission buildings could be seen across this expanse. As we walked into the 
clearing, an Indian came to meet us. We spoke with him haltingly in Spanish, and then he 
spoke to our bearers rapidly in Witoto and started off with us in the direction from which 
he had come. 

We passed through a space fenced by a wood enclosure and across a semi-enclosed 
courtyard, perhaps a ballcourt. On the walls of this enclosure were paintings in tempera 
of cartoon elves with pointed ears. We were led finally to the back porch of a more 
substantial wooden building that was obviously the priest's house. A 



huge man, bearded and bearish, emerged in his shirt sleeves. Peter Ustinov could have 
played him to perfection. A basically merry person, he nevertheless did not seem happy 
to see us. Why were these people always so withdrawn? Something about not liking 
anthropologists — but we were basically botanists: how could we put that across? Our 
reception was hospitable and correct. We asked no more, and as we hung our hammocks 
in the empty guest house to which we were shown, there was a sense of relief among us 
all at having reached our destination. 



CHAPTER FOUR 



CAMPED BY A DOORWAY 



In which we become acquainted with the mushrooms and shamans of La Chorrera. 

Most of the Amazon Basin is made up of alluvial deposits from the Andes. La Chorrera is 
different. A river, the Rio Igara-Parana, narrows and flows into a crack. It becomes very 
rapid then drops over an edge — a lip — creating not exactly a waterfall but a narrow 
channel of water (chorro means "chute"), a flume whose violent outpouring has made a 
sizable lake. 

La Chorrera is a paradisiacal place. You push very hard and suddenly you are there. 
There are no stinging or biting insects. In the evening, mist drifts across a large pasture 
creating a beautiful pastoral scene. There is the mission, the foam-flecked lake below, the 
jungle surrounding, and much to my surprise, white cattle. 

The afternoon following our arrival, at the edge of the pasture, which had been cleared by 
the Spanish priests who had managed Mission La Chorrera since its establishment in the 
1920s, I held and turned over in my hand perfect specimens of the same species of 
mushroom that I had eaten near Florencia. In the pasture before me were dozens of these 
mushrooms. After examining several, my brother concurred, pronounced them the same 
Stropharia cubensis we had found before, one of the largest, strongest, and certainly the 



most widely distributed of any of the known psilocyb in-containing mushrooms. 

What to do? We had no data on the proper dosage of psilocybin. Our expedition's 
thinned-down drug and plant file was concerned with flowering plants, not with fungi. 
Collectively we seemed to remember that in the Oaxacan mushroom rituals described by 
Gordon Wasson, in Life magazine of all places, mushrooms were always eaten in pairs, 
with several pairs consumed. We determined to eat six mushrooms each that same 
evening. My journal entry for the next day spoke clearly: 

February 23, 1971 

Are we indeed now in some way camped on the edge of another dimension? Yesterday 
afternoon Dave discovered Stropharia cubensis in the damp pastures behind the house 
where we had hung our hammocks. He and I gathered thirty delicious psilocy-bin- 
saturated specimens in about a half an hour. We each ate about six and spent last night on 
an enormously rich and alive, yet gentle and elusive, trip. In between strange lights in the 
pasture and discussion of our project, 1 am leftwith the sense that by penetrating the local 
psychedelic flora this way we have taken a giant step toward deeper understanding. 
Multifaceted and benevolent, as complex as mescaline, as intense as LSD — the 
mushroom, as is said of peyote, teaches the right way to live. This particular mushroom 
species is unclaimed, so far as I know, by any aboriginal people anywhere and thus is 
neutral ground in the tryptamine dimension we are exploring. Through this unclaimed 



vegetable teacher one can gain entry into the world of the elf chemists. The experience of 
the mushroom is subtle but can reach out to the depth and breadth of a truly intense 
psychedelic experience. It is, however, extremely mercurial and difficult to catch at work. 
Dennis and I, through a staggered description of our visions, noticed a similarity of 
content that seemed to suggest a telepathic phenomenon or some sort of simultaneous 
perception of the same invisible landscape. A tight headache accompanied the experience 
in its final stages, but this was quick to fade, and the body strain and 



exhaustion often met with in unextracted vegetable drugs such as peyote and Datura was 
not present. 

This mushroom is a transdimensional doorway which sly fairies have left slightly ajar for 
anyone to enter into who can find the key and who wishes to use this power — the power 
of vision — to explore this peculiar and naturally occurring psychoactive complex. 

We are closing distance with the most profound event 

a planetary ecology can encounter. 

The emergence of life 

from the dark chrysalis of matter. 

Such were my impressions after only one exposure to the realm of vision over which the 
mushroom holds sway. 

The reference to "strange lights in the pasture" should be explained, since perhaps it has 
some bearing on some of what followed. An hour after we had eaten the mushrooms, and 
everyone was comfortable with the pleasant plateau of colorful, drifting, behind-the- 
eyelids imagery, someone initiated a discussion. 

It was Dave or my brother, Dennis; Dennis, I believe. He said that we were now stoned in 
the home territory of the Secret and so should not remain in the confined space of our 
thatched hut, but we should move out into the night and the warm, enfolding fog over the 
pasture. Not all should go, but a delegation. Who should it be? Dennis nominated Dave 
and myself, calling Dave the least skeptical and me the most. Vanessa objected to me as 
"most skeptical," suggesting instead that Dave and Dennis should go. I heartily agreed, 
not actually wishing to visit the dark and dewy pasture myself, and having no faith, so 
skeptical was I, in the transcendental potential of the errand. 

So off they went, first loudly proclaiming the total enveloping power of the ground fog, 
and then in a theatrically absurd short time and from offstage, they hollered out that they 
saw a hovering, diffuse light in the pasture nearby. Investigation pursued. Hollering 
continued but faded. Light persisted. Diffuseness persisted. I decided it was time for 



cooler heads to intervene. Off into the enfolding, wet night I went. I crossed carefully 
through the barbed wire 



that surrounded the pastures; it was wet to my fingers but warm-seeming even at night, so 
steamy is the Amazon. Once united with Dave and Dennis I found the situation closer to 
their description than I had expected. There was a dim light on the ground a few yards 
away. It seemed to retreat as one walked toward it. 

We moved about thirty meters in its direction in a series of short advances. Enveloped in 
dense and drifting fog, we felt far from our companions back at the house. 

"We can follow this light but we had better not go too far or we'll get lost since we don't 
know the area at all." 

Dave was pleading for a retreat, but we continued to press on. Sometimes the light 
seemed to be hovering above the ground just twenty feet ahead and then, leaping and 
falling again, it would recede as we approached. We would run forward to catch up with 
it, yet it continued to remain ahead of us. For ten minutes, we chased this hovering, 
receding light, but then decided to go no farther. As we turned to depart I seemed to see a 
flickering of the diffuse light that, to my mind, suggested someone dancing before a fire. 

I momentary abandoned thoughts of UFOs and recalled instead the series of ominous 
incidents preceding our departure from Dr. Guzman and his scene at San Jose del 
Encanto. Was this a shaman dancing around a small fire? Did it have something to do 
with us? No illumination was ever shed on this incident, but the general eeriness of it 
anticipated all that was to follow. 

The words of my journal are revealing. I wrote matter of factly of "gaining entry into the 
world of elf chemists"; I called the mushroom a transdimensional doorway and linked it 
to a transformation of life on the planet. A younger, more naive, more poetic self is 
revealed — a more intuitive self, at ease with proclaiming wild unlikelihoods as 
hallucinogenically derived Gnostic Truth. 

And yet these ideas have changed very little in twenty years; then I was eager to be 
convinced by demonstration, and demonstration was given. I was changed and was 
obviously eager to be changed. It was true of me then and is still true now, for since the 
coming of the mushroom all has been continuous transformation. Now, years later and 
with two decades of reflection on these things, I can still discern in that earliest 
experience many of the motifs that have persisted through the years and remained 
mysterious. At one 



point during that evening, Dennis and I both seemed able to see and describe the same 
inner visions. Off and on over the years this has happened several times with psilocybin. 
The wonder of it remains. 

In those early mushroom experiences at La Chorrera there was an aura of the animate and 
the strange, the idea that the mushroom was somehow more than a plant hallucinogen or 
even a shamanic ally of the classic sort. It had begun to dawn on me that the mushroom 
was in fact a kind of intelligent entity — not of earth — alien and able during the trance to 
communicate its personality as a presence in the inward-turned perceptions of its 
beholder. 

In the days following that first mushroom experience, the lives of my brother and I 
underwent a tremendous and bizarre transformation. Not until Jacques Vallee had written 
The Invisible College (1975), noting that an absurd element is invariably a part of the 
situation in which contact with an alien occurs, did I find the courage to examine the 
events at La Chorrera and try to fit them into some general pattern. I have told various 
parts of our story over the years, never revealing the entire incredible structure to any one 
listener, knowing full well what it seems to imply about our mental condition during the 
time of the experiences. 

Any story of alien contact is going to be incredible enough by itself, but central to our 
story as well are the hallucinogenic mushrooms with which we were experimenting. The 
very fact that we were involved with such plants would make any story of alien contact 
seem highly dubious to anyone not sympathetic to the use of hallucinogens. Who would 
fail to attribute our "UFO experience" to the fact that we were tripping? But that is not the 
only difficulty with telling this story. The events at La Chorrera generated a great deal of 
controversy and subsequent bitterness among the participants. Several ideas of what was 
taking place were represented, each basing itself on data unavailable to or deemed 
irrelevant by the competing interpretations. What some of us took to be a metamorphosis 
toward the transcendental, others took for an outbreak of obsessional fantasy. 

We were poorly prepared for the events that overwhelmed us. We began as naive 
observers of something — we knew not what — and because our involvement with this 
phenomenon went on for many days, we were able to observe some aspects of it. I feel 
satisfied 



that the method of approach described here is generally effective for triggering whatever 
it is that I am calling the alien contact experience. (It may also be dangerous, so don't try 
this at home, folks.) 

Our first Stropharia trip at La Chorrera occurred on the twenty-second of February, 1971, 
only a little more than twenty-four hours after our arrival at La Chorrera and following 
the four-day walk through the jungle from San Jose del Encanto on the Rio Cara-Parana. 
My journal entry on the following day makes it clear that I was spellbound. It was the last 



thing I could bring myself to write for several weeks. All day I was suffused with 
contentment. I knew only that the mushroom was the best hallucinogen I had ever had 
and that it had a quality of aliveness I had never known before. It seemed to open 
doorways into places I had assumed would always be closed to me because of my 
insistence on analysis and realism. 

I had never had psilocybin before and was amazed at the contrast with LSD, which 
seemed more abrasively psychoanalytic and personal. In contrast, the mushrooms seemed 
so full of merry elfin energy that casting off into a visionary trance was all the more 
enticing. I sensed nothing of the magnitude of the forces that were gathering around our 
small expedition. I was thinking only that it was great these mushrooms were here. Even 
if we didn't find oo-koo-he or ayahuasca, we would always have them to fall back on, and 
certainly they were interesting. 

Our plan was to spend about three months slowly getting to know the botanical and social 
environment of the Witoto, who were living traditionally in a village about fourteen 
kilometers down a trail from the mission at La Chorrera on the Rio Igara-Parana. We 
knew oo-koo-he was taboo, so we were in no hurry. The day after our first mushroom 
experience was spent checking our equipment, after the rigors of the overland walk, and 
generally relaxing in the casita to which Father Jose Maria, the Capuchin in charge, had 
kindly shown us. We gathered more mushrooms that afternoon and dried them near the 
cooking fire. 

We decided we would take mushrooms again that night. I pulverized them into a snuff, 
which we all took. It was delicious, like some chocolate-related essence, and it was 
generally thought a success. I felt elated and very pleased with everything and impressed 
with what an extraordinarily beautiful place we had come to be in. 



But it was a different sort of experience. We were exhausted from the trip the night 
before, and as we all sat around waiting to get stoned, there was a lot of bickering 
between Vanessa and Dennis. Apparently he had had enough of her and said, "You know, 
you're pretty weird, and I'm going to tell you why," at which point he launched into a 
long monologue of accumulated gripes. 

The next day was spent relaxing, catching up on insect and plant collecting, washing 
clothes, and chatting with the priest and brother in residence, who were both part of an 
austere Franciscan order that did missionary work. Through them we put out the word 
that we were interested in people who knew things about medicinal plants. 

That afternoon a young Witoto named Basilio came to the ca-sita and, having heard of 
our interest from the priest, offered to take us to see his father, a shaman with a local 
reputation. Basilio assumed we were interested in ayahuasca, the better-known 
hallucinogen in the area, which is generally available for the asking. 



The oo-koo-he was a much more sensitive subject. There had been a murder at La 
Chorrera a month or two before we arrived — actually several murders — and Guzman 
claimed they all had to do with oo-koo-he. Supposedly a shaman had murdered one of 
two shaman brothers by painting the top rung of a ladder with a DMT-containing resin. 
When the victim grabbed the rung, the resin had absorbed through his fingers and he had 
gotten vertigo and fallen, breaking his neck. The shaman whose brother had been killed 
struck back by causing an accident. The alleged murderer's wife, daughter, and 
grandchild had been in a canoe above the chorro and, unaccountably unable to reach the 
shore, they had been swept over it. It was generally assumed that they were victims of 
magic. Only the wife had lived through it. It was not the time to be poking around asking 
about oo-koo-he. 

Basilio insisted that the ayahuasca was a day upriver at his father's malloca, or house. He 
had a small canoe, so only two of us could go with him. After consultation, it was 
decided that Ev and I should go. We left at once for the river and I took my film canister 
of snuff with us. 

The day was calm and the sky blue. An extraordinary peace and depthless serenity 
seemed to touch everything. It was as if the whole earth was softly exhaling its 
exhilaration. Had such a mood 



developed no further it would have passed into being but a pleasant memory; in light of 
later events, I now look back to that afternoon of deepening contentment and almost 
bucolic relaxation as the first faint stirring of a current that was shortly to sweep me 
toward unimaginably titanic emotions. 

When we arrived at Basilio's village late in the day, we found our new Witoto 
acquaintances very kind, a different sort from the Witoto of San Jose del Encanto. We 
were shown a matted tangle of cultivated ayahuasca plants and given cuttings and a 
bundle of the vine so that we could make our own brew. Basilio described to us his own 
single experience with ayahuasca when, several years before, after days of fever from an 
unknown cause, he had taken it with his father. He described the ayahuasca as a cold 
water infusion, rare for that area, where vigorous boiling usually plays a part in the 
preparation. After soaking the shredded ayahuasca for a day and a night, the unboiled 
water becomes hallucinogenically potent. There had been many "fences" to cross in 
Basilio's visions. He had a sense of flying. The father had seen the "bad air" that had 
weakened his son as coming from the mission, which was recognized as a place of ill 
omen. After this experience, Basilio recovered his health and was less often at the 
mission, he told us. It was all very interesting, our first exposure to "field conditions," 
and it accorded well with our data on ayahuasca usage and beliefs in the area. 

We hung our hammocks in a small hut near the main malloca that night. I dreamed 
offences and the pasture back at the mission. Early the next morning we were rowed back 



to the mission by Basilio. Our collections of Banisteriopsis caapi were reason enough for 
pride, but again I felt the elation whose depth could not be found. 

"Peculiar," I muttered to myself as we swung into sight of the mission overlooking its 
placid lake, with a row of date palms sweeping up from the boat landing. 

"Peculiar." 



CHAPTER FIVE 

A BRUSH WITH THE OTHER 

In which we move to a new home, and Dennis has a bizarre experience that divides our 
group. 

RETURNING TO OUR FRIENDS, we learned that during the day that we were gone 
some teachers, professores who had been expected to arrive to teach in the mission 
school, had finally appeared. They had been ferried in by a bush pilot, the notorious 
George Tsalikas, who served as La Chorrera's emergency link to the outside world and 
who brought the mail once a month. This meant that we needed new lodging, since we 
had been staying in the professores' quarters. The priest offered us the temporary use of a 
run-down hut that stood on stilts on a small rise below the mission, though it was well 
above the broad lake created by the chorro. It was in this small hut, instantly christened 
"the knoll house," that we proposed to live while we made arrangements to move farther 
into the nearby jungle and away from the somewhat confining atmosphere of the mission. 
That morning we rested, passed a joint around, and planned our next move. 

Dave and Vanessa had learned in conversations with Brother Luis, a white-bearded 
ancient who was the only other resident representative of the Church aside from Father 
Jose Maria, that there 



was a quite sturdy Witoto house which was unused and lying down the trail toward the 
village where our hopes for oo-koo-he centered. It normally stood empty but was now 
occupied by the people who had brought their children to the mission for the beginning of 
the school year. It is the practice of the Witoto to leave their children in the keeping of 
the padres for six or more months out of the year; the times of gathering at the mission at 
the beginning and end of the school year are high points of the Witoto social swirl and an 
excuse for soccer games and evening bailes, for the Witoto are inveterate dancers. We 
were in the midst of such a gathering time, but in a few days all the families would leave 
and there would be ample empty housing in the jungle. Dave, Dennis, and Vanessa had 
already inspected one place and determined it to be ideal, close to good insect- and plant- 
collecting and definitely in the jungle itself. 



We transferred our equipment to the knoll house and reslung our hammocks. It was 
cramped, but it would do until we could move into the forest. Then, almost in a collective 
motion, we set out in the early afternoon to the pastures behind the mission. Find the 
mushrooms. That was the thought on everyone's mind. We returned that evening to the 
house, each with six or eight carefully chosen specimens. These we ate and then, as the 
evening's trip deepened, we smoked joints rolled out of shavings of the freshly gathered 
Banisteriopsis caapi. The caapi smoke was delicious; it smelled like a light incense, and 
each toke synergized beautiful slow-motion volleys of delicate hallucinations, which we 
immediately dubbed "vegetable television." 

Each burst of imagery would last about fifteen minutes and subside; then we would take 
another hit of the caapi smoke. The cumulative effect persisted for a couple of hours. We 
triggered it repeatedly, and excitedly discussed it as an example of the sort of thing that 
sophisticated shamanic technicians must have been whipping up for each other's 
amazement since the late paleolithic. 

As the evening wore on, our conversation drifted toward and around the possibility of 
violating normal physics, discussing it in terms of a psychological versus a naive/realist 
view of shamanic phenomena. We were especially interested in the obsidian liquids that 
ayahuasqueros are said to produce on the surface of their skins and use 



to look into time.* The idea of a kind of hologramatic alchemical fluid, a self-generated 
liquid crystal ball, seemed to me very strange and somehow compelling. The question of 
whether or not such things are possible is actually a more gut issue in disguise: Is what 
we moderns have remaining to learn about the nature of reality slight and will it require 
only light fine-tuning of our current way of looking at things; or do we understand very 
little, missing the point entirely about the nature of our situation in being? I found myself 
arguing that reality is made of language and that we somehow had to step outside the 
cultural prison of language to confront a reality behind appearances. "If you would strike, 
strike through the mask!" That sort of thing. 

Rhetoric waxed hot and heavy. Ev, Dennis, and I became passionate defenders of this 
view. Vanessa and Dave insisted on a psychological-reductionist approach to unusual 
events. They argued that everything could be seen in a context of fantasy, delusion, and 
wish-fulfillment. For them nothing that occurred during hallucinations happened in the 
real world; only mental events were taking place. Then, ideology forgotten, they 
denounced the passion of our commitment as naive and obsessive. We retorted that they 
repressed the real power of the unconscious and that if they had come along to try to 
vindicate some behaviorist/materialist view of man, then they would be in for a surprise. 
And so on. 

The life of an expedition is full of stress and aggravated differences, and tension had 
simmered under the surface for weeks. But I believe that the real cause of tension even 
then was a sense that something in the mushroom experience was pulling everyone 



toward it, or at least precipitating a crisis during which we had to decide whether or not to 
go deeper into a dimension whose precise nature could not yet be seen. 

Each exposure to the mushroom was a learning experience with an unexpected 
conclusion. Three of us were ready to become alchemical children, ready to strip down 
and climb into the sophic fountain and take the measure of the thing from the inside. 

[* See Terence McKenna and Dennis McKenna, The Invisible Landscape (New York: 
The Seabury Press, 1975), chapter six.] 



Call it Faustian or obsessed, that was our position. I considered it continuing the program 
of investigations that brought us to La Chorrera in the first place. For Vanessa and Dave, 
however, the reality of the dimension we were exploring, or rather our growing insistence 
that somehow it was a dimension with elements more than merely psychological, was 
seen as a threat. So there we were, a group of friends sharing a common set of symbols, 
completely isolated in the jungle, struggling with an epistemological problem upon 
whose eventual solution our sanity would seem to depend. 

And so, and in short, Dave and Vanessa withdrew from us, withdrew from the excited 
speculative conversations with their intimations of the possibility of being overwhelmed 
by the unseen. There were no arguments or scenes, but after that night there was a tacit 
and mutual understanding that a fork in the road had been reached. Some of us were 
committed to going more deeply into the idea systems of the mushroom trance, and some 
were disturbed by the sudden depth of things and preferred only to witness the occasion. 
The cramped knoll house and the polarizing of our two approaches combined to inspire 
Vanessa to expand her checker-playing contacts with the police garrison of three young 
Colombians forlornly homesick for their Andean homes. After several closely fought 
games, she had a full-fledged invitation to relieve our crowded conditions by moving 
with Dave into an unused riverside house nominally in the care of the police. Later, this 
house, which was at the river landing of La Chorrera, would be the site of my own brush 
with the Other. Vanessa and Dave took down their hammocks and quietly moved down 
the hill to the new "riverside house." Their departure was friendly. They would spend 
more time in the water now, Vanessa laughed. 

It was the sixth day of our residence at La Chorrera. We had taken the mushrooms three 
times. We were healthy, relaxed, and delighted with ourselves for having come so far in 
such good shape. There were insects and plants to collect and the lake beneath the chorro 
to swim in. My new relationship with Ev seemed promising and was well launched by 
then. We were being lulled by the warm, tropical sun in the depthless blue sky. Such 
unconsciousness seems almost the precondition for change. Events were stirring on some 
deep and unseen level. 



That morning, after the departure of our two friends, Dennis, Ev, and I each lay in our 
own hammock, lost in thought as the heat and insect shrill built toward midday. My 
journal entries had ceased, my careful writing now replaced by long flights of reverie, 
dizzying and beautiful, the faint traces of the deepening contact with the Other, though I 
did not then recognize it for that. Another warm night came upon us, and we slept long 
and well. When the morning ground fogs had burned away, this new day was revealed to 
be as pristine and as flawless as the days always seemed to be in this marvelously 
beautiful, jungle-isolated settlement. Each day seemed like an alchemical pearl born from 
the warm and starry night preceding. 

We used that day to explore the extraordinary lake edge in the direction of the chorro. 
With its abrupt narrowing of the Igara-Parana and sudden terrible increase of power and 
speed, the chorro is impressive enough. But the lake into which it empties its waters is no 
mere catch-basin for the rapids; it is the site of some ancient geological catastrophe that 
shattered the basaltic layer deep beneath the earth's surface, peeling back a great hole and 
laying thousands of house-sized rock fragments near the cliff, on the northern side of the 
lake. The mission is perched on the top of this basaltic knoll and is the highest point in 
the immediate vicinity. 

We followed the river and then made our way along the bluffs leading down to the 
chorro, until finally, a couple of hundred feet from the chorro, it was so steep that we 
could go no further. But at that distance the ground was shuddering with the throbbing 
reverberations of millions of tons of water cascading through the rock walls of the chorro. 
Unusual ground-clinging plants seemed endemic there in that turbulent atmosphere of 
mist- whipped sand and thundering noise. The feeling of being so small among such 
sharply shattered stone and so close to the energy of the rapids was eerie and somewhat 
disturbing. I felt considerably relieved as we climbed hand over hand up the bluffs and 
made our way back through the meadows and pastures that the mission had cleared over 
the years with the free labor of its Witoto parishioners. 

Once on level ground and still well within the aura of the chorro, we rested. There, on the 
point of land overlooking the entire surrounding area, the mission had long ago 
established a small 



cemetery. Within a rudely fenced, hexagonal area, perhaps two dozen graves, many of 
them obviously of children, were eroding away. The shocking red of the lateritic soil was 
here laid bare. It was a place touched with sad loneliness even on a perfect sunny day. 
Our respite finished, we hurried away from the odd combination of emptiness, solitude, 
and the distant roar of moving water. 

Our walk and the exposure to so much sun and stone sent us as if by instinct toward the 
unbroken green wall of the jungle across the pastures behind the mission. Broad sandy 
trails led to the system of Witoto, Bora, and Muinane villages that are the "indigenous 



component" of Comasaria Amazonas, the rest being a few missions, police, and 
unclassifiables — traders mostly — and ourselves. 

We wandered down the trail, checked on our home-to-be, and found it still occupied. 
Returning through the pastures under a spectacular sunset, we gathered more mushrooms, 
enough for Ev, Dennis, and I to each take more than we ever had before, perhaps twenty 
mushrooms apiece. 

It was during that walk through the pasture that I noticed for the first time, or at least 
mentioned for the first time, that everything was very beautiful and that I felt so good that 
I had a strange sense of being in a movie, or somehow larger than life. Even the sky 
seemed to have a slight fish-eye lens effect, as though everything were cinematically 
exaggerated. What was this? Was it a slight distortion of space brought on by 
accumulating levels of psilocybin? Psilocybin can induce such perceptual distortions. I 
felt ten feet high; just a touch of the superhuman, or a bit like Alice, whose mushroom 
eating made her alternately tall and small. It was odd, but very pleasing. 

Back at the knoll house we kindled a fire and boiled rice for a light supper. Rain was 
falling intermittently. After dinner, we smoked and waited a long time, thinking that 
Vanessa and Dave might visit. Finally it began to drizzle a bit harder, and so we 
withdrew into the house and each of us ate a large pile of mushrooms. The onset of the 
Stropharia was rapid, and the hallucinations very vivid, but despite the larger dose, after 
an hour or so the experience did not seem to be particularly different from the earlier 
trips. We came out of our reveries and conversed softly about our reactions. 



Dennis complained that he felt blocked from a deep connection by concern for our father 
in Colorado, about whether or not he had gotten our last messages to him before we set 
off down the Rio Pu-tumayo. Dennis seemed melancholy, as if his homesickness had 
been amplified by the hallucinogen. At least that's what I supposed. I tried to reassure 
him, and we talked softly in the darkness for several minutes. He said that his trip 
consisted of many things, a suffusing inner heat and a strange inaudible buzzing that gave 
him, so he said, insight into glossolalia-like linguistic phenomena, which I had 
experienced on DMT and had described to him before. I asked him to imitate the sounds 
that he was hearing, but he seemed to think it was not possible. While we talked, the 
drizzle lifted somewhat, and we could faintly hear the sound of a transistor radio being 
carried by someone who had chosen the let-up in the storm to make his or her way up the 
hill on a small path that passed a few feet from our hut. Our conversation stopped while 
we listened to the small radio sound as it drew near and then began to fade. 

What happened next was nothing less than a turn of events that would propel us into 
another world. For with the fading of the radio Dennis gave forth, for a few seconds, a 
very machine-like, loud, dry buzz, during which his body became stiff. After a moment's 
silence, he broke into a frightened series of excited questions. "What happened?" and, 
most memorably, "I don't want to become a giant insect!" 



Dennis was clearly quite disturbed by what had happened, and both Ev and I attempted to 
calm him. It was obvious that what to us had seemed only a strange sound had far 
different effects on the person who made it. I understood his predicament because it was 
familiar to me from DMT experiences, where a kind of glossolalia of thought, which had 
seemed the very embodiment of meaning to me, seemed mere gibberish when verbalized 
and heard by other people. 

Dennis said there was a tremendous energy in the sound and that he had felt it like a 
physical force of some kind. We discussed it for several minutes, then Dennis decided 
that he wished to attempt the effect again. This he did, but for a much shorter time, again 
reporting that he experienced a great amount of energy being 



unleashed. He said he felt as if he might have left the ground if he had directed his voice 
downward. We wondered if one could make a sound capable of having a synergistic 
effect on metabolizing drugs, while Dennis suggested that chanting might make some 
drugs metabolize more rapidly. According to Dennis, from the inside it felt as if he had 
acquired a shamanic power of some sort. 

He began pacing around and wishing aloud that Vanessa would appear out of the gloom 
with her skepticism, which he felt would crumble when confronted with his testimony of 
the reality of something strange. I told him that she would only think of it as a peculiar 
sound in combination with a hallucinogen she was growing uncertain of. 

At one point Dennis became so excited that we all left the hut and stood looking out into 
the pitch darkness. Dennis contemplated going immediately to find Vanessa and Dave to 
discuss with them what had happened. Finally, a bewildered Ev and I convinced him to 
return to the hut and leave it all for the morning. 

Once back in the hut, we tried again to figure out what was going on. I felt Dennis's 
amazement was perfectly reasonable; it was my own encounter with the visionary and 
linguistic powers of DMT that had originally sent me looking into hallucinogens and 
their place in nature. It is incredible to see all that you believe about reality changed 
around by these plant metabolites. Excitement is a reasonable reaction to such an 
edifying, even terrifying, experience. 

My brother and I had been close over the years and especially close since our mother's 
death, but there were experiences that I had had while traveling in Asia that we had not 
yet shared. To calm us all and to argue for the universality of the kind of experience that 
Dennis had just had, it occurred to me to tell a story. 



CHAPTER SIX 



KATHMANDU INTERLUDE 



In which a flashback to Tantric excesses in the head nests of hippie Asia illuminates 
strange mushroom experiences at La Chorrera. 

Two YEARS BEFORE, during the spring and summer of 1969, 1 had lived in Nepal and 
studied the Tibetan language. The wave of interest in Buddhist studies was just 
beginning, so those of us in Nepal with Tibetan interests were a tightly knit group. My 
purpose in studying Tibetan was different from that of most Westerners involved with the 
language in Nepal. They were nearly all interested in some aspect of Mahayana Buddhist 
thought, while I was interested in a religious tradition that antedated the seventh century 
and the introduction of Buddhism into Tibet. 

This indigenous pre-Buddhist religion of Tibet was a kind of shamanism closely related 
to the motifs and cosmology of the classical shamanism of Siberia. Tibetan folk 
shamanism, called Bon, continues to be practiced today in the mountainous area of Nepal 
that borders Tibet. Its practitioners are generally despised by the Buddhist community, 
being thought of as heretics and as generally low types. 



My interest in Bon and its practitioners, the Bon-po, arose out of a passion for Tibetan 
painting. It is common in such painting that the most fantastic, extravagant, and ferocious 
images are drawn from the pre-Buddhist substratum of folk imagery. The terrifying, 
multi-armed, and multi-headed guardians of the Buddhist teaching, called Dharmapalas, 
with their auras of flame and light, are autochthonous Bon deities whose allegiance to the 
late-arriving Buddhist religion is maintained only by powerful spells and rituals that bind 
and secure the loyalty of these forceful demons. 

It seemed to me that the shamanic tradition that spawned such outlandish and fantastic 
images must at some time have had the knowledge of a hallucinogenic plant. Shamanic 
ecstasy in Siberia was known to be attained through the use of the mushroom Amanita 
muscaria, and Gordon Wasson has made a good case for the use of the same mushroom 
in Vedic India. Since Tibet is situated roughly between these two areas, it did not seem 
impossible that, before the coming of Buddhism, hallucinogens were part of the 
indigenous shamanic tradition. 

Amanita muscaria was only one of several candidates that might have served as a 
hallucinogen in ancient Tibet. Pegamum harmala of the Zygophallaceae family is another 
suspect. It, like Banisteriopsis caapi, contains the hallucinogenic beta-carboline alkaloid 
harmaline in considerable quantities and is probably hallucinogenic by itself. Certainly in 
combination with a DMT-containing plant, of which the flora of India boasts several, it 
should yield a strong hallucinogen whose composition would not differ chemically from 
the ayahuasca brews of the Amazon.* 



My interest in Tibetan painting and hallucinogenic shamanism led me to Nepal. I had 
learned there were refugee camps in Nepal and near Simla in India whose populations 
were nearly entirely outcast Bon-po, unwelcome in the camps where Buddhist refugees 
were housed. I wanted to learn from the Bon-po whatever knowledge they still retained 
of hallucinogens they might once have known and used. I wished, in my naivete, to prove 
my hypothesis 

[* The giant river reed, Arundo donax for example, occurs in India and its roots contain 
DMT. See S. Ghosal, S. K. Dutta, A. K. Sanyal, and Bhattacharya, "Arundo donex L. 
(Graminae), Phytochemical and Pharmacological Evaluation," in the Journal of Medical 
Chemistry, vol. 12 (1969), p. 480.] 



about the influence of plant hallucinogens on Tibetan painting and then write a 
monograph about it. 

As soon as I arrived in Asia, the enormity of the task and the effort that this project would 
require were seen more nearly in their correct proportions. My proposed plan was 
actually an outline for a life of scholarly research! Naturally, I found that nothing could 
be done at all until I was familiar with the Tibetan language, so I put aside all my 
research ideas and resolved to dedicate myself to learning as much Tibetan as I could in 
the few months that circumstances gave me in Nepal. 

I moved out of Kathmandu, away from the pleasures of the hashish dens and the social 
swirl of the international community of travelers, smugglers, and adventurers that has 
made the town its own. I moved to Boudanath, a small village of great antiquity a few 
miles east of Kathmandu and recently flooded with Tibetans from Lhasa — people who 
spoke the Lhasa dialect that is understood throughout the Himalayas. The people of the 
village were Buddhist and I made my arrangements to study with the monks there 
without mentioning my interest in the Bon-po. I sought lodging and came to terms with 
Den Ba-do, the local miller and a Newari, one of the main ethnic groups of Nepal. He 
agreed to rent me a room on the third floor of his prosperous adobe house, which fronted 
the muddy main street of Boudanath. I struck a bargain with a local girl who agreed to 
bring me fresh water each day, and I settled comfortably in. I whitewashed the adobe 
walls of my room, commissioned a huge mosquito net in the market in Kathmandu, and 
arranged my books and small Tibetan writing bench inside. Finally at ease, I set about 
cultivating my image as a young traveler and scholar. 

Tashi Gyaltsen Lama was my teacher. He was a very kind and understanding Gelugpa. In 
spite of his advanced age, he would arrive every morning promptly at seven for our two- 
hour lesson. I was like a child; we began with penmanship and the alphabet. Each 
morning, after the lama departed, I would study for several more hours and then the rest 
of the day was my own. I explored the King of Nepal's game sanctuary farther east of 
Boudanath and the Hindu cremation ghatts at nearby Pashupathinath. I also made the 
acquaintance of a few Westerners who were living in the vicinity. 



Among the latter were an English couple my own age. They were self-consciously 
fascinating. He was thin and blonde, with an aquiline nose and an arch manner typical of 
the model product of the British public school system. He was haughty and urbane, but 
eccentric and often hilarious. She was small and unhealthily thin — scrawny is the word I 
used to describe her to myself. Red-haired, wild-tempered, and cynical, she, like her 
companion, possessed a razor wit. 

They had both been disowned by their families and were traveling hippies, as we all were 
then. Their relationship was bizarre — they had come together from England, but the 
relaxation of tension, which arrival in bucolic Nepal had brought, had been too much for 
their fragile liaison. Now they lived apart, he at one end of Boudanath and she, alone, at 
the other. They met only for the combined purpose of "paying calls" or of abrading each 
other's nerves. 

For some reason, in that exotic setting they managed to charm me completely. Whether 
they were alone or together, I was always willing to pause from my studies to pass the 
time with them. We became fast friends. Naturally we discussed my work, since it 
involved hallucinogens; they were very interested, being familiar with LSD from their 
days in the London scene. We also discovered that we had mutual friends in India and 
that we all loved the novels of Thomas Hardy. It was a very pleasant idyll. 

During this time the method I had evolved for probing the shamanic dimension was to 
smoke DMT at the peak point of an LSD experience. I would do this whenever I took 
LSD, which was quite occasionally. It would allow me to enter the tryptamine dimension 
for a slightly extended period of time. As the summer solstice of 1969 approached, I laid 
plans for another such experiment. 

I was going to take LSD the night of the solstice and sit up all night on my roof, smoking 
hashish and star-gazing. I mentioned my plan to my two English friends, who expressed a 
desire to join me. This was fine with me, but there was a problem; there was not enough 
reliable LSD to go around. My own tiny supply had arrived in Kathmandu, prophetically 
hidden inside a small ceramic mushroom mailed from Aspen. 

Almost as a joke, I suggested that they substitute the seed of the Himalayan Datura, 
Datura metel, for the LSD. Daturas are 



annual bushes and the source of a number of tropane alkaloids — scopalamine, 
hylosciamine, and so on — compounds that produce a pseudo-hallucinogenic effect. They 
give an impression of flying or of confronting vague and fleeting visions, but all in a 
realm hard to keep control of and hard to recollect later. The seeds of Datura metel are 
used in Nepal by saddhus (wandering hermits and holy men), so their use was known in 
the area. Nevertheless my suggestion was made facetiously, since the difficulty of 



controlling Datura is legendary. To my surprise, my friends agreed that this was 
something they wanted to do, so we arranged that they would arrive at my home at six 
P.M. on the appointed day to make the experiment. 

When the evening finally came, I moved my blankets and pipes up to the roof of the 
building. From there I could command a fine view of the surrounding village with its 
enormous Stupa, a conical temple with staring Buddha eyes painted on its higher portion 
in gold leaf. The upper golden levels of the Stupa were at that time encased in 
scaffolding, where repairs necessitated by a lightning strike suffered some months 
previously were under way. The white-domed bulk of the Stupa gave the whitewashed 
adobe mud village of Boudanath a saucerian and unearthly quality. Farther away, rising 
up many thousands of feet, I could see the great Anna-purna Range; in the middle 
distance, the land was a patchwork of emerald paddies. 

Six o'clock came and went, and my friends had not arrived. At seven they still had not 
been seen, and so I took my treasured tab of Orange Sunshine and settled down to wait. 
Ten minutes later, they arrived. I could already feel myself going, so I gestured to the two 
piles of Datura seeds that I had prepared. They took them downstairs to my room and 
ground them with a mortar and pestle before washing them down with some tea. By the 
time they had returned to the roof and gotten comfortably settled, I was surging through 
mental space. 

Hours seemed to pass. When they seated themselves, I was too distant to be aware of 
them. She was seated directly across from me, and he farther back and to one side, in the 
shadows. He played his flute. I passed the hash pipe. The moon rose full and high in the 
sky. I fell into long hallucinatory reveries that each lasted many minutes but felt like 
whole lifetimes. When I had emerged from 



a particularly long spell of visions, I found that my friend had stopped playing and had 
gone away, leaving me with his lady. 

I had promised them both that I would let them try some DMT during the evening. My 
glass pipe and tiny stash of waxy orange DMT were before me. Slowly, and with the 
fluid movements of a dream, I filled the pipe and gave it to her. The stars, hard and 
glittering, stared down from a mighty distance on all of this. She held the pipe and took 
two deep inhalations, sufficient for a person so frail, then the pipe was returned to me, 
and I followed her into it with four huge inhalations, the fourth of which I held onto until 
I had broken through. For me it was an enormous amount of DMT, and I immediately 
had a sense of entering a high vacuum. I heard a high-pitched whine and the sound of 
cellophane ripping as I was transformed into the ultra-high-frequency orgasmic goblin 
that is a human being in DMT ecstasy. I was surrounded by the chattering of elf machines 
and the more-than- Arabian vaulted spaces that would shame a Bibiena. Manifestations of 
a power both alien and bizarrely beautiful raged around me. 



At the point where I would normally have expected the visions to fade, the pretreatment 
with LSD synergized my state to a higher level. The cavorting hoards of DMT elf 
machines faded to a mere howling as the elfin mob moved on. I suddenly found myself 
flying hundreds of miles above the earth and in the company of silvery disks. I could not 
tell how many. I was fixated on the spectacle of the earth below and realized that I was 
moving south, apparently in polar orbit, over Siberia. Ahead of me I could see the Great 
Plain of Shang and the mass of the Himalayas rising up in front of the red-yellow waste 
of India. The sun would rise in about two hours. In a series of telescoping leaps, I went 
from orbit to a point where I could specifically pick out the circular depression that is the 
Kathmandu Valley. Then, in the next leap, the valley filled my field of vision. I seemed 
to be approaching it at great speed. I could see the Hindu temple and the houses of 
Kathmandu, the Temple of Svayambhu-nath to the west of the city and the Stupa at 
Boudanath, gleaming white and a few miles to the east. Then Boudanath was a mandala 
of houses and circular streets filling my vision. Among the several hundred rooftops I 
found my own. In the next moment I slammed into 



my body and was refocused on the roof top and the woman in front of me. 

Incongruously, she had come to the event wearing a silver satin, full-length evening 
dress — an heirloom — the sort of thing one could find in an antique clothing store in 
Notting Hill Gate. I fell forward and thought that my hand was covered by some cool, 
white liquid. It was the fabric of the dress. Until that moment neither of us had considered 
the other a potential lover. Our relationship had functioned on quite a different level. But 
suddenly all the normal sets of relations were obviated. We reached out toward each 
other, and I had the distinct impression of passing through her, of physically reaching 
beyond her. She pulled her dress over her head in a single gesture. I did the same with my 
shirt, which ripped to pieces in my hands as I took it off over my head. I heard buttons 
fly, and somewhere my glasses landed and shattered. 

Then we made love. Or rather we had an experience that vaguely related to making love 
but was a thing unto itself. We were both howling and singing in the glossolalia of DMT, 
rolling over the ground with everything awash in crawling, geometric hallucinations. She 
was transformed; words exist to describe what she became — pure anima, Kali, 
Leucothea, something erotic but not human, something addressed to the species and not 
to the individual, glittering with the possibility of cannibalism, madness, space, and 
extinction. She seemed on the edge of devouring me. 

Reality was shattered. This kind of fucking occurs at the very limit of what is possible. 
Everything had been transformed into orgasm and visible, chattering oceans of elf 
language. Then I saw that where our bodies were glued together there was flowing, out of 
her, over me, over the floor of the roof, flowing everywhere, some sort of obsidian liquid, 
something dark and glittering, with color and lights within it. After the DMT flash, after 
the seizures of orgasms, after all that, this new thing shocked me to the core. What was 
this fluid and what was going on? I looked at it. I looked right into it, and it was the 



surface of my own mind reflected in front of me. Was it translin-guistic matter, the living 
opalescent excrescence of the alchemical abyss of hyperspace, something generated by 
the sex act performed under such crazy conditions? I looked into it again and now saw in 



it the lama who taught me Tibetan, who would have been asleep a mile away. In the fluid 
I saw him, in the company of a monk I had never seen; they were looking into a mirrored 
plate. Then I realized that they were watching me! I could not understand it. I looked 
away from the fluid and away from my companion, so intense was her aura of 
strangeness. 

Then I realized that we had been singing and yodeling and uttering wild orgasmic howls 
for what must have been several minutes on my roof! It meant everyone in Boudanath 
would have been awakened and was about to open their doors and windows and demand 
to know what was going on. And what was going on? My grandfather's favorite 
expostulation seemed appropriate: "Great God! said the woodcock when the hawk struck 
him." This grotesquely inappropriate recollection brought uncontrollable laughter. 

Then the thought of discovery sobered me enough to realize that we must get away from 
this exposed place. Both of us were completely naked, and the scene around us was one 
of total, unex-plainable chaos. She was lying down, unable to rise, so I picked her up and 
made my way down the narrow staircase, past the grain storage bins and into my room. 
The whole time I remember saying over and over to her and to myself: "I am a human 
being. I am a human being." I had to reassure myself, for I was not at that moment sure. 

We waited in my room many minutes. Slowly we realized that by some miracle no less 
strange than everything else that had occurred, no one was awake demanding to know 
what was going on. No one seemed even to have heard! To calm us, I made tea and, as I 
did this, I was able to assess my companion's state of mind. She seemed quite delirious, 
quite unable to discuss with me what had happened only a few moments before on the 
roof. It is an effect typical of Datura that whatever one experiences is very difficult, 
indeed usually impossible, to recollect later. It seemed that while what had transpired had 
involved the most intimate of acts between two people, I was nevertheless the only 
witness who could remember anything at all of what had happened. 

Pondering all of this, I crept back to the roof and collected my glasses. Incredibly, they 
were unbroken, although I had distinctly heard them shatter. Obsidian liquids, the 
ectoplasmic excrescences 



of tantric hanky-panky, were nowhere to be seen. With my glasses and our clothes, I 
returned to my room where my companion was sleeping. I smoked a little hashish and 
then climbed into the mosquito net and lay down beside her. In spite of all the excitement 
and the stimulation of my system, I immediately went to sleep. 



I have no idea how long I slept. When I awoke it was with a start and from a deep 
slumber. It was still dark. And there was no sign of my friend, I felt a stab of alarm; if she 
was delirious then it would be dangerous for her to be wandering alone around the village 
at night. I jumped up and threw on my jalaba and began to search. She was not on the 
roof, nor near the grain storage bins. 

I found her on the ground floor of my building. She was sitting on the earthen floor 
staring at her reflection in the gas tank of a motorcycle, which belonged to the miller's 
son-in-law. Still disoriented in the way that is typical of Datura, she was hallucinating 
persons not present and mistaking one person for another. "Are you my tailor?" she asked 
me several times as I led her back to my room. "Are you my tailor?" 

When we were once again upstairs in my quarters, I took off my jalaba, and we both 
discovered that I was wearing what she delicately described as her "knickers." They were 
too small on me and neither of us knew how they had come to be there. This little cross- 
dressing episode capped an amazing evening, and I roared with laughter. I returned her 
knickers and we went to bed, puzzled, reassured, exhausted, and amused. 

As this experience passed behind us, the girl and I became even closer friends. We never 
made love again; it was not really the relationship that suited us. She remembered 
nothing of the events on the roof. About a week after all this was over, I told her my 
impression of what had happened. She was amazed but accepting. I did not know what 
had happened. I christened the obsidian fluid we had generated "luv," something more 
than love, something less than love, perhaps not love at all, but some kind of unplumbed 
potential human experience very little is known about. 



This is the story I told Dennis and Ev that night at La Chorrera as our hammocks swung 
in the lamplight and the intermittent rain beat down on the thatched roof of the knoll 
house. It was this incident that had kindled my interest in the violet fluids that ayahuasca 
shamans are said to generate on the surface of their skins and to use to divine and cure. 
Whenever I tell this story, it is the phenomenon of the liquid that I stress. That was what I 
accentuated to reassure Dennis that foggy night. I did not tell the absurd part about 
waking up wearing someone else's drawers. It was damned embarrassing and contributed 
nothing to the story. At that time I had never told anyone that part of the incident; it was a 
personal memory. I mention this because that absurd incident was later to become the 
focus of an instance of telepathy that was the most convincing I have ever witnessed. 



CHAPTER SEVEN 



A VIOLET PSYCHOFLUID 



In which Dennis begins to outline his approach to the Alchemical Opus and a psychofluid 
that may or may not be translinguistic matter is debated. 

My STORY FINISHED, we all went to sleep for a few fitful hours. In the dim light of 
dawn, Ev and I made our way to a cluster of huts about three-quarters of a mile away on 
the shore of the Igara-Parana above the chorro. We knew that Witoto, coming down the 
river to the mission to deliver their children to school, would be staying in those normally 
empty houses. Our hope was to buy some eggs, papayas, or squash to supplement our diet 
of brown rice, yucca, and plantains. 

We found only a small group of people whose only item for sale was a grapefruit-sized, 
green, heart-shaped fruit filled with slimy, vaguely sweet seeds awash in a light, purple 
syrup. At the time this fruit was unknown to science; a few years later Schultes would 
describe it and name it Macoubea witotorum. I have yet to encounter this fruit again. It 
was very inexpensive and since we had come with the expectation of buying something 
we spent fifteen pesos and got nearly fifty pounds of this curious food. Even though I had 
been up most of the night plying the hallucinogenic oceans of 



mind, I felt fit and full of vitality. I hoisted a bulging costal — our entire buy — and set off 
back toward the mission at a brisk pace. 

I enjoyed this chore. The costal seemed light, almost a pleasure to carry along. Without 
pause, even to rest for a moment, Ev and I returned to the mission and to Vanessa and 
Dave's riverside residence for our breakfast in common. When we had left our hut in 
search of food, Dennis had been deeply asleep, but he was up now and had apparently 
gone immediately to awaken Vanessa and describe to her his experiences of a few hours 
previous. The interior buzzing sound, the feeling of being possessed — it was all being 
excitedly told as we arrived at the house and I set down my load. Throughout the making 
of breakfast the events of the last evening were discussed and dissected. Vanessa and 
Dave were unmoved by Dennis's excited assertion that some extremely peculiar energy 
field had been tapped into and verified. At the end of breakfast I suggested to Dennis that, 
rather than arguing with people about the nature of the experience, he should go off by 
himself and write down all that he thought about the strange sound that he had made. He 
accepted this advice and made his way back up the hill to the knoll house to be alone and 
to write: 

February 28,1971 

I approach these pages with a peculiar sense of urgency as a man might who had 
confronted an unexplainable phenomenon as some impossible creation of dreams or 
unaccountable natural principle. The task facing such a man would be a very subtle one; 
that is, to describe the phenomenon as accurately as possible. My task is compounded by 
the fact that the phenomenon I must try to describe has itself to do with the very tools of 



description; i.e., language. This rather peculiar statement will begin to make more sense 
as we explore the concept more fully. 

Before going further, something tells me it is necessary to consider who I am. Twenty- 
four hours ago I thought I knew — now this has become the most perplexing question I 
have ever been confronted with. The questions leading from it will provide the answers 
that will allow us to understand and use the phenomenon which is so difficult to describe. 
These may be the last characters of 



a crude language that I will ever apply to the description of anything; since the 
phenomenon begins at the edge of language, where the concept- forming faculty gropes 
but finds no words, I must be careful to avoid not distinguishing between mere language- 
symbol-metaphor and the reality I am attempting to apply it to. 

When I read this prologue later, it seemed to me both grandiose and alarming, but Dennis 
had an aura of calm certitude that seemed to command respect. I felt that the Logos was 
struggling with the vocabulary of its newest vessel. He seemed to be making more and 
more sense, to be on to something. I read on: 

Since any phenomenon is, to a point, describable in empirical terms, so too with this one. 
It has to do with controlling one's body chemistry in such a way as to produce very 
specific vocal and au-dial phenomena: the state becomes possible when highly bio- 
dynamic vegetable alkaloids, specifically tryptamines and MAO-inhibitors,* are 
introduced into the body under very carefully regulated parameters. This phenomenon is 
apparently possible in the presence of tryptamines alone, though MAO inhibition 
definitely helps to trigger it by facilitating tryptamine absorption. The phenomenon has 
now been triggered by two people within our immediate group: Terence has been 
experimenting with vocal phenomena under the influence of DMT for some years now.+ 

Until last night, when I triggered and experienced this sound wave for a few brief seconds 
under the influence of nineteen Stropharia mushrooms, Terence was the only person I 
knew who claimed ability to perform this sound. But last night, after 

[* MAO-inhibitors are chemical compounds whose activity in the body slows down or 
interferes with Mono Amine Oxidase, an enzyme system that oxidizes many compounds 
in foods and drugs into harmless byproducts. In the presence of MAO-inhibitors, 
compounds that would normally be metabolized into inactive by-products instead have 
the duration of their physiological and psychological activity extended. 

+My experiments had consisted of having observed that the spontaneous glos-solalia that 
DMT caused in myself sometimes triggered a kind of seizure of synesthesia in which 
syntactical structures, spoken language, actually became visible. Some effect such as this 
may have been behind my rooftop experience in Nepal. Unusual linguistic and vocal 
displays seem to typify DMT intoxication.] 



ingesting the mushrooms, we lay waiting in our hammocks; the heavy poisoned feeling 
that commonly passes briefly over the limbs at the beginning of the Stropharia visions 
had by this time passed completely. It had given way, in me at least, to a warm suffusion 
of contentment and good feeling that actually seemed to burn away somewhere inside of 
me. Such feelings I have had before, both on mushrooms and just after DMT flashes. 
Then we began to discuss people far away and how we might attempt to contact them 
fourth-dimensionally; since apparently magical connection at a distance is a concern of 
shamanism this was not such a strange rap for us. But it was definitely at some point in 
time near to that conversation that I first heard the sound, immeasurably distant and faint, 
in the region between the ears, not outside, but definitely, incredibly there, perfectly 
distinct on the absolute edge of audible perception. A sound almost like a signal or very, 
very faint transmissions of radio buzzing from somewhere, something like tingling 
chimes at first, but gradually becoming amplified into a snapping, popping, gurgling, 
cracking electrical sound. I tried to imitate these noises with my vocal chords, just 
experimenting with a kind of humming, buzzing vocal sound made deep in the throat. 
Suddenly, it was as if the sound and my voice locked onto each other and the sound was 
my voice — but coming out of me in such a way that no human voice could possibly 
distort itself the way mine was doing. The sound was suddenly much intensified in 
energy and was like the sound of a giant insect. 

While Dennis wrote, the rest of us swam indolently in the river and washed our laundry 
under a clear, infinitely blue, and empty Amazonian sky. The background drone of the 
cicadas would occasionally rise in a coherent wave and sweep over the warm and shining 
surface of the gently drifting Igara-Parana, falling like electricity across the land in the 
heat of the equatorial day. 

Late that afternoon, Dennis came back down to the edge of the river looking for me. He 
found me washing out my tennis shoes on a large, flat rock that the shifting height of the 
river had conveniently exposed just a foot or so above the water line. Doubtless 



whenever it was so exposed it served as the favorite local laundry spot. It was a magic 
spot, but its magic at that moment was still fourteen days into the future. There we sat 
and talked. It had been about sixteen hours since the previous evening's episode with the 
strange sound. Dennis said that the writing exercise had been very useful. 

"Great! And so what have you come up with?" 

"I'm not sure. I'm very excited, but whatever it is that's the cause of my excitement is also 
developing ideas in my mind nearly faster than I can write them down." 



"Ideas? What sort of ideas?" 



"Funny ideas. Ideas about how we can use this effect, or this stuff, or whatever it is. My 
intuition is that it is related to the psy-chofluids that Michael Harner reported in the July 
1969 issue of Natural History and to what happened to you in Boudanath. Remember 
how Harner implied that ayahuasqueros vomited a magical substance that was the basis 
of their ability to divine? This is like that, some sort of translinguistic stuff made with the 
voice." 

We talked at length there by the river's edge, ranging over the options and the 
possibilities. He was insistent in linking my experience in Nepal with a very strange 
phenomenon that occurred in Jivaro shamanism in Ecuador. The people take ayahuasca 
after which they, and anyone else who has taken ayahuasca, are able to see a substance 
that is described as violet or deep blue and that bubbles like a liquid. When you vomit 
from taking ayahuasca, this violet fluid comes out of your body; it also forms on the 
surface of the skin, like sweat. The Jivaro do much of their magic with this peculiar stuff. 
These matters are extremely secret. Informants insist that the shamans spread the stuff out 
on the ground in front of them, and that one can look at this material and see other times 
and other places. According to their reports, the nature of this fluid is completely outside 
of ordinary experience: it is made out of space/time or mind, or it is pure hallucination 
objectively expressed but always keeping itself within the confines of a liquid. 

Harner's work among the Jivaro did not stand alone. Since the beginnings of 
ethnographic reporting out of the Amazon there have been rumors and unconfirmed 
reports of magical excrement and 



magically empowered psychophysical objects generated out of the human body using 
hallucinogens and song. I recalled the alchemical observation that the secret is hidden in 
feces. 

"Matter that is hyperdimensional and therefore translinguistic? Is that what you mean?" I 
asked Dennis. 

"Yes. Whatever that means, but something like that, I suppose. Gad! Why not? I mean it's 
pretty nuts, but it's also the symbol system we brought with us running into the shamanic 
magic that we came here looking for. 'This is what you shipped for, man, to chase the 
White Whale over all sides of ocean and both sides of earth till he spout black blood and 
roll fin out.' Isn't that your rap?" 

The resort to Melvillian rhetoric was unexpected and not like him. Where did he get this 
stuff? "Yes, I suppose." 

"But here is the thing; if there is something weird going on, then we should observe it and 
see what it is and try to reduce it to some coherent framework. Granted we don't know 
what it is that we are dealing with, but on the other hand, we know that we came here to 
investigate shamanic magic generally, so now we have to go to work on this effect, or 



whatever it is, and just hope that we know what we are doing and have enough data to 
crack it. We are too isolated to do anything else, and to ignore it might be to squander a 
golden opportunity." 

"Yes, you're right," I said. "So here we are, very much on the brink of deep water. We are 
having something like beginner's luck, you know, finding the 'Other' so accessible. The 
mushroom is doing this, or the mushroom and the ayahuasca smoking — it is hard to be 
sure. So many variables. There is a lot of synchronistic activity as well." 

"Right. I feel on the brink of something tremendous. We must just observe our active 
fantasy closely and try to ride herd on what is developing. The good old Jungian method, 
that's all." 

"Yes," I said, "ideally all of this could be distilled down to the point where some sort of 
test of the validity of the effect could somehow be set up." 

I recalled that there is an instance in The Teachings of Don Juan where the Peyote entity, 
Mescalito, holds up his hand, and in its palm Carlos Castaneda sees a past incident in his 
life. 



If this phenomenon has any empirical validity, perhaps what happens is that a very thin 
film of this projection-sensitive transdi-mensional goo is present. And when you look at 
it, it is like perfect feedback. It is a mirror — not of your physical reflection but of who 
you are. All this lays in the realm of speculation, of course. Does this stuff exist? Or is it 
just hallucination? Who can believe in a thing like that? 

Dennis felt strongly that it was connected with sound. One could either stabilize the stuff 
or cause it to appear by doing something with one's voice. It was a strange, slippery idea 
because one could extrapolate it infinitely, since whatever it was, it was made of the very 
stuff of imagination itself. If one shaped this stuff in three dimensions, it could be 
anything, yet this violet ectoplasmic mental liquid must only exist in the fourth 
dimension. It seemed possible to suppose that one might pierce the other dimension and 
have this fluid come boiling out. Flubber for eggheads. Mental silly putty. He talked a lot 
about it. I was ecstatic; I thought his ideas were wonderful. I felt it was yet another idea 
from the tryptamine ocean that had floated up into our nets. The question was: What 
could we do with it? 

Recalling it now, having learned so much in the intervening twenty years, it is hard to be 
sure just what we did believe at La Chorrera, just what level of sophistication we did 
achieve. Our mood was one of lightness and delight, the several mushroom experiences 
in that remote and beautiful place leading us to a gently swelling euphoria. It was a very 
happy time. We were excited with the prospect of actually grappling under near perfect 
conditions with "the Secret," as we called it then, meaning the spectrum of effects 
encountered in tryptamine-induced ecstasy. These had become the compass and the 



vehicle of our quest: the rose window topologies of the galacterian beehives of the di- 
methyltryptamine flash, that nexus of cheap talk and formal mathematics where wishes 
became horses and everybody got to ride. We were not unused to the idea of the Other, 
but we had only glimpsed it in brief flashes and in its manifestation as the lux natura, the 
spiritual radiance behind organic nature. We were in that moment the fans of the goddess, 
not yet her lovers. 

Everyone in our small expedition felt, I think, the sense of something opening around us, 
of the suspension of time, of turning 



and turning in a widening green world that was strangely and almost erotically alive, 
surrounding us for thousands of miles. The jungle as mind, the world hanging in space as 
mind — images of order and sentient organization came crowding in on all sides. How 
small we were, knowing little, yet fiercely proud of what we knew, and feeling ourselves 
somehow the representatives of humanity meeting something strange and Other, 
something at the edge of human experience since the very beginning. A proud and eerie 
grandeur seemed mixed with our enterprise as those first days at La Chorrera went by. 

The next day, the first of March, passed uneventfully. Dennis worked on his journal. I 
collected insects, and Vanessa photographed around the mission. At evening we were all 
gathered again at the edge of the knoll where our small lodging stood. In silent 
communion with each other and the river, Ev and I sat looking out over the lake. 

It was Ev who noticed it first. The lake beneath the chorro was flecked with foam 
generated by the rush of water through the narrow channel. The foam floating on the 
brown water served to mark the currents of the river as it widened into the lake and 
continued on the other side. It was at this that Ev exclaimed. After several minutes of 
watching the water, a change had suddenly stolen over the moving, marbled surface at the 
far side of the river. The water there appeared to have stopped. Just that, just simply to 
have stopped moving. The surface appeared frozen, yet the near half of the river was seen 
to continue as before. 

Dennis and Vanessa were called out of the hut, and they agreed that the effect was 
remarkable. I wandered away as they began to speculate on the causes — the time of day, 
the light conditions, optical illusions, and all the rest. I seemed to have no heart for these 
arguments; each time they broke out, I found myself with some deep, inner assurance that 
the situation was moving forward just as it should and that everyone was playing a part 
and doing it very well. 

This mood of calm and insightful resignation was something new to me, perhaps 
enhanced by the taking of the mushrooms, but it had developed during the month in 
Colombia preceding our trek into the jungle. A few weeks earlier, I would have 
participated in 



these sorts of discussions; now I let them take their own course. As I walked, I looked for 
a place to sit down — Dennis had offered me his journal entry for that day to read: 

March 1,1971 

Last night I again triggered the phenomenon after having eaten one mushroom and 
smoking grass. It was almost identical to the first experience — a lifting, pulsing wave of 
vocal buzzing growing loud very quickly and picking up shock energy as it did so. 
Though I could have prolonged the sound beyond a brief burst, I did not because of the 
energy. I am certain that soon it will become possible to trigger the sound completely 
without tryptamines or other drugs. It is becoming easier to plug-in on each time, and I 
feel now that it is accessible at any time. It is clearly a learned activity that tryptamines 
can initiate and trigger, but it can happen without tryptamines once it is understood and 
mastered. We have thus far been able to establish the existence of peculiar vocal 
phenomena in two individuals subject to similar experimental controls. We must now 
attempt to understand what it is that the phenomenon could be. We must perform 
experiments with the sound and from our results develop theories to understand the 
processes at work. Terence has experimented with these sounds far more than anyone 
else (and I am the only other that I know of), and he has discovered some interesting 
things. 

Things such as that the normally invisible syntactical web that holds both language and 
the world together can condense or change its ontological status and become visible. 
Indeed there seems to be a parallel mental dimension in which everything is made of the 
stuff of visible language, a kind of universe next door inhabited by elves that sing 
themselves into existence and invite those who encounter them to do the same. 

The DMT-initiated state, which allows prolonged bursts of this vocal energy, he 
describes as being one of seeing the levels of sound become more dense as they finally 
materialize into small, gnome-like, machine-like creatures made of material like obsidian 
froth, which pours from the body, mouth, and sex organs as long as the 



sound continues. It is effervescent, phosphorescent, and indescribable. Here is where the 
linguistic metaphors become useless, for what the material actually is is supra-linguistic 
matter; it is a language, but not made of words — a language which becomes and which is 
the things it describes. It is a more perfect archetypal Logos. We are convinced that 
through experimentation with these vocal phenomena, with and without the aid of drugs, 
it will be possible to understand and use trans linguistic matter to accomplish any reality, 
for to say anything in this voice is to cause that thing to happen! 

Non-chemists ourselves at that point, we had been able to turn the condensation of spirit 
into the idea of translinguistic matter. Word, object, and cognition had become fused in 



the best tradition of the higher Tantric yogas. My brother was in the grip of a revelation 
of the alchemical mystery in the most traditional sense. 

Such a rash statement would be outlandish if it were not for our long and tedious 
speculations on the matter. Our studies in the chemistry of mind, the metabolism of 
tryptamine, the nature of thought, of consciousness, history, magic, shamanism, quantum 
and relativistic physics, metamorphosis in insects, alchemical processes, etc., together 
with the intuitive understanding of acausal and synchronistic events that we are deriving 
from the Stropharia, allows us to venture a not entirely wild guess as to what this sound 
which takes form may be. Hallucinogens, by effecting the neural matrix, can produce 
changes in consciousness in the temporal dimension. Clearly, consciousness can work 
changes in three dimensions as well. On tryptamines it is possible, under special 
conditions, to hear and vocalize a sound that turns through a higher dimensional manifold 
and condenses as translinguistic matter, i.e., matter reduplicated upon itself through time, 
much as a hologram is reduplicated through space. The substance whose appearance the 
sounds initiate is tryptamine metabolized by mind through a higher spatial dimension. It 
is a hyperdimen-sional molecule carrying its trip on the outside of itself in "this" world. 
The hyperdimensional nature of this material is such that it is all material, concepts, 
events, words, people, and ideas 



homogenized into one thing via the higher dimensional alchemy of mind. 

This is the idea of the mysterious magical phlegm, the legend of which survives on the 
less-traveled side tributaries of the Amazon. There, persistent rumors circulate of a 
magical material, generated out of one's body by master shamans, that allows one to cure, 
work magic, and obtain information unavailable by any normal means. Like the magic 
mirrors familiar from fairy tales, the magical fluids of rainforest rumor are windows on 
distant times and places. Our task was to create a credible model of how such a 
phenomenon could operate without leaving the known or suspected laws of physics and 
chemistry far behind. It was a real challenge. Dennis speculated in his journal: 

Many questions occur concerning the phenomenology of this temporal hologram as fluid 
matrix. We speculate it is hyperdimen-sionally metabolized tryptamine — an alchemical 
phenomenon which is a correct union of tryptamine (a compound nearly ubiquitous in 
organic nature), with vocally produced sound mediated by mind. It is the mind that 
directs this process, and that direction consists of a harmonic atunement to an interiorized 
audio-linguistic phenomenon which may be an electron-spin resonance "tone" of the 
psilocybin molecule. When this tone is locked in on — a process which consists of 
vocally imitating the interior tone to perfection, the hyperdimensional tryptamine is 
produced. Is this substance mental as an idea is mental? Is it as real as an ordinary liquid, 
like water? Harner insisted that Jivaro shamans under the influence of MAO-inhibiting 
tryptamine plus Banisteri-opsis caapi (ayahuasca) infusions produce a fluorescent liquid 
by means of which they accomplish all of their magic. Though invisible to ordinary 
perception, this fluid is said to be visible to anyone who has ingested the brew. 



Ayahuasca is frequently associated with violet auras and deep blue hallucinations. This 
may indicate a thermal plasma, perhaps only visible in the UVspectrum. If this 
phenomenon is found to fall into the category "mental," indicated above, functioning as 
described, but with the limitation of not being tangential to ordinary space/time, it will 



still represent perfected understanding of the hyperdimension Jung named the collective 
unconscious. 

Looking back from the vantage point of over twenty years, these notes seem both arcane 
and naive. The idea of a possible unitary metamorphosis of the mental and physical 
worlds is counterintuitive and conceptually difficult, yet the belief that something real 
lies behind this phenomenon, or the idea of it, was a central factor in leading us to 
explore the shamanism of the Amazon Basin. At the time when I first read these notes, I 
doubted what I read. It seemed to go against the grain of common sense; I could not 
really understand them. Today, after years of education pushed toward understanding the 
events at La Chorrera, these ideas seem as magically near and yet as far away as they did 
then. We had a theory and we had an experience, and we soon decided to try to link them 
through an experiment whose results would have been preposterous unless there were 
some seed of operational truth in the bizarre ideas born in that period. 

Later that same evening, Ev, Dennis, and I smoked a joint of Santa Marta Gold before 
turning in. It was a calm, perfectly clear night when we sat down and began this ritual. Ev 
commented on the clarity of the night, and we all stared for a moment out into the galaxy. 
The night was awash with millions of stars. We smoked in awed silence. Perhaps five 
minutes went by, each of the three of us lost in our own ideas. The reverie ended with 
Dennis's exclamation. 

"Look how quickly the air conditions have changed. Now there is a ground fog just 
springing up." 

It was true. For about seventy feet in all directions there was a thick fog, only a few feet 
deep, hugging the ground. Even as we watched, the condition thickened and spread 
outward, becoming finally a general fog over the whole area. We had come from depth- 
less, clear night sky to dense fog in a few minutes. I was frankly amazed. Dennis was the 
first to offer an explanation, with a certainty that seemed as puzzling as the thing itself: 

"It's some kind of barometric instability that our burning joint was able to push over some 
critical threshold." 

"You must be putting me on!" I said. "You're saying that the heat from our joint started 
water condensing into visible fog right 



near us and that that was like a chain-reaction to all of the supersaturated air nearby? You 
can't be serious!" 

"No, no. That's it! And what's more, this is happening for a reason, or rather something, 
perhaps the mushroom, is using it as an example. It is a way of showing us that small 
instabilities in a system can trigger large general fluctuations." 

"Hoo-boy." 

This rap of Dennis's unsettled me. I could not imagine that his explanation was correct or 
exactly why he thought it made sense.* It passed through my mind for the first time that 
he might be spacing out mentally. I used no psychoanalytical jargon in thinking about it, 
but I noted a reaction in myself that included the idea that he might be unfolding into a 
mythopoetic reality, or as I thought of it then, "going bananas." 

By this time the fog was impenetrable, and we all retired for the night, but not before Ev 
related that in the silence before the appearance of the fog she had a hallucination. With 
her eyes closed, she saw a strange, elf-like creature rolling a complicated polyhedron 
along the ground. Each facet of this polyhedron seemed, she said, like a window onto 
another place in time or another world. 

"It's the stone!" I breathed. I could almost see her vision of the lapis philosophorum — the 
glittering goal of centuries of alchemical and Hermetic speculation glimpsed in the 
Amazonian night, now seeming a great multi-dimensional jewel, the philosopher's stone, 
in the keeping of a telluric gnome. The power of the image was deep and touching. I 
seemed to feel the spiritual dreams of the old alchemists, the puffers great and small, who 
had sought the lapis in the cloudy swirling of their alembics. I could feel the golden chain 
of adepts reaching back into the distant Hellenistic past, the Hermetic Opus, a project 
vaster than empires and centuries; nothing less than the redemption of fallen humanity 
through the respiritu-alization of matter. I had never seen or imagined the mystery of the 
stone thus, but in listening to Ev's description of what she had seen, an image formed in 
my mind that to this day remains with 

[* Of course, none of us could have known that much of the mathematical research of the 
decades ahead would explore just such ideas under the name of chaos theory and 
dynamics.] 



me. It is the image of the philosopher's stone as hyperdimensional jewel-become-UFO — 
the human soul as starship. It is the universal panacea at the end of time, all history being 
the shock wave of this final actualization of the potential in the human psyche. These 
thoughts, these reveries, seemed to me then like the stirring of something vast, something 
dimly sensed that was stretched out over millions of years, something about the destiny 
of humankind and the return of the soul to its awesome and hidden source. What was 
happening to us? 



The sense of the peculiar was nearly palpable. Dark oceans of time and space seemed to 
swell and flow beneath our feet. The image of the earth hanging in space was everywhere 
emotionally superimposed on the situation around us. And what was that situation really? 
I lay in my hammock, thrilled and uneasy at the edge of sleep, then I fell into deep sleep 
and deep dreams from which nothing remained in the morning save the sense of yawning 
interstellar space. 



CHAPTER EIGHT 
THE OPUS CLARIFIED 

In which Dennis reveals his strategy for commencing the Great Work. 

The MORNING OF MARCH 2, 1971, dawned crystalline and hot at La Chorrera. It was 
the much anticipated day when Ev, Dennis, and I would at last be able to take possession 
of the house in the forest, which was finally being vacated. This particular morning there 
was more than the usual amount of excitement associated with our frequent moves. For 
three days, ever since the glossolalia episode of the twenty-seventh, Dennis had been 
saying that the energy of the phenomenon was so great that we should not go any further 
unless we had the greater isolation that the forest house provided. 

Our move began shortly after dawn in order to avoid the heat of the day. The trek to 
move ourselves and our equipment to the new home involved going through pastures we 
had not seen since our mushroom experience three days before. The Stropharia seemed to 
be everywhere. There seemed not to be a cow-pie without its golden flush of perfect 
mushrooms. I promised myself that as soon as we had squared away the new hut and 
otherwise settled in, that we should again take the mushroom. 

However, in all of our recent surge of speculation, our original ethnobotanical intentions, 
the search for the elusive Oo-koo-he, had 



not been forgotten. Far from it. Our immediate intent was to use ayahuasca as a MAO- 
inhibitor and a problem-solving drug, and to brew and take the Banisteriopsis caapi that 
Ev and I had gotten from Basilio a few days before. 

As it happened, Ev and I spent the rest of the day following the move clearing the ground 
around the hut and pulling large tree roots out of the sandy soil. We stacked them in the 
sun to dry out so they could serve as fuel for the fire we needed to brew up our 
ayahuasca. We seemed to glory in physical exertion. Energy and light seemed to fill 
everything. Taking his notebook, Dennis, who had been rather withdrawn and snappish 
since his experience with inner sound and its mixed reception by us, wandered down the 
forest trail in the direction of the Witoto village thirteen kilometers away. 



In the middle of the afternoon he returned, very excited. He had completed writing out 
the preliminary notes for what became "the experiment at La Chorrera." It is the only 
written record of his ideas that was actually made at the time, and as such, it is the only 
piece of written, primary evidence that we have about how we viewed what we were 
doing as we were doing it. 

These notes do not of course represent the final form of our theorizing about these 
matters and are not at all to be taken at face value. Refinement of these ideas has been 
constant since their creation.* But how complete the vision was and how finely worked 
its detail! The theory that is represented in my brother's notes remains the operational 
basis for understanding the effect that was triggered on March fifth at the conclusion of 
the experiment. His notes were our working blueprint, and they were very effective. They 
are not, however, for the reader of faint heart, since they read like the words of an 
alchemical text. Alchemy is a test of the limits of language as much as a test of the limits 
of matter. Alchemical machinery runs smoothest in the imagination. Magicians will wish 
to linger over these alchemical mutterings, which I will help decipher in the next 

[*The scientific basis of our work is elaborately described in The Invisible Landscape. 
That work represented our considered, composite opinion as of 1975. Since then these 
ideas have been much revised as the myths and fallacies spun into the fabric of their first 
conception have been separated out.] 



chapter. The rest of my readers might wish to skim over them and hurry on with what is, 
even without the adumbrations of arcane theory, a ripping good story: 

March 2,1971 

Further experiments with the psycho-audible warp phenomenon yesterday raise some 
interesting new questions and enhance our ongoing understanding. I chose the term 
"audible warp " because my experience thus far, coupled with what I have been told, 
leads me to believe that this all has to do with vocally generating a specific kind of 
energy field which can rupture three dimensional space. I do not understand if the field is 
electromagnetic, but it seems to bend space in such a way as to turn it upon itself through 
a higher dimension. Here is how it is done: 

One must take enough psilocybin to allow the sound to be audible. This sound we 
understand to be the Electron Spin Resonance (ESR) of the psilocybin alkaloids within 
the mushroom. The presence of rapidly metabolizing high-energy tryptamines within the 
ayahuasca acts as an antenna that sensitizes the neural matrix to the spin resonance 
energy of the Stropharia psilocybin. It is this principle that allows the signal to be made 
audible. It must then be amplified via the tryptamine admixture antenna to what is felt to 
be its fullest amplitude. Then, via vocal sound, this energy is placed into the harmine 
complex within the body and within the mushroom which has been, in some small part, 



cooled to absolute zero — the temperature at which molecular vibration ceases, through 
absorption of the psilocybin ESR pulses. 

Once this ESR wave has been detected, it will be possible to amplify it within the neural 
circuits by channeling it through the harmine complex: i.e., by imitating the psilocybin 
ESR with the voice, causing the amplified sound to strike a harmonic tone with the 
harmine metabolizing in the brain and thereby exciting the harmine ESR. Since harmine 
complexes are merely further down the same bio-synthetic pathway that converts 
tryptophane into psilocybin, it is possible to consider the ESR tone of psilocybin as a 
harmonic overtone of harmine and vice versa. 



Using harmonic overtones, it is possible to sound a tone which will cancel one or more of 
its octaves reflected in the harmonic scales above and below it. This is easily 
demonstrated on a cello: Suppose a tone, say the open string A, is sounded. The sound is 
a wave-vibration of air molecules caused by the string, which then acts as a resonator. 
The tone is heard mostly loudly in the key in which it was sounded, but it also sounds 
every other key of "A " in the octaves above and below it. It is possible to cancel out the 
original tone by touching the string very lightly at certain harmonic points. When this is 
done, the overtones in the higher and lower registers become audible. If one understands 
the theory of harmonic resonators well enough, one can determine which overtones will 
be resonated if certain points on the string are touched. 

When this understanding is applied to molecular ESR res-onation, it remains essentially 
the same in principle. When the ESR tone of the psilocybin is heard via tryptamine 
antenna, it will strike a harmonic tone in the harmine complexes being metabolized 
within the system, causing its ESR to begin to resonate at a higher level. According to the 
principles of tonal physics, this will automatically cancel out the original tone, i.e., the 
psilocybin ESR, and cause the molecule to cease to vibrate; however, the ESR tone that 
sustains the molecular coherency is carried for a microsecond on the overtonal ESR of 
the harmine complex. This leaves the momentarily electrically canceled and 
superconductive psilocybin suspended in a low energy electromagnetic field generated by 
the harmine ESR. In so doing, it will regain its original, but now superconductivity 
amplified, ESR signal, which will permanently lock it into a superconductive state. 

As this phenomenon proceeds, it will automatically trigger the inverse of the initial 
process. The psilocybin, superconductively charged by mind, will harmonically cancel 
the ESR resonance of the harmine within the brain. The energy of the harmine-psilocybin 
complex ESR will be absorbed instantly into the matrix of the mushroom. This will cause 
those molecules metabolizing within the body and bonded to the neural DNA to instantly 
drop to absolute zero. Clearly this harmine-psilocybin-DNA complex must immediately 
separate itself from the cellular matrix. There is great danger 



at this moment, but pathways exist to deal with it. We will find that these molecules 
condense out of our bodies accompanied by a sound. This sound will be the harmonic 
ESR tone of this complex amplified superconductively and broadcast and frozen into the 
superconductive matrix of the mushroom. The superconductively charged psilocybin acts 
as an antenna which picks up the amplified ESR signals of the complex and condenses 
vibrational signals into a superconductive matrix. 

The opus can now be briefly summarized: 

• The mushroom must be taken and heard. 

• The ayahuasca must be taken and charged with overtonal ESR of the psilocybin via 
voice-imparted, amplified sound. 

• The ESR resonance of the psilocybin in the mushrooms will be canceled and will drop 
into a superconducting state; a small portion of the physical matter of the mushroom will 
be obliterated. 

• The superconductively charged psilocybin will pick up the ESR harmonic of the 
ayahuasca complex; this energy will be instantly and completely absorbed by the higher- 
dimensional tryp-tamine template. It will be transferred to the mushroom as vocal sound 
and condensed onto the psilocybin as a bonded complex of superconductive harmine- 
psilocybin-DNA. 

• The result will be a molecular aggregate of hyperdimen-sional, superconducting matter 
that receives and sends messages transmitted by thought, that stores and retrieves 
information in a holographic fashion in neural DNA, and that depends on 
superconductive harmine as a transducer energy source and superconductive RNA as a 
temporal matrix. This aggregate will be a living and functioning part of the brain of the 
molecular "singer" who creates it. It will be composed of higher dimensional matter, i.e., 
matter that has been turned through the higher dimension via the process of canceling its 
electrical charge with a harmonic vibration, transmitting that vibration across space (from 
superconductive transmitter to superconductive receiver), and then recondensing that 
vibration onto a superconductive template (the charged psilocybin in the mushroom), 
until the harmine-psilocybin-DNA complex condenses into a superconducting molecule. 
A molecule that is higher dimensional matter would, by 



this theory, be stable as long as it remains in a superconducting configuration, probably 
forever, since it is powered by its own ESR energy. It will then be responsive to 
command via endogenous tryptamine ESR (thoughts), it will be keyed into our collective 
DNA, and it will contain harmine as a superconductive transceiver and power source. 

Talk about a steep learning curve! I had never heard my little brother carry on so. To the 
extent that I grasped what Dennis was saying, he thought, and it seemed a magnificent 



thought to me, that the body is like an undiscovered musical and scientific instrument 
whose potential lies all around and within us, but of which we are unaware. He said that 
the mind, through an act of will, could use the singing voice to interact with the brain as 
though it were a color organ and holographic library all wrapped up into one. 

Dennis pointed the way toward a kind of Orphic science where the great advances would 
be made by using only the interaction of the quarternity of singing voice, mind, brain, and 
imagination. More, however, than a chant-induced, collective synesthesia was promised. 
He was saying that the laws of acoustics and low amperage bioelectrical phenomena, and 
our bodies, could be manipulated to give the experimenter a doorway into exploring 
states of matter and realms of physics involving high energy and low temperature that 
are, currently at least, supposed to be the exclusive province of researchers totally 
dependent on extremely sophisticated and powerful instruments. It became possible for a 
moment to dream that the powers of shamanism, derived from a millennium-old 
knowledge of microphysics and bioelectronics, was far in advance of our own. The 
doorway that seemed to swing open was a doorway out of historical time, back toward 
some sort of archaic completion nearly forgotten. 

Perhaps the shamanic traditions of this planet are the keepers of an understanding that 
uses the human body/brain/mind as its vehicle, leaving the present state of the art, which 
our own "scientific method" has achieved, a very poor second. This is really an old 
idea — the siren song of Pythagoras — that the mind is more powerful than any imaginable 
particle accelerator, more sensitive than 



any radio receiver or the largest optical telescope, more complete in its grasp of 
information than any computer: that the human body — its organs, its voice, its power of 
locomotion, and its imagination — is a more-than-sufficient means for the exploration of 
any place, time, or energy level in the universe. It was this idea that Dennis would set out 
to prove, to realize in the actual hardware of the dimension-roving lenticular vehicle that 
he was convinced could be generated out of his own DNA and living organisms present 
at hand in the Amazonian environment — the mushroom and the ayahuasca. 



CHAPTER NINE 

A CONVERSATION OVER SAUCERS 

In which the details of the plumbing of the Resurrection Body are rehearsed for each and 
all, and a partial test of our theory is made. 

As I READ DENNIS'S NOTES, I felt that the themes of the strange place we had come 
to had crystallized. I felt again the sense of something in the sky, calmly omniscient but 
closely observing us. I returned to the beginning and read the notes all over again, but I 



had no basis whatsoever to judge what I was reading. My brother's scientific speculation 
seemed to have acquired a life of its own. He was like a great, all-knowing computer. 

Around our campfire, we all listened to him explain his idea for the experiment. He was 
very deeply involved. Ideas were coming out of him like spaghetti from a rasher, 
thousands of words about all of these strange things. He said, "You know what we could 
do?" Then he laid down the rap that is now enshrined as the central doctrine of the opus. 
He called it hyper-carbolation. According to his theory, you could use the singing voice 
and superconductivity (or the complete disappearance of electrical resistance, usually 
only possible with temperatures at absolute zero) to drive the molecules 



of psychedelic compounds into states of permanent association — or bonding — with living 
human DNA. 

Dennis's rap drew on the theory of sound. If you pluck a string, it will sound in the octave 
in which it is struck, but it will also sound in octaves above and below its key. It has what 
are called harmonic overtones. If you strike the chord and then squelch it, you can still 
hear the harmonic overtones, a phenomenon that had fascinated Pythagoras. Dennis 
pointed out to us that one can use two sounds to cancel each other if the two sounds are 
exactly the same in relation to each other. 

The same phenomenon that produces harmonic overtones can be used to still the 
movements of molecules. In very localized areas, perhaps only a few thousand angstroms 
across, one can produce low temperatures with audio cancellation. Molecular motion is a 
type of vibration and in the presence of just the right audio input such molecular motion 
will cease. Operationally speaking, when molecular motion ceases the molecule has 
reached a temperature of absolute zero, and superconductivity becomes possible. 

Dennis felt he had figured out a way to blow the locked doors of paradise right off their 
hinges using psychoactive compounds, psilocybin, the tryptamine complex, and the beta- 
carbolines that occur in ayahuasca. He said that if you look at the vibration of molecules 
in the beta-carboline family, you find that the electron spin resonance of these molecules, 
moving from one to another, is in fact a series of harmonic overtones. This is interesting 
because psychiatrist Claudio Naranjo had reported in The Healing Journey that 50 
percent of his subjects who took harmine, a beta-carboline occuring in ayahuasca, 
reported a buzzing in the head. It was not associated with other kinds of psychedelics; it 
seemed to be uniquely associated with these harmine compounds. The Jivaro shamans of 
Ecuador also report a buzzing in the head. Dennis's idea was that when ayahuasca is 
metabolizing through one's neural matrix in the brain, a sound is heard. 

Explaining just how this happens is far from simple. Electron spin resonance is a 
phenomenon of molecular structure in which high frequency energy is put into the 
molecular system and electron spin resonance signals emerge from the system. But not all 
compounds have an electron spin resonation; to exhibit ESR activity a 



molecule must have a ring free of molecular encumbrances. All compounds with a free 
ring will resonate under certain conditions. The hallucinogens we were interested in have 
free rings, as does DNA, the molecule at the center of the genetic machinery of all life. 

When your body is metabolizing the alkaloids in ayahuasca, a relationship is formed with 
the tryptamine metabolites in the brain. A sound is heard that is characteristic of the 
interaction. Once the sound is heard, it can be imitated. Then what you have is a vocal 
sound. 

Ordinarily it would not occur to anyone to draw a connection between this sound and the 
signals produced by the ESR, which occur in the microphysical realm. Here was where 
Dennis made his leap into delusion or illumination, for he began to insist that he could do 
things with this sound. By vocalizing, Dennis felt that he would, in effect, be emitting an 
amplified spin resonance signal, an amplified ESR-modulated sound that would be 
coming from the psilocybin metabolizing in his brain. Making this sound would set up a 
series of harmonic vibrations above and below it in other compounds also active in his 
brain. 

Now, from this theoretical basis, we take flight. If he is in the correct spatial orientation 
to the molecule he is directing sound at, when he stops making the sound he is hearing, 
the molecule will become superconductive, because its vibration has been canceled. Of 
the many millions of this kind of molecule struck by this sound, a few dozen or hundreds 
will be in the correct geometrical orientation and their molecular motion will be stilled 
almost instantly. Now a peculiar property of low temperatures is that very high bonding 
energies appear between molecules. A molecule close to absolute zero will bond to 
anything. It just forces its way into the structure. 

Dennis tried to explain: 

"The harmine molecule, which is structured like a little bell, gives a bell-like chiming and 
buzzing sound. If we come on it right and cancel it and there is neural DNA active in the 
brain, the electrical configuration of harmine is enough like the molecular configuration 
of adenine, one of the bases in DNA, that it will replace it. It will bond through into the 
chain. And when it is bonded in, its ring will become activated. It is the same size as 



adenine, but it's a little more complicated. It has a free resonance ring." Dennis paused 
and then gathered his thoughts to continue. 

"Now the normal ESR of harmine is a simple signal, but the electron spin configuration 
of DNA is very, very complicated. It is a broad band. When the harmine goes in there it 
will cease to broadcast its own resonation because it will have become very tightly 
bonded into the structure of the macro-molecule. It will instead begin to broadcast the 



ESR resonation of the DNA. That's it. If you have followed it this far, the rest is easy. 
DNA is what you are. The physical form is just a lot of juicy macro-physical crystals 
caused by gene expression, you know, the result of enzymes set in motion and coded by 
DNA. Neural DNA is known to be non-metabolizing. It does not go away. The meat on 
your body comes and goes every few years. Your skeleton is not the same one you had 
five years ago, but neural DNA is an exception. It is there for all time. You come into the 
world with it. It records and it is an antenna for memory. Not only our personal memory, 
but any entity or organism which has DNA in it; there is a way to find a connection to it. 
This is how we open a passage to the Divine Imagination, this is how William Blake 
understood Redemption. This is now within reach. 

"This is how it's done. You put a radio into the DNA and this ESR resonation will begin 
to flood your system because the bond will be permanent; there will be no way to disrupt 
it. It will tell you everything — everything that can be known in the world of space and 
time because it contains your own and everyone else's records. We are all connected 
through this magical substance, which is what makes life possible and which causes it to 
take on its myriad forms. All DNA is the same. It is the settings that are different; you get 
butterflies, mastodons, or human beings, depending on the settings." 

"Or so you say," was my noncommittal reply. But I had the distinct impression that I did 
glimpse his meaning. Organisms are complex structures that have emerged and stabilized 
their forms over millions of years. They are literally shaped by the ebb and flow of time 
on a vaster scale than any individual lifespan can experience or compare itself to. 
Organisms have enfolded in their embryology, in their morphology, a message about the 
structure of the larger universe. Mysticism has always insisted on this. Molecular biology 
as the inheritor of the theory of evolution seems to confirm it. 



Perhaps life is a strategy for amplifying quantum mechanical indeterminacy to a level 
where a macrophysical chemical system, in effect human beings, can experience and 
understand it? If one of us could pharmacologically redesign our neurocellular chemistry, 
there might indeed be strange new realms of perception and understanding to be 
explored, brave new worlds of the imagination based on new ratios of neurotransmitters 
in the still-evolving brains of human beings. I thought, "Who am I to judge?" 

I was intrigued by his precision in invoking these ideas, but for the moment I simply did 
not know what to say. He stared at me, clearly expecting more. I believed in the infinite, 
self-transforming power of the human mind and species, and I could suppose that there 
were parallel worlds and alternative dimensions. I could imagine any number of science 
fiction possibilities, provided that I was not asked to believe, that I was about to be 
present personally at their discovery or unleashing. But this is what Dennis was saying: 
We had somehow stumbled upon or been led to the trigger experience for the entire 
human world that would transform the ontological basis of reality so that mind and matter 
everywhere would become the same thing and reflect the human will perfectly. 



How could anyone conceive of such a thing? We had come to La Chorrera with a belief 
that if life and mind are possible, then the mysteries of the universe might well be 
inexhaustible. Yet something very passive, yet ever present, was there elaborating these 
ideas in our minds — something that we had thought of for some days as "The 
Mushroom." 

We talked for more than an hour about these ideas and what finally emerged was the need 
for a test, or at least Dennis maintained that a partial test of the idea could be undertaken 
to convince me and our companions. He thought that as the superconducting state became 
stabilized there should be a marked lowering of temperature in the immediate area. In our 
talking, he and I had left the area of the hut and drifted down the forest path. It would be 
possible to attempt to generate the effect of coolness right there on the spot, he supposed. 

We seated ourselves on the sandy path facing each other, with the afternoon sun on both 
of us. After a couple of preliminary low, mechanical buzzes, Dennis made a sound very 
similar to the one he 



had unleashed in the knoll house three days before. This sound had an extremely peculiar 
quality and, as it rose in intensity, I looked down at the hair on my arms and saw it rise as 
goose-flesh formed and a wave of intense shivering swept over me. I yelled at Dennis to 
stop. He did instantly and seemed much drained by the effort. I was quite disoriented. I 
frankly could not tell whether a real wave of very cold air had swept over me or whether 
that particular sound had somehow made my body react as though it was being exposed 
to cold air. It was not lost on me that if the effect had truly generated a blast of cold air, 
then it had violated the known laws of physics. But I did not care to experiment further — 
the whole thing had an eerie aura about it and if the effect was real, who knew what could 
come of pushing it too far? I was more confused than ever by my enigmatic brother and 
his burgeoning ideas and abilities. The whole thing seemed absurd and yet very 
compelling, like a hypnotic game into which one becomes absorbed in spite of oneself. 

"Now can we call the press conference?" Dennis asked insistently on our return walk 
down the trail. But I could barely hear him so lost in delicious anticipation of previously 
unimaginable futures was I. 

We returned to our camp and mentioned to all present that Dennis had generated the 
wave of cold air that he had predicted from the theory. But it was all sufficiently 
ambiguous that no one felt drawn to comment. After dinner, Vanessa and Dave returned 
to the riverside house and Ev, Dennis, and I settled into our first night in the forest since 
arriving at La Chorrera. 

Dennis was in a state of continual activity, amplifying his ideas and trying out new 
wrinkles on us. That night and the next day, he retired into a world of very intense 
activity. He wrote his ideas over and over, the steps to do it and the theory of why it 
should work. He spent lots of time alone writing, then he would come back and talk to us. 



He was on to something very strange; his word-pictures caused reality to shimmer and 
crinkle at the edges. He was really in touch with this bubbling obsidian fourth 
dimensional fluid that we were going to stabilize into a usable tool. And end history. And 
go to the stars. 



My attitude was "Fine, we'll try it." The atmosphere was drenched with the bizarre. Now 
we had arrived at the center of the Amazon and we could feel something in the sky, 
watching. At first, we had been happy heads trying to explore one last fairy tale so we 
could be rationalists forever, and instead we encountered something enormous. 
Something alive and very old and very strange. Something peculiar in every extreme. 

I was quite uncreative in this period. I had taken the mushroom and was ecstatic all the 
time. It was the only time in my life when I was truly content simply to be. I had quite 
effortlessly formed the assumption, which I assumed was shared by all, that we would 
never leave La Chorrera. Leaving seemed unimaginable since all things seemed to be 
perfectly present there. The sense of homecoming and of being at last where one was 
supposed to be was at times overwhelming. As for the future, I imagined that I would 
simply listen to Dennis rave. His vision into which my credulity was dissolving went 
beyond anything that anyone I knew had ever dreamed of. 

We had set the following evening, that of March 4, as the day we would test the full 
theory of the harmine-DNA bond. I noted with unusual satisfaction that this day 
corresponded with an idiotic pun that had stuck with me since earliest childhood: "What 
day of the year is a command?" Answer: "March fourth." 

"How fitting then," I ranted and raved. "How fitting that we will attempt to concretize the 
soul on that day." Absurdly, the coincidence of the date with that pun seemed part of a 
universal secret plan unraveling to bring us to the history-culminating moment when 
humanity would march into a higher dimension. My own thoughts seemed to me to be 
nothing like the super-scientific theory formation that my brother was involved in. I was 
baffled by much of what was going on. That day, March 3, 1 amused myself constructing 
a pipe out of the strange, heart-shaped Macoubea fruits that we had otherwise given up on 
as inedible. From one of those fruits and a hollow reed and a bit of river clay, I 
constructed a water pipe that gave me great satisfaction. 

While the jargon of the ESR biophysicist whirled around me, I contemplated what I had 
achieved with two plants and a bit of 



mud. It seemed to me a marvel of ingenuity, and because the fruit was so strange, there 
was something about it vaguely unearthly. This pipe might have been fashioned from one 
of the fruits that gentle Weena offered the Time Traveler in Wells's epic. My pipe was a 
weird and haunting object, and when it was smoked the bubbling of the water beneath the 



thick rind sounded very like the beating of some great mammalian heart. Even Dennis 
paused to admire this pipe, and we determined that it would be used in our experiment 
when the moment came to smoke some of the ayahuasca bark to boost the harmine levels 
in our blood. We were operating in a world where scientific method, ritual, and 
participation mystique were inseparably intertwined. Our own minds and bodies were to 
be the retorts, the vessels, of the psycho-alchemical transformation that we were 
experimenting with. 

That afternoon we all pulled roots and stacked them in the sun. It seemed the most 
satisfying activity imaginable. Nothing could have seemed more right. That evening we 
made a tape of our intentions, but unfortunately our tape recorder was not in good 
working order and that tape has proven impossible to salvage. I greatly regret this loss, 
since the emotional content of what we were experiencing would come across most 
clearly from our own words. The taping session ranged over a number of themes: 

Hyper-carbolation: This is what we had named the process of altering the neural DNA 
and changing man into an eternal hyper-dimensional being. It was a process we imagined 
to be intimately akin to sexual generation. We spoke of it as the "birth of an idea" in a 
sense whose literalness is not easy to convey to minds that have not brushed with 
schizophrenia. We hoped that mind, driven by a will to the good, could control the 
process of generation and guide this process toward the production of the imagination- 
modulated resurrection body so dear to the Patristic Fathers, sixteenth-century alchemists, 
and modern UFO enthusiasts. In this notion we were following Jung, who early on 
realized that the flying saucer is an image of the self, the suppressed psychic totality that 
lurks behind the apparent dualism of mind and nature. We thought that the field of mind 
and its will toward the good could be templated onto the genetic engines of life. The hope 
was that out of biology, Tantra could 



summon the reality of the living stone, the chimerical unicorn of the alchemical quest 
made at last to lay his head in the maiden's lap. We dreamed, in short, of a union of Spirit 
and Matter. 

The dead: We believed that hyper-carbolation was to be the shamanic defeat of death, 
that those doorways through which the dead enter daily were to be finally thrown open to 
a hyper-carbolated humanity, which would then have freedom of movement to and from 
an eternity in which all the members of the species existed as a living reality. The 
presence of giants from the human past — Carl Jung, Newton and Nabokov, Bruno, 
Pythagoras, and Heraclitus — was an overwhelming and all-inclusive intuition that we 
shared and could not ignore. 

There seemed to be an ideological lineage, the golden chain, whose collective task was 
the shattering of the historical continuum through the generation of the living 
philosophical lapis of hyper-carbolated humanity. All these visionary thinkers had 
performed their part in this project. Now, as the secret work of human history, the 



generation of Adam's cosmic body, lost since paradise, neared completion, these shades 
stirred and pressed near to our Amazonian campsite. Our destiny was apparently to be the 
human atoms critical to the transformation of Homo sapiens into galaxy-roving 
bodhisattvas, the culmination and quintessence of the highest aspirations of star-coveting 
humanity. 

The psychologically minded will recognize this as a description of messianic ego 
inflation. Such it is, but we felt these things as anyone would feel them if they truly 
believed they were at such a point in history. We wondered, "Why? Why us?" 

To such questions the mushroom spoke in my mind without hesitation: "Because you 
have diligently sought the good and because you trusted no human being more than 
yourself." 

The emotional impact of these sorts of inner exchanges was intense beyond anything I 
have ever experienced. I felt humbly grateful to the point of tears. I felt exalted. We 
wanted to salvage paradise for humanity, and we thanked all gods and nature that our 
eccentric quest, out of all the lives and paths being lived out on earth, was placed by fate 
so near the cutting edge. Where the elder shamanism had failed, we would succeed. The 
rescue of the timeless pearl of 



human immortality from the well of death would, through the act of hyper-carbolation, 
become a living reality for every person who had ever lived. All the pain and suffering 
and war and desperation would somehow be repaid and made right through the 
intercession of the mystery of higher dimensions and a backward flowing logic of time 
that somehow undoes what has already happened. The wave of understanding that had 
been gaining strength since the twenty-seventh of February was so strong as to be nearly 
visible in everything around me. The lenticular shape of the approaching philosopher's 
stone seemed to be everywhere that I looked. Every shape and form around me was 
pregnant with its unearthly, opalescent depths. 



CHAPTER TEN 
MORE ON THE OPUS 

In which we refine the theory and begin preparations for experimental test flights of the 
Sophie Aerolith. 

The NEXT DAY WAS the much-anticipated fourth of March. After we made breakfast 
we did not tear down our fire as we normally would have done. Instead we began to brew 
the carefully shredded Banisteriopsis caapi vines in several gallons of spring water. The 



fire made of the gnarled and now sun-baked roots burned furiously. The pot responded 
with an even, rolling boil that is the correct condition for making the brew. 

All afternoon long we three cooked and said little. Dave and Vanessa used this time to 
visit and photograph the old village of La Chorrera across the lake. That evening they 
were to join us for a light meal, after which they had agreed to withdraw from the group 
and allow the ayahuasca-taking and the experimental test of hyper-carbolation to go on 
without them. I am sure that Dennis's mind, far more than my own, was preoccupied with 
the details of the test. During the days preceding, he had been often irritable, and this I 
took to be a part of the spectrum of effects accompanying whatever odd sort of mental 
unfoldment he was experiencing. While he was thus preoccupied with interior issues and 
vistas, I was the hawk-eyed guardian of the shamanic fires and procedures. 



There recently had been much discussion of fire and the role it must have played in 
forming the mental world of archaic human beings. Once, as we sat staring into the camp 
fire, Dennis had remarked to me that, "People have been looking into fires like this for 
thousands and thousands of years. The squeal of these coals is the release of ionized 
plasma and in the flickering waves of free electrons thus created, one can see into the past 
and the future. The fire is the place where the ideas come from." 

I was silent. I felt our ancestors then, seemingly present on the other side of the interface 
represented by the flame. "What is happening to us?" I again asked myself, but said 
nothing, silence seeming more eloquent. 

Dennis, completely occupied with creating a test that would reveal the phenomenon in 
such a way as to overturn skepticism, spent part of the day writing furiously: 

March 4, 1971 

It is now possible to reconstruct the physical-chemical idea that has evolved in the 
process of understanding this phenomenon: i.e., the fourth-dimensional rotation of matter. 
I understand from examining the linguistic model we have constructed that the waveform 
ESR interference that will accomplish the work operates in a somewhat different manner 
than I had thought. It can be explained thus: The psilocybin that occurs in the mushroom 
acts as an antenna for picking up and amplifying the harmonic ESR tones of all 
tryptophane-derived compounds of all living organisms within its range. Since the 
psilocybin undergoing metabolism is superconductive, this means that its range of 
reception is theoretically infinite. The antenna does, to some degree, pick up a signal 
whose ultimate origin is the totality of living creatures; but since the psilocybin 
metabolism is carried on within the brain (or mushroom) at a very low voltage level, the 
antenna behaves as though its range was limited, even though it is superconductive. 



I see this notion as an effort to explain the very real sense of informational 
interconnectedness that pervaded our experience, which occurred in one of the densest 
tropical forests on the planet. We did seem to be in touch with the living mind of the 



tropical forest. Perhaps tryptamine compounds are the mediators of the signaling 
mechanisms of the command-and-control structure that regulates and integrates whole 
ecosystems. More Dennis: 

It seems clear, therefore, that the signal, which when we are intoxicated on the mushroom 
in this ecologically dense area can be discerned so clearly, originates in the ESR 
resonation of the ayahuasca plant, though perhaps all the biosphere is picked up and 
broadcast, amplified via the ayahuasca superconductive transducer. This understanding 
will clarify precisely what will occur at the moment of fourth-dimensional warp. 
Ingesting the ayahuasca harmine will speed up the process of metabolism enough to 
amplify its ESR tone to an audible level; this ESR tone will harmonically cancel out the 
ESR tone of the psilocybin within the mushroom, causing it to lose its electric field and 
snap into a superconducting configuration. The ayahuasca ESR signal will have keyed 
the mushroom psilocybin into a superconducting antenna; it is then ready to have the 
psilocybin- harmine-DNA compound being metabolized within the body condensed onto 
its charged template. A microsecond after the mushroom psilocybin has been 
superconductively charged, its amplified ESR wave will then cancel out the ESR signals 
of the tryptamines and harmine metabolizing in the body, as well as the genetic material. 
This will cause these compounds to drop into superconductive configuration and bond 
together at the exact moment that they bond to the waiting mushroom template. 

This transfer of superconductive compounds charged within the body to a 
superconductive template prepared within the mushroom will not occur in three- 
dimensional space; no actual physical transfer will be visible, as the organically 
processed superconductive material will bond itself to the mushroom template through a 
higher spatial dimension. 

It is at this point that the rationalist will despair, for indeed what abyss of untested 
theoretical and perhaps fanciful assumptions hides behind the phrase "through a higher 
spatial dimension"? Nevertheless, and like the alchemists of old, Dennis seemed to act 
from the assumption that the experiment, once successful, would 



sanction the theory. Like the vocabulary of alchemy, his words are a blend of modern 
scientific formalisms and Hermetic aspiration. He had created a new alchemical 
dispensation and raised the specter of alchemical hope, phoenix-like, from the ashes of 
modernity. 



The result will be the work of works — that wonder which cannot be told — four 
dimensions captured and delineated in three. The stone will be all things; but the 
elements which are bound together in hyperspace to form it are among the most common 
natural products, and the function and place of each in the stone can be understood. The 
stone is a solid-state hyperdimensional circuit that is quadripartite in structure: 

First, psilocybin, charged in the mushroom to act as a template on which the rest of the 
circuit is condensed. In the final state the psilocybin acts as a superconducting antenna to 
pick up on information diffused through space and time. 

Second, the superconductively charged harmine complex within the stone will act as its 
transmitter and energy source. It is interesting to note that the same energy that sustains 
the antenna circuits in superconductivity will sustain the whole of the device. 

The third component of the stone is the DNA bonded to and resonating through the 
harmine. It will constitute the hyperdimensional, holographic memory of the device and 
will contain and explicate the genetic history of all species. It will be the collective 
memory of the device, and all times and places and conceivable forms will be accessible 
within its matrix. 

The fourth part of the circuit will be the RNA, which will also be superconductively 
charged. [Normally the function of RNA is to "read" the molecular code of DNA and to 
transcribe its genes into usable protein molecules.] Through its function of self- 
replication turned through hyperspace, the RNA will be able to project a wave form, a 
three-dimensional holographic image, and thus it will give form instantly to any idea. It 
will perform the same function it has always had — the process of replication through 
time. But henceforth replication will be subject, in part, to the whim of consciousness. 

Why I and my companions have been selected to understand and trigger the gestalt wave 
of understanding that will be 



the unleashing of the hyperspatial Zeitgeist is becoming more clear to me each moment, 
though I know I won't understand our mission fully until the work is complete. We will 
be instructed in the use of the stone by some infinitely wise, infinitely adept fellow 
member of the hyperspatial community; of that I feel sure. It will be the taking of the 
keys to galactarian citizenship. I speculate that we will be the first five human beings to 
be instructed in its use — our mission will be to selectively disseminate it to the rest of 
humanity, but slowly, and in such a way as to ease the cultural shock. It is also somehow 
appropriate that at least some segment of the species have an intimation of the 
implications and possibilities of this, the last cultural artifact. 

And so now, against all probabilities and chance and circumstance, my companions and I 
have been given the peculiar privilege of knowing history will end. It would be a strange 
position to find oneself in if being in that position did not bring with it a full 



understanding of the forces that brought one there. Fortunately, as the phenomenon is an 
acceleration of understanding, one gains clearer insight into the forces that have bent 
space and time, thought and culture back upon themselves to focus at this point. 

As this monumentally inscrutable statement intimates, Dennis was in the process of 
turning some sort of corner. Under the influence of his ideas and images, our lives had 
become pure science fiction. This entire transformation had been achieved through the 
opening of our collective imagination. But what had really changed? Were we about to 
take the tiller of history into our hands, or was this one more sadly misguided reach for 
the power of an archetype that must always slide though one's fingers? 

Now I can look upon my life as spread before the scanner of memory and understand all 
those moments that foreshadowed this one. It is easy to look beyond the personal history 
to the events of human history and discern therein the prefiguration of this last moment. 
As a phenomenon it has always existed and it will continue, for it is the moving edge of 
phenomenal understanding that was generated in the era before physics and it has 
gathered momentum — a constant acceleration ever since. What we are moving 



toward in three dimensions is the passing of this wave of understanding into a higher 
dimension, the realm of the atemporal. As it happens, it will make this transition through 
one of us. But there will be no change in this cosmic order or even a blip on the cosmic 
circuits, for the phenomenon has gathered constant momentum from the beginning and it 
will flow through and beyond all dimensions with the same smoothness with which it 
entered until finally it has moved through all beings in all dimensions. Its joy will then be 
complete when in a vast amount of time it has constellated full understanding throughout 
creation. 

If we trigger the eschatology, we will appear to act in the role of the Anti-Christ, but the 
real Anti-Christ is history's distorted reflection of the Christ at the end of time — the 
cosmic Adam-anthropos. The eschatological Christ is Anti-Christ only from a historical 
perspective. It is interesting that among Maza-tecans and other tribal groups of the 
Central Mexican highlands the idea of Christ is linked to the mushrooms — is this 
syncretism or prophecy? 

That evening's collective meal with Dave and Vanessa at our camp, with the ayahuasca 
infusion cooling in the background, was less than successful. By now positions relative to 
"the phenomenon" had polarized us into irreconcilability. Dave and Vanessa did not 
arrive till the close of day, but they joined us in the hut for a smoke. Discussion led to an 
update and final outline of the experiment proposed for the evening. Dennis spoke: 

"We will obtain a metabolizing, living mushroom. Dig up the shit around it and 
physically move the whole thing to the hut. We want to do the bonding in the mushroom 
because we don't know what it would be like if it were done in our own bodies. It is wide 
open. With your voice, your mind, and a mushroom, these things can be done. That is all 



one needs. Particle accelerators, all of that, no! With the energy that is hundreds of times 
less than the energy in an ordinary flashlight battery, one can probably rend space/time 
apart." 

The air was heavy with charged ions. Dave was full of doubts; as he talked, there was the 
grumble of distant thunder far off over the jungle. Dave's objections to what we were 
doing were emotional 



and fearful, along the lines of "Man was not meant to know these things." Hardly what 
we expected from a colleague. We tried to be reassuring, but he became agitated and 
rushed out of the hut, perhaps, we thought, intending to walk back to the river house. 

Instead we heard an exclamation of fear and a kind of moan, a yell of amazement. We all 
clambered out of the hut to find Dave, white-faced and staring at the sky, pointing. The 
light of a first-quarter moon revealed the tattered sky and, directly above the path 
returning to the river, an enormous black thunderhead rearing its twisting and writhing 
form up through thousands of feet of moisture-and electricity-saturated air. It looked like 
an enormous centipede with broad strokes of lightning flickering out of its lower 
portions, stroking the tops of the jungle canopy with a roar that, when it broke over us, 
was as deafening as field artillery. Over the howl of the wind now whipping into a wild 
frenzy the jungle all around us, I heard Dennis yell: 

"It's a backwash from the approaching breakthrough. It says to me there is now no doubt 
that we'll succeed!" 

Dave moaned as he sank, unbelieving, to the sandy soil while the first huge drops began 
to fall. I thought of Ahab saying, "I'd strike out the sun if it insulted me. For could it do 
that then could I do the other, since there is ever a sort of fair play." In the wake of an 
ear-splitting blast we all fell back to the hut, during which Vanessa sprained her ankle 
slipping from the notched log that served as a step-ladder. In a few minutes the giant 
storm moved on, leaving only a chaotic and churning sunset. 

The sudden electrical storm and its impact on us was taken as an omen by both points of 
view. Dennis, Ev, and I assumed it was associated with a feedback of effects from the 
experiment whose performance was only a few hours ahead of us. Dave and Vanessa 
thought it a light dose of the wrath of God for having such Promethean aspirations. The 
possibility that it had nothing to do with us at all went unexamined. 

"Is this the healing of my split-T that my astrologer predicted for this time?" Scorpio 
Vanessa asked of no one in particular. 

Ev and I shared a light meal with our guests while Dennis ate nothing. Dave and Vanessa 
wished us goodnight and good luck, and 



then hobbled away toward the river. The three of us were left alone, and there remained 
nothing but to make the test that Dennis had devised and whose anticipation had caused 
such strain on our expedition. 

The ayahuasca had been brewed. Since then, having seen ayahuasca brewed 
professionally by shamans in Peru, I am sure that our brew was too weak to have had any 
major role in what followed. It was the mushroom that was the causal agent, if a causal 
agent could be isolated. And mushrooms we had, both ones we had picked as well as a 
specimen moved into the hut, in situ in its manure base. Dennis confidently stated that 
living, metabolizing psilocybin should be present. We had hung the chrysalis of a Mor- 
pho near the mushroom so that animal tissue undergoing metamorphosis would also be 
represented in the target area tableau. What was science and what ritual? We did not 
know and could not tell. All bets were covered. Poetic inspiration and scientific insight 
had become fused. 



CHAPTER ELEVEN 

THE EXPERIMENT AT LA CHORRERA 

In which the experiment is attempted and the brothers McKenna are driven mad by its 
unexpected aftermath. 

The NIGHT OF MARCH 4 was absolutely black. A low-lying cloud bank had appeared, 
muffling the small world of La Chorrera and wrapping it in a bowl of all-absorbing velvet 
darkness. Following the storm we had rebuilt our fire and boiled off several liters of 
water from our infusion of Banisteriopsis caapi, so that it was much stronger than it had 
been before. We then added crushed leaves, which Dennis had gathered that day near the 
chorro and which we were using as DMT admixture plants. It was the admixture plants 
that we hoped would provide the DMT necessary to drive the intense hallucinations for 
which the brew is famous. We had tentatively identified these plants as Justiciapectoralis 
var. steno-phylla — a plant thought to be used as an admixture of ayahuasca in the Vaupes 
drainage north of us. Now, years after that evening, not only do I question the 
concentration at which we brewed the Banisteriopsis but also our identification of the 
admixture plant. 

There is no doubt that there was considerable harmine alkaloid in the infusion, but as I 
later learned not as much as is necessary to 



provoke an unambiguous intoxication. The harmine alkaloids present were, in my 
opinion, boosted by the psilocybin that had accumulated in our systems, or rather the 



MAO-inhibiting effect of these beta-carbolines caused the residual psilocybin to emerge 
into consciousness as a deep hallucinogenic experience. 

While I completed the boiling, Ev and Dennis went to their hammocks and lay down to 
await the completion of the preparations. We laughed together and talked softly. Yet in 
spite of this there was an undercurrent of tension as we approached the experiment into 
which we had poured so much of our energy. As we neared the critical moment, Ev and 
Dennis became unaccountably clumsy and seemed to find their bodies hard to handle; it 
was that which had sent them to their hammocks. I seemed unaffected and was able to 
look after whatever needed attention. Lying in his hammock, Dennis ate two mushrooms 
to launch the beginning of the experiment; Ev and I did the same. 

Our little thatched hut on its stilt legs looked in the flickering firelight like a small 
spaceship dropped into the howling jungles of an alien world. We all felt as if we were 
approaching hyperspatial overdrive. There was a sense of immense energies 
accumulating. The effect was reinforced by the hammocks hanging like acceleration 
slings ready to receive a starship's crew. Dennis lay in his hammock nearly unable to hold 
a pencil, but writing furiously in tight, operational terms about the experiment just ahead: 

The mushroom is presently metabolizing within our bodies; this has keyed in on the 
tryptamine template in the living mushroom and it has been sensitized for the 
condensation of the harmine-psilocybin-DNA molecule. When the ayahuasca is ingested 
the harmine analog will start to metabolize within the body. The ESR of the presensitized 
psilocybin circuit will immediately cancel the ESR of the harmine and cause it to bond 
superconduc-tively to the DNA-RNA complex both in our bodies and in the mushroom 
simultaneously in a higher dimension. The bonding completed, the harmine-DNA 
memory bank and drive unit will condense into the waiting, charged psilocybin circuit in 
the mushroom. We will see this condensation, as it will appear in the 



mushroom at the same instant that the bond is completed in a higher dimension. 

I had no notion of what this all meant or was leading to. I took the attitude that I must 
simply be a good witness. Surely nothing at all would happen, or something wonderful 
was in store. 

Dennis explained that he was unable to move about very well because of something 
having to do with the backward flow of time. The ever- increasing constraints on the set 
of possible futures had rendered him nearly immobile; only the mind, planning and 
computing, was free. 

We finished boiling the ayahuasca. I ground the admixture plants and added them to the 
cooling brew. I moved the ayahuasca into the hut, then the mushroom. With those things 
in place, we were ready to begin. 



Dennis began narrating our countdown toward an Omega that none of us could really 
understand; we were completely transformed by the expectation that we might witness 
the outbreak of the millennium. He said that time was appearing to slow down as we 
approached this point. Prior to this, we had taken no hallucinogens for several days, so 
the effects we were experiencing were not arising from that source. Something else was 
happening. As proof of this amazing assertion, he called our attention to the candle that I 
had set upon a small shelf jutting from the wall of the hut. Unattended, its slight tilt had 
become slowly exaggerated so that now it hung at a crazy angle, defying gravity because, 
he said, time was passing so slowly that we could not see that it was actually in the act of 
falling. 

I walked closer to this apparition and bent toward the flame. The fire appeared still, 
absolutely frozen. My mind shot back to the moment above the river when it too had 
seemed stilled forever. The flame was uncanny. As deeply as I cared to look into it I 
could see no movement of particles or gas. I seemed to have my usual freedom of 
movement, but the world around me was coming to a crystalline and eerie halt. 

It was Dennis who finally spoke: "A series of discreet energy levels must be broken 
through in order to bond this thing. It is part 



mythology, part psychology, part applied physics. Who knows? We will make three 
attempts before we break out of the experimental mode." 

We all drank the ayahuasca. The taste was sharp and astringent, like a sauce of leather 
and mole, but it faded quickly as the liquid went churning through our guts. Dennis took 
only one more mushroom to help him hear the tone. The darkness outside was utter and 
we had no clock; it seemed hours since Dave and Vanessa had left us. All was finally in 
readiness: the living mushroom, the harmine brew, and a harmine smoking mixture, "just 
in case." After we each had about a half-cup of the ayahuasca infusion, we settled down 
to wait. 

For the past several days, Dennis had been hearing the ESR tone that he deemed the sine 
qua non of what we were attempting. After about fifteen minutes, he announced that he 
could hear it more clearly and that it was gathering strength. He felt prepared to attempt 
the experiment at any time, he said. 

We agreed that each time during the actual making of the sound we would extinguish the 
candle so that our minds would not be burdened by the sight of any tryptamine-induced 
facial distortions that the odd yelling might cause. Years before, during peak episodes of 
DMT among our old Berkeley gang, we had witnessed spasms of facial musculature that 
were completely hair-raising, invoking as they did the entities of Tantric Buddhism — the 
bulging eyes, the impossibly long, rolling tongue, that sort of thing. 



Dennis then sat up in his hammock. I put out the candle, and he sounded his first howl of 
hyper-carbolation. It was mechanical and loud, like a bull roarer, and it ended with a 
convulsive spasm that traveled throughout his body and landed him out of his hammock 
and onto the floor. 

We lit the candle again only long enough to determine that everyone wanted to continue, 
and we agreed that Dennis's next attempt should be made from a sitting position on the 
floor of the hut. This was done. Again a long, whirring yodel ensued, strange and 
unexpectedly mechanical each time it was sounded. 

I suggested a break before the third attempt, but Dennis was quite agitated and eager to 
"bring it through," as he put it. We settled in for the third yell, and when it came it was 
like the others but lasted 



much longer and became much louder. Like an electric siren wailing over the still, jungle 
night, it went on and on, and when it finally died away, that too was like the dying away 
of a siren. Then, in the absolute darkness of our Amazon hut, there was silence, the 
silence of the transition from one world to another; the silence of the Ginnunga gap, that 
pivotal, yawning hesitation between one world age and the next of Norse mythology. 

In that gap came the sound of the cock crowing at the mission. Three times his call came, 
clear but from afar, seeming to confirm us as actors on a stage, part of a dramatic 
contrivance. Dennis had said that if the experiment were successful the mushroom would 
be obliterated. The low temperature phenomena would explode the cellular material and 
what would be left would be a standing wave, a violet ring of light the size of the 
mushroom cap. That would be the holding mode of the lens, or the philosopher's stone, or 
whatever it was. Then someone would take command of it — whose DNA it was, they 
would be it. It would be as if one had given birth to one's own soul, one's own DNA 
exteriorized as a kind of living fluid made of language. It would be a mind that could be 
seen and held in one's hand. Indestructible. It would be a miniature universe, a monad, a 
part of space and time that magically has all of space and time condensed in it, including 
one's own mind, a map of the cosmos so real that it somehow is the cosmos, that was the 
rabbit he hoped to pull out of his hat that morning. 

Dennis leaned toward the still whole mushroom standing on the raised experiment area. 
"Look!" 

As I followed his gaze, he raised his arm and across the fully expanded cap of the 
mushroom fell the shadow of his ruana. Clearly, but only for a moment, as the shadow 
bisected the glowing mushroom cap, I saw not a mature mushroom but a planet, the earth, 
lustrous and alive, blue and tan and dazzling white. 



"It is our world." Dennis's voice was full of unfathomable emotions. I could only nod. I 
did not understand, but I saw it clearly, although my vision was only a thing of the 
moment. 

"We have succeeded." Dennis proclaimed. 

"I don't understand," and I did not. "Let's walk to the pasture. I need to think." 



Ev was exhausted by the night's activities and probably glad to have us leave her in the 
hut with the encroaching dawn promising some sort of new day. As we let ourselves 
down the log ladder to the ground, I was struck by the scene of utter confusion our 
activities had left behind during the last frantic hours of brewing. Our huge fire was now 
only white ashes. The waste from the ayahuasca-making was piled beside it, looking like 
a mound of beached seaweed. Everything was strewn about. We walked through all this, 
shaking the stiffness out of our bodies and stopping at the small stream that crossed the 
path to splash water in our faces. 

We had not spoken. It was Dennis who broke the silence. 
"You are wondering if we succeeded?" 

"Yes. What happened? You're riding herd on this effect, so what is going on?" 

"Well, I am not sure how, but I know we have succeeded. Let me try to understand this." 

Though the mushrooms and ayahuasca of the night before seemed to have worn off, my 
own mind was racing with questions. As we walked along, Dennis would make 
occasional comments that were, it burst over me, answers to things I was thinking but not 
articulating. I stopped in my tracks. I clearly formed a question in my mind. Dennis, head 
bent beside me, began to answer without waiting for me to speak my thought aloud. I was 
dumbfounded. Was this it then? I asked. Had he somehow acquired telepathic powers? 
No, he replied, there was more to it than that. 

According to Dennis, the bonding of the harmine into his DNA had given him immediate 
access to an enormous, cybernetically stored fund of information. And this information 
was freely available to anyone in the world who looked into their mind and prefaced their 
question with the word "Dennis." The absurdity of the second half of this proposition 
struck me as utterly too much. But naturally, at his insistence, I made the test. I picked up 
a small plant growing at my feet, closed my eyes and asked: 

"Dennis, what is the name of this plant?" 



Immediately and without any effort of my own that I was aware of, a scientific name, 
now forgotten, popped into my head. I tried the same thing again with a different plant 
and to my amazement 



received a different answer. The experiment seemed to secure that something was giving 
answers in my head, but I could not tell if they were correct or not. I was shaken. When 
we left the hut I was sure we had failed and that we had to talk over revising our 
approach. I was even relieved since the obsessive nature of it all had been a strain. But 
now as we walked along and I could hear a voice in my head that was answering, 
however inanely or inaccurately, any question put to it, I was less sure. 

Dennis was oddly preoccupied, yet he assured me that his effort had succeeded and that 
all over the world the wave of hyper-carbolation was sweeping through the human race, 
eliminating the distinction between the individual and the community as everyone 
discovered themselves spontaneously pushing off into a telepathic ocean whose name 
was that of its discoverer: Dennis McKenna. 

As I watched my mind and listened to my brother rave, I began to realize that the 
experiment had indeed unleashed some sort of bizarre effect. I ask myself now why it 
was so easy for me to make the leap from assuming that we were having a peculiar 
localized experience to the idea that we were key parts of a planet-wide phenomenon? It 
is an important, unanswered question that speaks volumes about my susceptibility to 
inflation and suggestion at that moment. I was quite simply the victim of a cognitive 
hallucination; that is, rather than a visual experience of something not actually present, a 
cognitive hallucination is a total shift of the highest levels of our intellectual relationship 
to the world. The psilocybin-induced cognitive hallucination made the impossible and 
unlikely seem probable and reasonable. I became flooded with ecstasy as the realization 
passed over me that we had passed the omega point, that we were now operating in the 
first few moments of the millennium. Both of us felt our excitement rising as we became 
convinced that somehow the world was now radically, fundamentally different. 

"So this must be it," Dennis said. "We have not condensed the stone into visible space, 
but we have generated it in our heads. It does not immediately appear as a visible vehicle, 
but first as a teaching — the teaching we are hearing in our heads right now. Later, the 
words will be made flesh." 



I could only stare at my brother. Who was he and how was he able to know and do these 
things? I could only wonder. 

"Now Mother and possibly lots of dead people will be showing up soon. Jung will 
doubtless come and, by god, I want to hear what he has to say." Dennis, saying this, 



gazed over my shoulder as if craning his neck to see who approached our hammock-hung 
hut. "Is that Nabokov, Sunny Jim that nice Joyce boy, or is it that pesky Nick Cusa?" 

We embraced each other, laughing. I felt as though I was being led like a little child. For 
no reason, I had ceased to question; rather, I felt an urge to see other people and to feel 
their immersion in the new heaven and the new earth. Dennis agreed I would go to the 
river and get Dave and Vanessa and return with them to the forest. Dennis would return 
to the camp and explain to Ev what was happening. 

As I set out toward the river, I seemed to be nearly weightless. I felt reborn, full of 
energy, and bursting with good health and vitality. Over a period of a few minutes, I had 
passed from weary, disgruntled skeptic to ecstatic believer. Looking back on it, I believe 
that, for me, this was the critical juncture. Why did I not question Dennis more closely? 
Was I somehow self-hypnotized? Did the unfamiliar setting, the restricted diet, the strain 
and expectations push me into a place where I was unable to resist participation in the 
world of my brother's bizarre ideation? Why was I unable to maintain my detached and 
skeptical viewpoint? In some sense this willing suspension of disbelief is the crux of the 
matter — and, I believe, of many a "close encounter" situation. 

The Other plays with us and approaches us through the imagination and then a critical 
juncture is reached. To go beyond this juncture requires abandonment of old and 
ingrained habits of thinking and seeing. At that moment the world turns lazily inside out 
and what was hidden is revealed: a magical modality, a different mental landscape than 
one has ever known, and the landscape becomes real. This is the realm of the cosmic 
giggle. UFOs, elves, and the teeming pantheons of all religions are the denizens of this 
previously invisible landscape. One reaches through to the continents and oceans of the 
imagination, worlds able to sustain anyone who will but play, and then one lets the play 
deepen and deepen until it is a reality that few would even dare to entertain. 



As I walked along that perfect morning no such soothingly objective thoughts came to 
me. Instead I assumed that my body was metabolizing its way toward the resurrection 
body, the "soul made visible" of Christian hermeneutics, that we had expected to be part 
of the success of our experiment. I did not know what was happening in the world or far 
away, but I did know that since the moment Dennis had pronounced the experiment 
finished, I had felt an expanding and ever-increasing wave of energy and understanding 
unfold through my being. As I walked along, what seemed to be a profound realization 
came over me. The understanding bloomed in my mind that we are all enlightened beings 
and that only our inability to see and feel ourselves and others as we really are keeps us 
from shedding our guilt and experiencing ourselves as truly enlightened. I have never 
been a psychedelic bliss bunny, yet there I was suspended somewhere between cliche and 
archetype. 

I felt beatific, yet I couldn't believe what seemed to be happening. The walk to Dave and 
Vanessa's place took about ten or fifteen minutes. By now it was about 7:00 A.M. The 



sun was well up in the sky and it was a beautiful day. As I walked across the pasture I 
would stop and say, "Dennis," and the response would be instantaneous, just like thought. 
It confused me. I kept stopping and asking questions. Sitting down on the grass. "Is it all 
right? What is it? I don't know. Is it safe? I can't understand what this means." 

I walked on toward the river. As I walked, I did some experiments. I said "Terence. 
Terence." It was very much like talking to myself. Then I said "Dennis," and the thing 
was instantly there, ready to do business. Then I said "McKenna, McKenna," and it was 
still there. I realized that I couldn't reach it with my first name, but I could reach it with 
my last name. I felt simultaneously enlightened and bewildered, I could not understand 
what was going on. 

I was pondering these sorts of things when I arrived at the riverside house of Vanessa and 
Dave. They were still asleep in their hammocks, but crowded around the door, even this 
early in the morning, was a group of wide-eyed Witoto children. As I pushed my way 
through them, my gaze fell on each and I thought: "You are enlightened, and you ... and 
you ..." 

My arrival was the first event of the day for Dave and Vanessa. I told them that we had 
succeeded and that the fruit of our success 



was not a condensed hyper-object, but a teaching. I asked them to dress and come with 
me. While they were gathering their hammocks, they told me that during the darkest part 
of the night Dave had awakened hysterical, in a state not unlike the condition induced in 
him by the electrical storm the evening before. They had been very agitated and could 
only attribute this to what we had been doing. 

I was interested in all of this but seemed to hear it as from a long distance. I wanted to 
return to the forest and see what would unfold there. In my mind I was recalling 
something Dennis had said a few minutes before in the pasture. He had said that the 
demarcation between day and night, the dawn line, was now making a twenty-four hour 
sweep around the world, a sweep that began at the dawn moment when the experiment at 
La Chorrera was finished. Throughout the world, traffic and factories were coming to a 
halt. People were leaving their homes and schools to stare into the sky, realizing that 
someone, somewhere, had broken through, that it was not a day like any other day. Dave 
and Vanessa followed me back to the forest. Vanessa's ankle had made little 
improvement overnight and they grumbled a good part of the way. 

When we had gone slightly past the place where Dennis and I had parted, we came upon 
something that could not be fit into any set of expectations. This was Dennis's ruana, a 
short blanket worn by South American peasants, and his shirt discarded in the middle of 
the path. Next came a pair of pants and then further on two sweat socks. And, though I 
was to learn this only later, his glasses and his boots had also been hurled away. We 
followed this trail of cast-off garments back to the hut in the forest. There we found Ev 



and Dennis, both naked and sitting on the floor of the hut, discussing and doing the "ask 
Dennis" meditation. 

With the instruction that you could not receive a proper initiation unless you were naked, 
Dennis insisted that we take off our clothes. Vanessa peeled and Dave and I followed. 
Even their skepticism seemed to have been put aside. The presence of the mushroom was 
palpable and it seemed to be saying, "Take off your clothes. Throw everything away. 
Everything is breaking. All objects are no good to you now. Throw everything away. You 
do not need it any more." 



We all looked at each other, glossy pubic hair and secret genitals now resplendent in the 
sunshine. I rolled a joint and we sat in a circle and smoked. We told Dave and Vanessa 
about the teaching and they tried it — with varying degrees of success. Dave seemed to 
think it worked, skeptical Vanessa was not so sure. I was not surprised at this result since 
a voice in the head is a very slippery and subjective thing. If one has it, there is no doubt; 
if one does not have it, it seems a very murky matter. 

Everyone was very amiable, except that Dennis was showing a tendency to talk right 
through other people's comments as though they were not present. It seemed as if he were 
on a different time-track from the rest of us, since he really seemed unable to realize 
when someone else was talking. 

We thought that it was logical to untie our hammocks from the house, to take them and 
nothing else, and to go naked into the jungle. We would tie the hammocks in a tree and 
get in. Then we would explore the mode, because clearly you could do more than ask 
questions. The door was standing open. Experiment alone would show what one could 
do. Once we had moved, I asked the thing in my head what should be done and received 
instructions that we should visualize our lives starting from the present, and then move 
back through our entire life, encountering and setting things right with every sentient 
creature that we had ever wronged. When we reached the end of this process, we would 
leave our bodies and somehow enter into the dimension of absolute freedom, which now 
seemed so near. I conceived of this as though it were a fast rewind of the recording of 
karmic activity. Once one's karma was rewound a state of original innocence would 
naturally flower. 

Lying in our hammocks, we set out to meditate our way into hyperspace. In my mind's 
eye, I could see myself at La Chorrera and then going down the trail to El Encanto, up the 
river to Leguizamo and back to Bogota, back to Canada. At each point I would meet the 
people that I had lived my life with and I would say, "We got it! I'm sorry. I hope I didn't 
offend you too much back in 3-D. It's all over now. Just all over." 

I could see people. Immediately, I reached out for all of them. "We're on the Amazon," I 
explained to each. "And now we are going home. Or some place." The vision had an 
utterly bizarre, real 



quality. Tears welled up behind my closed eyelids. It was very peculiar. 

The voice of the teacher spoke in my mind. "You've found it. This is it. It's all over now. 
There is no more. Within a few hours, the superstructure of earthbound, human 
civilization is going to collapse and your species will depart. First you will go to Jupiter 
and then to Alpha in Sagittarius. A day of high adventure dawns at last for the human 
beings." 

At first the images seemed to be deepening and growing more intense, but after an hour it 
was clear that they were actually fading. One by one we pulled ourselves out of the 
stupor that the morning heat and being in our hammocks had induced. We began talking 
and talking, analyzing and analyzing. Dennis seemed the most out of it. Dave and 
Vanessa were uncertain that anything at all had "really" happened. Ev was distant, and I 
was feeling definitely stoned and immersed in the surreal perception that had been mine 
since the chaotic opening of the day. 

Then I realized that something was wrong. Apprehension was outrunning reality, as it 
always does. For everyone else, nothing had happened. As we talked, it came out that no 
one could hear Dennis in their mind except me. And actually, they were all wondering 
what was going on, growing more alarmed as they couldn't help but conclude that I was 
losing my mind. We were entering what I later came to view as the next phase, which 
was a period of confusion for all. Dennis was definitely disengaged from reality. I would 
talk to him and he wouldn't know he was being spoken to. He broke into conversations 
because he didn't know anyone else was speaking. As the gulf between our perceptions 
became clear, we all felt the need to return to normal, to touch the basics; a visit to the 
priest's outdoor shower was suggested and seized upon, since we were all filthy and 
covered with the grime of the night's fire tending. 

We gathered up our scattered clothing. During this effort, we discovered that Dennis had 
thrown his glasses away along with his boots and everything else. Disheveled and 
disoriented, we retraced the path to the mission, searching unsuccessfully for the lost pair 
of glasses. 

A group of Witoto gazed at us as we passed and then roared with appreciative laughter. 
"They know. They know what has been 



done," the voice in my head assured me. They were certainly beaming and chortling 
about something. On we walked toward the mission and its shower in the sunshine. 

Dennis wouldn't stop talking, and it was really no longer possible to communicate with 
him. Consensus among the others was building that we had a crisis on our hands, but it 
wasn't out of control yet. I agreed with them that ayahuasca was very peculiar, and they 



thought that the passage of a few hours would smooth everything out. My conclusion was 
that something real and unanticipated had happened, that Dennis had done something, 
and that some kind of odd pharmacological effect had been unwittingly manipulated. But 
the effect had behaved only in part as we had expected, and so we were cast we knew not 
where. I was calm and could at least participate in the social situation. Though I was 
moved by emotions that sent tears of joy streaming down my face, I wasn't out of touch 
with reality. 

"We'll wait for tomorrow. Dennis will come down," I tried to reassure the rest of the 
group. 

Everyone seemed to be finding their way back to their normal psychic equilibrium save 
Dennis and myself. While I was burdened with odd but wonderfully expanded 
perceptions, his wandering ideas and wild eyes indicated that he was having real 
difficulty getting his feet on the ground. After our shower, on the way back to the forest, I 
mentioned all of these things to him, but acting as sly as Hamlet in his madness, he 
replied in riddles and with the mimicry of dead relatives. I could get nothing out of him; I 
continued to assume that a night's sleep would set him right. When we returned to camp, 
I insisted that he lie down, which he did. 

"Now can we call the press conference?" he inquired from his hammock, as the rest of us 
moved about trying to reestablish order. 



CHAPTER TWELVE 
IN THE VORTEX 

In which we discover that the Universe is stranger than we can suppose, Dennis makes a 
shamanic journey, and our group is polarized and divided. 

To SPARE VANESSA THE WALK back to the river we decided that she and Dave 
would stay the night at our hut. Their two hammocks were hung next to our three. It was 
crowded, but we dined well that evening, and except for the occasional oblique or 
incomprehensible comment from Dennis, the surface of things seemed to have been 
restored. Vanessa's ankle remained bad, and much attention was directed toward this 
difficulty, perhaps due to its palpable nature in contrast to most of what was going on. I 
still felt utterly changed and made new, both removed from everyone and content to let 
events unfold as they would. I was assured by the new thing inside of me that however 
odd things appeared all was very, very well. 

The last rave of this long, amazing day came after dinner in the firelight. From his 
hammock Dennis broke the silence to explain that this night in our dreams we would 
learn a series of things that would end with us severing our connection to our bodies long 
before morning. We would reassemble in our perfected, virtual bodies 



on the bridge of a starship that was in geo-synchronous orbit twenty-two thousand miles 
above the Amazon Basin. 

This was the second self-limiting prophecy that had been made since the experiment, the 
first being that morning's effort to meditate backward to one's birth. In retrospect I now 
see that this "eschatological hysteria" was one of the chief ways in which my thinking 
seemed radically different. Over the next weeks and years there would be many more of 
these self-testing prophecies, many scenarios of the possible way the world might 
undergo final, total, and complete eschatological transformation. Like Old Testament 
prophets or Hellenistic alchemists, we felt that we were caught up in a cosmic drama of 
fall and redemption. 

Four days from the experiment, five, seven, ten, sixteen, twenty-one, forty, sixty-four — 
all were times awaited with hope and willful suspension of disbelief and all came and 
went with the eschaton still all-pervading, yet still very elusive. The idea of a dimension- 
roving lens vehicle, once articulated, was never far away. It haunted Dennis's and my 
waking fantasy, our secret hopes, and our nightly dreams. 

Dennis's statement about the awaiting starship was also the first appearance of the UFO 
image in his thought since the experiment, a theme to be articulated in a thousand ways in 
the days that followed. The equation lapis = self = UFO was the operating assumption of 
Dennis's long voyage of self-discovery and return. With these images of death-in-sleep 
and rebirth-inside-a-starship ringing in our minds, we turned in, thoroughly exhausted. 

I stress that the hut was crowded, with hammocks strung from every available beam. It 
was difficult to move about without jostling one's neighbors through the tugging and 
twisting of the many ropes. We must have retired around ten o'clock. I slept soundly until 
sometime many hours later, which I took to be after two or so. I rose to take the 
traditional middle of the night piss that the use of condensed milk induces in explorers. 
Sitting up in my hammock, I struggled for matches and lit a candle. In the silent night I 
heard the inrush of my own exclamation of amazement. An intense, triple-layered corona 
of light was shimmering out from the candle flame for a distance of about four feet. A 
deep, iridescent blue alternated with an equally pure orange. I was immediately reminded 



of the aura of light that surrounds the body of the resurrected Christ in the painting by 
Matthias Grunewald. I understood that Grunewald must have seen the same thing that I 
was seeing now and later incorporated it into his "resurrection." 

Simultaneously, as though I was having a yet deeper thought, I somehow intuitively 
"understood" that the distortion or polarizing of the light of the flame was an effect 
caused by the distortion of psychic space-time induced by our experiment and the nearby, 
ubiquitous presence of the lapis. This thought was followed by another: Perhaps the 



temporal and spatial distance from the stone could be gauged by the intensity of the 
colors in the aura of light around a simple candle. The distortion of light from a candle 
might act as a detector of the philosopher's stone. I recalled Diogenes prospecting for the 
good with a lantern. Was that what he was doing? I thought of the phrase, "It is better to 
light one candle than to curse the darkness," and laughed. 

I awakened Ev and she sleepily confirmed the colors around the candle, but it 
communicated nothing to her of what it communicated to me. She rolled over, and when 
I returned from going outside, she was snoring softly. As I climbed back into my 
hammock, I counted heads and noted that everyone was present and asleep. I lay awake a 
long time, thinking. All seemed still. 

As breakfast unfolded the following morning, the sixth of March, it became clear that the 
restful sleep I had imagined we had all shared had been anything but that. From Dennis, 
still disorganized but expansive, comments emerged that he had, or imagined he had, a 
very active night. Upon close questioning, it came out that he was completely convinced 
that sometime during the night he had arisen and dressed and then had a series of 
nocturnal adventures. These involved going alone in the darkness to the thundering 
immensity of the chorro over a mile away, then returning to climb and spend some time 
in a large tree near the edge of the mission, then making his way back across the pasture 
and returning to his hammock, strung among all the others. The thought of him 
wandering around during the night on those trails, without his glasses, falling in and out 
of shamanic ecstasy, perhaps howling and otherwise paleolithically comporting himself, 
was too much for me. It was a breech of the collective cool. Even though I was 90 
percent 



certain that it had never really happened, I was determined to eliminate all possibility of 
such rambles in the future. 

Dennis's story was the classic description of a shamanic night journey. He said that he 
had gone to the chorro and had meditated in the mission cemetery we had visited before. 
He had begun to return to camp when he confronted a particularly large Inga tree near 
where the path skirted the edge of the mission. On impulse, he had climbed it, aware as 
he did that the ascent of the world tree is the central motif of the Siberian shamanic 
journey. As he climbed the tree, he felt the flickering polarities of many archetypes, and 
as he reached the highest point in his ascent, something that he called "the vortex" opened 
ahead of him — a swirling, enormous doorway into time. He could see the Cyclopean 
megaliths of Stonehenge and beyond them, revolving at a different speed and at a higher 
plane, the outlines of the pyramids, gleaming and marble-faceted as they have not been 
since the days of pharaonic Egypt. And yet farther into the turbulent maw of the vortex, 
he saw mysteries that were ancient long before the advent of man — titanic archetypal 
forms on worlds unimagined by us, the arcane machineries of sentient agencies that 
swept through this part of the galaxy when our planet was young and its surface barely 
cooled. This machinery, these gibbering abysses, touched with the cold of interstellar 



space and aeon-consuming time, rushed down upon him. He fainted, and time — who can 
say how much time — passed by him. 

He next found himself in the pasture a few hundred feet from his newly discovered axis 
mundi. If he fell from the tree, it did not seem to have hurt him. Amazement, exaltation, 
fear, and confusion were all present in his thoughts. The continuum seemed to be 
shredding and ripping itself to pieces before his eyes, time and space swirling the artifacts 
of twenty-thousand years of human striving into a vortex of apocalyptic contradictions. In 
that state of fear and exultation, at the depth of the revelation of humanity's destiny 
among the stars, Dennis returned to our camp and noiselessly returned to his hammock, 
or awakened there from a dream of the same thing. 

Twenty-four hours had passed since the attempt to hyper-carbolate human DNA. It was 
apparent that Dennis was not pulling out of the induced state of shamanic excitement as 
quickly as we 



had hoped. This was too long to be considered a normal reaction to mushrooms or 
ayahuasca. Two choices presented themselves to explain the situation: 

The first was the position that Vanessa and Dave leaned toward, and it said that the strain 
of the journey and the recent psilo-cybin tripping had contributed to activate a shamanic 
archetype in Dennis that had been latent all along. This was now overt and carrying a 
strong transference potential to which I was succumbing by being unable to recognize my 
brother's condition as a potentially pathological state. This was the source of much of our 
differences of opinion on how to proceed. 

A second explanation, the one Ev and I leaned toward, took a biochemical rather than a 
psychological approach. It said that Dennis, through his unusual diet of alkaloids and the 
experiment he performed, had inhibited some enzyme system that would normally return 
one from the heights of a hallucinogenic trip, but in this case had somehow become 
inoperative. The most likely candidate for this would be the monoamine oxidase (or 
MAO) system, which is responsible for rendering many hallucinogens into inoperative 
byproducts. The phenomenon of irreversible MAO inhibition is known to occur with 
some drugs and is a condition that takes nearly two weeks to correct itself. Though the 
compounds in Banisteriopsis caapi are known to usually reverse their MAO inhibition in 
four to six hours, as subsequent events show, this explanation was doubtless some part of 
the story, since Dennis was to be in the grip of his shamanic ravings for nearly two 
weeks. 

After years of thought, my own explanation continues to lean heavily on the second idea 
for an operational explanation. I do not believe that Dennis was predisposed to an 
archetypal submergence. I believe that somehow, in a single moment, he bound up all the 
MAO in his body, and his derangement was due to the lag time that was required to 
rebuild his MAO level from a complete and sudden inhibition. I believe that this sudden 



depletion was caused by his experiment and that vocally induced, resonance canceling of 
the forces that normally operate in these molecules caused major changes in his body 
chemistry. In short, I believe that he induced an irreversible MAO inhibition in his body 
through the use of psilo-cybin and his voice and will. 



If this is true, then the implication for humankind may be every bit as great as we, in our 
inflated state of mind, supposed, since it hints at a pharmacological technology by which 
humankind might explore the parallel continuum whose interaction with our own 
existence is signified by the visionary experience. We had brushed against an effect that 
someday may open a door to all the worlds teeming in our dreams and imaginations. 
Certainly it is an effect to be studied and learned from. Today, years after the experiment, 
it still seems full of great promise. My continued interest in these matters is based on the 
personal belief that some unusual and still unconfirmed effect was at work in our 
experiment, something like the principle of resonance-canceling that Dennis was so 
intrigued by. 

Breakfast on March 7, the second day following the experiment, was closed with a hot 
discussion of whether Dennis had really gone to the chorro or only dreamed that he had. 
As the rhetoric exhausted itself, Vanessa drew me away from the hut, and we walked 
along as I went to the spring for water. She wanted to have a talk, the gist of which was 
that since there were wide differences in diagnosis of what was going on, so there were 
wide differences concerning what should be done. 

"But since Dennis is your brother and you have strong opinions on this subject, I will 
defer in favor of what you think should be done here. At least for the moment." 

I was grateful for the margin of time contained in Vanessa's chosen course. The whole 
question revolving around Dennis's state of mind concerned how and especially when he 
would pull out of it. Any diagnosis had to come forth with an operational prediction on 
that vital point. I was assured by the inner voice that all was well, but I wanted Vanessa 
to understand that I appreciated her approach even if I did not agree with it. 

I understood from Vanessa's demeanor that we would be left pretty much to ourselves in 
the forest house. We could expect her and Dave only as visitors, and already the 
possibility of retreat from the jungle isolation was becoming a faint but growing theme. 

Thus the stage was set for the next five days of chaos at La Chorrera, from the seventh to 
the twelfth of March. From that day onward, Ev became a kind of liaison with the rest of 
the world of the mission. She arrived in the late afternoon and departed each 



morning, cooking an evening and morning meal and being very game about it all, 
considering that she had only fallen in with our little group three weeks before. 



During this time, Dennis very slowly got better. His mind seemed to have been quite 
literally turned inside out. During certain times each day when he became more coherent 
he said that the experience had catapulted him to the edge of the Riemannian 
pseudosphere that is the universe, in which even parallel lines intersect. He claimed he 
had to come back into ordinary space and was regressing inward through level after level 
after level. Very strange things went on during this period. He could hear my mind 
working. He was telepathic; of this I have no doubt. He could do perfect voice imitations 
of our mother and father. He became many people, imitating them perfectly. He saw me 
as a kind of shaman or messiah. He referred to me as "The Teach," not teacher or 
teaching but The Teach, a kind of personified alien ambassador empowered to negotiate 
the entry of the human species into the councils of higher intelligence. 

And there was much more; a vision of twentieth-century history, building the lens, and 
the end of time. He said that the discovery of a higher physical dimension was a few 
years ahead of us, but somehow linked up to Egypt, to Acacia tryptamine cults, to Tibet 
eight thousand years ago, to Bon-po shamanic magic and the / Ching. All these ideas 
were in constant circulation while he talked and performed incessantly. 

No notes exist from this period. So filled was I with the assumption that we were abiding 
in eternity that I felt no need to write at all. As the world seemed to me to grow more 
perfect, I determined at some point that I would write a poem, but that moment never 
came. Nothing is coherent or remains connected from those five days. I remember it as 
the most intense time that I have ever gone through. There was not an emotional or 
intellectual chord in the human register that was not rung again and again in a thousand 
variations. 

In the notes made weeks after those times I could only summarize those five days by 
labeling them, absurdly: fire, water, earth, man, peace. I sat and Dennis raved. Without 
his glasses, his eyes were wild, piercing, and unsettling to look into. Since the night of 



his shamanic ramble, I had formed the intention not to sleep but to stand watch constantly 
with him day and night. For the next nine days I neither slept nor needed sleep. Though I 
know that such cases are on record, for years afterward I took my lack of a need for sleep 
for nine days as the most solid argument for the reality of the forces with which we 
experimented. Not only did I not need to sleep, but I was constantly thinking in a rich, 
calm, image-filled way that made my normal thought process seem a pale and jerkily 
animated shadow. This mental power continued throughout the sleepless period and long 
afterward. 

The time that we were moving through seemed made of the reflections of what had 
preceded it and what was to follow. The first night of my decision not to sleep, March 6, 
was passed in deep reverie and a growing amazement that I was actually functioning 
without any apparent need of sleep. In the last of the darkness before dawn, at a time I 
felt matched exactly the time when we performed the experiment two days before, I 



heard Dennis stir in his hammock inside the hut. Then I heard him make, low but strong 
and clear, the same undulating howl that had catapulted us into a new world forty-eight 
hours before. Three times it sounded, just as something in my mind assured me that it 
would. 

The last howl was drawn out as before; it rose and fell for perhaps a minute. Then, as it 
faded away, I again heard the cock's crow drifting across the whitening air from the 
mission. Why did things happen with such symmetry, as though a huge, ordered form 
was trying to surface in the very organization of the reality around us? Sunrise flamed 
across the sky and another of those titanic days began. The thing in my mind stirred to 
meet the challenges to reason that charged each new moment. All that remains of those 
times are images and incidents, only metaphors acting as sustained themes. All was 
myth-making and image-making, mercurial, meta-leveled, ever-flowing. 



CHAPTER THIRTEEN 

AT PLAY IN THE FIELDS OF THE LORD 

In which Dennis and I explore the contents of our mutual illusions and illuminations. 

The MORNING OF THE SEVENTH, Ev returned with Dave and Vanessa to the river, 
and for the first time in two days Dennis and I were alone. The atmosphere was one of 
calm. I busied myself sorting through and arranging the equipment. Our campsite was 
again spic and span. Dennis alternated between calmness and long harangues on a supra- 
cosmic scale as in The Starmaker of Olaf Stapleton. He imitated, personified, described, 
and otherwise invoked immense Gnostic and Manichaean entities that were struggling on 
a cosmic scale. The ageless struggle between good and evil was being enacted as a fourth 
dimensional comic book in the labyrinth of his mind. But he was not without humor, 
occasionally moaning out that he felt "like an old Mandaean," then collapsing with 
laughter at this cleverness. 

I sat in my hammock and verbally participated as much as I could in all of this, though it 
was clear that Dennis had no difficulty in maintaining the conversation on his own. In 
fact, he seemed to have hit the main vein of the fountain of sprung verse. 



I closed my eyes for a moment and there, fully formed beneath my eyelids, was the first 
of what I considered to be teachings or messages. It was a beautiful, recursive geometric 
form with four "petals." The voice in my mind informed me that this was "the valentine 
curve." Obviously the four petals of the curve looked somewhat like a valentine or a 
bleeding heart. I thought for an instant of the heart-shaped fruit I had fashioned into a 
water pipe. No obvious connection... the image slid. I got my notebook and drew the 
valentine curve, at first crudely, later much more smoothly. It made me think of Basil 



Valentine, a fifteenth-century alchemist and author of The Triumphal Chariot of 
Antimony. I had read the book, but could remember virtually nothing about it. I thought 
too of Valentinius, the Alexandrian Gnostic of the second century, and his doctrine that 
the material world was the condensed emotion of the errant Sophia, who had selfishly 
created a universe without undergoing any union except with herself. The concrescence 
of the anguish of the Sophia, the lowest of the Archons, into the physical world was an 
idea closely related to our own alchemical efforts. The condensation of emotion into 
matter; that theme was hair-raising. It was the theme that had brought us to the Amazon. 
Alchemy was the gnosis of material transformation. Glues seemed everywhere; 
everything was webbed together in a magical fabric of meaning and affirmation and 
mystery. 

During that day and the days that followed, thoughts and ideas of all sorts formed in my 
mind unbidden and would lead inevitably to some further expansion of the set of themes 
that we had organized our lives around. One of those themes that was seized upon and 
amplified, at first slowly and then more rapidly, radically and inclusively, was the set of 
ideas and relationships contained in the / Ching, the Chinese oracle. These ancient and 
fragmentary commentaries on a still more ancient set of sixty-four oracular ideograms, 
called hexagrams, had long been of interest to me as part of my general interest in non- 
causal forms of logic. In fact, I had first learned of the / Ching from reading Jung, who 
suggested that the meaningful juxtaposition of a hexagram with a situation in the outer 
world, the juxtaposition that allows the / Ching to be used as a fortune-telling device, 
hinted at a noncausal connection between the inner 



mental world and objective exterior reality. Jung named this phenomenon synchronicity. 

For several years it had been my habit to throw the / Ching, which consists of 
manipulating forty-nine stalks of yarrow or in my case bamboo skewers whose 
configurations create the hexagrams, at each new and full moon and to record the throws 
on a slip of paper, which I kept inside the back cover of my copy of the book. The first 
day following the experiment the voice inside my head suggested that I get out my record 
of the hexagrams that I had thrown. I could hardly then imagine the insights and 
conclusions to which this simple suggestion would eventually lead. I went through this 
record of throws looking for an instance when I had thrown the first of the sixty-four 
hexagrams; upon finding that, I returned to the beginning of the list and looked for a 
record of the second hexagram being thrown, and so on. My list of throws covered three 
years and contained about eighty throws and their changes. 

After a half-hour of the exercise I determined that, according to my record, I had thrown 
each of the sixty-four hexagrams at least once in the three years leading up to that 
moment. This mildly improbable fact seemed charged with significance to me. The 
likelihood of occurrence for each hexagram is not equal, and the odds of getting all the 
hexagrams in so few throws seemed unusual. It felt to me as if I had a kind of secret 
identity that I was in the process of uncovering. It proved that I was somehow a reflection 



of the microcosm and had been chosen somehow to be in precisely the situation in which 
I found myself Tears came easily at this personal verification of the ordered pattern of 
life whose designs I was discovering everywhere. I composed myself and then, at the 
strong prompting of the inner wave of understanding, I quietly burned the record of my / 
Ching throws. It was a very uncharacteristic thing for me to do. 

Dennis watched all of this and then delivered himself of one of the many riddles that he 
was to propound over the next few days. "What can you do with a hole in a stick that you 
can't do with a stick in a hole?," he bellowed across the sandy expanse to where I stood 
by the fire. I assumed that this answer involved a dig at the cheerful and steamy 
assumptions of Tantra in favor of the idea that 



a pipe was the superior vehicle of inter-dimensional travel and that was what you could 
do. 

An hour or so later and after a long silence that was uncharacteristic of his new condition, 
Dennis looked up from his meditations and announced that he had just realized that he 
could cause any telephone to ring by simply concentrating on an image that he refused to 
divulge. He went further than that and claimed that he could make phones ring at anytime 
in the past during which telephones existed. To demonstrate this ability he dialed Mother 
sometime in the fall of 1953. He caught her in the act of listening to Dizzy Dean call a 
World Series game. And according to Dennis she refused to believe that he was on the 
phone, since she could see his three-year-old form asleep in front of her. He told her he 
would call back earlier and then spent the rest of the afternoon calling everyone he could 
think of at various times in the past, carrying on animated conversations and chortling to 
himself about the minds he was blowing and the wonders of what he called "Ma Bell." 
And thus did the afternoon of March 6 pass. 

A reasonable conclusion would have been to suppose that Dennis was toxically 
schizophrenic and that we should leave the Amazon. What muddied the water 
considerably was me. I was comparatively normal except for one thing: I insisted that 
everything was all right and that Dennis knew exactly what he was doing. 

"It's okay," I attempted to assure the others. "He has done what he set out to do and now 
people should try to relax until this all plays out." 

I felt this way although I knew nothing about how he had performed the experiment or 
discovered the theory. I knew only that from that dawn moment when we looked at the 
mushroom immediately after the experiment something very bizarre had happened to me. 

I was in a very strange place. I felt as though I had become myself. My contact with the 
voice was like that of a student to a teacher. It let me know things. Beyond any possibility 
of argument I knew things that I couldn't ordinarily know. Ev had gone through the 
experiment, but nothing at all had happened to her. My other friends seemed very distant. 



They couldn't understand what was happening and preferred to reject us. Everyone 
thought that 



everyone else was crazy. In fact, relative to their normal behavior everyone did behave 
very oddly. 

The main thing the unseen teacher said was, "Do not worry. Do not worry, because there 
is something that you have to get straight about. Your brother will recover. Your 
companions will take care of him. Do not worry, but listen. You have to get this down." 
Within hours after the experiment this started impinging on me — something that I must 
figure out. 

This morning, the seventh, Dennis seemed to me to be more down to earth, but to such a 
slight degree that it was a matter of opinion whether he had made any improvement at all. 
I noticed with interest that while he seemed disoriented and his ideation was structurally 
as wild and woolly as ever, in content there had been a definite sort of improvement. On 
the day before, he had seemed to be spread over so vast an amount of time and space that 
there was little to be identified out of the cosmic churning that he was undergoing. On 
that day, to find even our own galaxy in his mind had been impossible. On the second 
day, he awoke within the galaxy and his visions and fantasies remained within it. Had 
that been the only instance of his telescoping back into himself, it would not have been 
worth noting, but the fact was that each step of his return to a normal state of mind was 
accomplished this way. The day after he reached the confines of the galaxy, he entered 
the solar system, condensing through its planets over several days until he identified only 
with Earth. Coalescing and condensing through the ecology of his home world, he came 
to think of himself as all humanity and was able to vividly relive all of its history. Later 
still, he became the embodiment of all the members of our vast and peculiar Irish family 
stretching back till before Judges had given us Numbers or Leviticus committed 
Deuteronomy, as James Joyce put it. They were of all kinds and he played them all: hard- 
rock miners, a seventeenth-century cleric sweating beneath a burden of lust, bombastic 
patriarchs and thin-faced women one generation, and women with shoulders like field 
hands and tongues like hedgeclippers the next. After a good bit of lolling around in those 
environs he was finally resolved down into our immediate family and progressed from 
there to confront and resolve the question of whether he was Dennis or Terence. Finally 
and thankfully, he came to rest with the realization 



that he was Dennis, returned from the edge of the universe of mind, restored and reborn, 
a shaman in the fullest sense of the word. 

But that reintegration and recovery was still twenty days in the future as we walked to the 
pasture the morning of March 7, just as we had on the morning after the experiment. We 
walked to the top of a small rise on which grew a young tree. Ama, the Witoto word for 



"brother," had become one of the many new forms of address that Dennis had created for 
me. Now as we walked along, we kept our eyes open for mushrooms, as had become our 
habit even though all thought of eating mushrooms was behind us now. 

Dennis strode ahead of me and made his way to the tree. Bending down and parting the 
grasses at the base of the tree, he pointed to the letters AMA carved in the bark. It was a 
carving at least several years old. The incident was confusing. How had Dennis known 
the carving was there and what did it mean anyhow? He answered my questions by 
sweeping his hand toward the dawn horizon and announcing that this was the planet 
Venus, or the archetypal world of Venus, I have no idea which. These assertions that flew 
completely in the face of reason were very hard to take and enkindled in me brief stabs of 
despair for his state of mind, though most of the time I was able to convince myself that 
he was improving and returning from the unseen worlds that were so vivid to him that he 
could see nothing else. 

I tried directing the developing fantasy of my brother — I used the idea that the re-creation 
of the scattered self was as an alchemical act with immense personal and historical 
significance. Each morning for several days after the fifth of March we would walk to the 
pasture and I would demand of him "the stone." Neither of us perceived these goings on 
through anything like the light of normal consciousness. The world seemed filled with a 
near-bending wonder and power that assured me that all things were possible and that the 
course of things in the light of this was moving in the right direction. 

"Be amazed at nothing; you are to receive the kingship of the father," spoke the quiet 
voice from hyperspace. "The Mystery of the wellspring and the datepalm will unfold." 

I watched my own understanding of the connections between what we were doing and 
classical alchemy move by vast intuitive 



leaps to implicate Gerhard Dorn, Robert Fludd, and Count Michael Maier, names 
associated with the finest literary flowering of the alchemical mind. And equally 
associated with a view of man and nature that had perished with the rise of modern 
chemistry. 

Yet I was haunted by their alchemical imagery. The thirty-sixth emblem of Maier's 
Atlanta Fugiens is a wonderful visual pun that connects the cube of Stropharia cubensis 
with the UFO, the hyper-object seen in the sky. It was an image that was constantly 
before me through those times. John Dee, with his angel-haunted skrying stone and the 
occult geometry of his cryptic opus The Hieroglyphic Monad, is mixed up in the same set 
of images. Why? Did this circle of alchemical adepts penetrate the mystery to a secret 
undreamed of by their contemporaries and competition? 

Images flashed before my mind's eye: Nicholas Flamel and his wife, Pemelle, their 
legendary love affair and their unknown end. Mutus Liber ("the silent book") depicts a 



couple working at a furnace; it almost looks as though they are drying mushrooms. How 
sophisticated did alchemy become before Enlightenment science scattered the adepts and 
rendered their control language inoperable? 

In the pasture each foggy morning, when I demanded of Dennis that he give me the 
philosopher's stone, it was both pressure upon him to reformulate his consciousness into a 
unity and something that served to focus the transference potential that was so intense as 
to again and again threaten to engulf us. Not sleeping, being awake constantly, I was both 
in the world of the developing situation at La Chorrera and also in the world into which 
my brother had become psycho-topologically enmeshed — a dimensional vortex beyond 
which seemed to be eternity, the land of the dead, all human history, and the UFOs. It 
was a world whose unseen, cybernetic chroniclers spoke to us telepathically in our minds 
and revealed that we and all humanity were in the act of once again becoming able to go 
between these alien dimensions and our own to re-establish the es-chatological 
shamanism lost scores of millennia ago. 

At one point I picked up a stick and in the sandy soil of our living area I scratched the 
shorthand symbol for "and." I called it "the ampersand." I found its binding fold in one 
corner of a quaternary 



structure to be very satisfying. I began to imagine this symbol as the symbol of the 
condensation of the alchemical lapis. To me it appeared to be the natural symbol for a 
four-dimensional universe somehow bound into a 3-D matrix. I spoke of it as the 
ampersand for several days, then I called it "the eschaton." This I imagined as a basic unit 
of time; the combination and resonance among the set of eschatons in the universe 
determined which of the possible worlds allowed by physics would actually undergo the 
formality of occurring. "The formality of actually occurring" was a phrase from 
Whitehead that kept echoing through my thoughts like the refrain of a half-forgotten 
song. I imagined that at the end of time all the eschatons would resonate together as a 
unity and thereby create an ontological transformation of reality — the end of time as a 
kind of garden of earthly delights. 515 

Occasionally I would seem to catch the mechanics of what was happening to us in action. 
Lines from half-forgotten movies and snippets of old science fiction, once consumed like 
popcorn, reappeared in collages of half-understood associations. Punch lines from old 
jokes and vaguely remembered dreams spiraled in a slow galaxy of interleaved memories 
and anticipations. From such experiences I concluded that whatever was happening, part 
of it involved all the information that we had ever accumulated, down to the most trivial 
details. The overwhelming impression was that something possibly from outer space or 
from another dimension was contacting us. It was doing so through the peculiar means of 
using every thought in our heads to lead us into telepathically induced scenarios of 
extravagant imaginings, or deep theoretical understandings, or in-depth 



[* These were the first faint stirrings of thoughts that were to lead eventually to the 
development of my own theory of time described in The Invisible Landscape. These early 
intuitions bore no resemblance to the final theory; and it is just as well that they did not, 
for at that time I would have been completely unable to understand the theory that I was 
finally to develop. It took years of reading and self-education to keep track of the things 
that the internal voice was saying. Its presence and persistence over the years since La 
Chorrera has been amazing. That day at La Chorrera, the voice had a holistic and 
systems-oriented approach to things that did seem to be slightly of another order — not 
enough to be alarming, but enough to repeatedly remind me that the ideas I was 
producing were coming fully organized from somewhere else, and I was nothing more 
than a message decipherer, hard-pressed to keep up with a difficult, incoming code.] 



scannings of strange times, places, and worlds. The source of this unearthly contact was 
the Stropharia cubensis and our experiment. 

Our collective intelligence was not compromised, but what was compromised was the 
ability of reason to give a coherent account of what was going on, as paradox, 
coincidence, and general synchronistic strangeness began to increase exponentially. Into 
the vacuum left by the collapse of reason rushed a staggering array of exotic intuitions 
about why things were as they were. 

Shortly after breakfast on the morning of the seventh, the third day following the 
experiment, Dennis announced a new teaching. He said that one could see any point in 
time by closing one's eyes, visualizing an eight, turning it on its side so that it 
approximated the sign for infinity, and then mentally sliding the two closed rings over 
each other to form a circle, shrinking the circle to a dot, and thinking the word "please" 
and the target point in space-time. Usually I knew not whence these images came to him; 
however, this time I was amazed. I recalled with perfect clarity that six weeks before, 
shortly before I left Vancouver, British Columbia, I had gone to a dentist as part of the 
standard pre-travel tune-up. While in the waiting room, I had read a several-months-old 
journal of some Canadian education association. In that journal, which I had not 
discussed with anyone, was a very short article about teaching-machines and very young 
children. The "Picture This" scenario with which the article opened was of a child 
looking at a figure-eight on a television screen, rolling it on its side, squeezing it together, 
etc., etc. It was a bit of media flotsam that my brother, or something working through my 
brother, was able to lift right out of my mind weeks after I had forgotten it. Something 
was able to refashion and use our memories in whatever absurd way that it wished. 

"Now can we call that press conference, Bro?" Dennis inquired again from his hammock 
swinging hypnotically in the shadows. 



CHAPTER FOURTEEN 



LOOKING BACKWARD 



In which several miracles are recounted, not the least of which is the appearance of James 
and Nora Joyce disguised as poultry. 

Two MONTHS AFTER ALL of these experiences, around mid-May of 1971, 1 was 
moved to try to sum up the particularly bizarre and possibly physics-compromising 
incidents that I could then recall. Here is what I wrote at that time — a time when Iwas 
concerned to refute the idea that schizophrenia was a magic word explaining all that we 
had undergone: 

May 12,1971 

I have almost two months' perspective on the events surrounding our experience at La 
Chorrera, and I can clearly recognize that both my brother and I evinced the classic 
symptoms of the two generally distinguished categories of process schizophrenia. He 
appeared to manifest the withdrawn characteristics of essential schizophrenia while my 
behavior was of a more outward and paranoid sort. Nevertheless, I am unable to make the 
assumption that our experiment was therefore "nothing but" two simultaneously 
occurring cases of schizophrenia. With the full knowledge that such a position argues that 
I may still be experiencing residual 



symptoms of the illness, I maintain that we were in fact dealing with an objective 
phenomenon that, though of a highly peculiar nature inexorably bound up with psychic 
processes, does have its basis in the molecular ideas we were in the process of 
investigating. As empirical evidence of this viewpoint, I mention the following points, 
which seem to me to set our experience outside the realm of mental illness: 

The suddenness with which the symptoms developed following our actual experiment: 
Within a few minutes after we completed our pre-planned experimental procedures, my 
brother began to disengage himself from the continuum of shared perceptions and at this 
same time I underwent a willing suspension of disbelief and began to experience the 
cybernetic unit that we had predicted would be a part of the effect we would cause if we 
were successful in our attempt to generate a superconducting genetic matrix and harmine 
bond. 

The integrated or dovetail aspect of our shared disassocia-tion: meaning that though both 
of us were exhibiting the symptoms of types of schizophrenia, the fantasy, the ideas, and 
the understanding which we were experiencing was shared. While my brother thought of 
me as the shaman messiah in all manifestations, I perceived him as the condensed mind- 
lens making a return journey across the universe that might have been one logical 
outcome of our experiment. Each of us alone would have given the clear appearance of 
being deluded; however, each of us seemed to offer elusive proof of the correctness of the 
other's position. I might add that though no one else could understand my brothers 



peculiar mental processes, I believed I could discern depth and an integrated 
understanding which seemed to be behind them — but at the same time I understood that 
his apparent lack of integration was due to the fact that his thinking was moving 
backward in some fundamental way. In the same way that a film running in reverse 
seems to present a spectacle of wild and irrational confusion, yet manages in the end to 
have things in their proper places, my brothers ideas and physical movement seemed to 
me to be simply the exact reverse of logical expectations. 

Dennis felt confident that the brain operates on the principle of a hologram. This was an 
idea originated by Karl Pribram, a 



neurophysiologist at Stanford, that was very much in vogue in our circles then. It neatly 
explains the fact that a large percentage of the physical brain can be damaged or removed 
with no impairment of memory, since a portion of a hologram contains all the 
information embedded in the larger whole from which it has been taken. Dennis had 
speculated before our experiment that he might receive a reverse image of my brain/mind 
organization for a brief time during the experiment. In listening to his free associations 
after the reversal, I became certain that this had in fact occurred — but for a much longer 
time than we had anticipated. In fact, I still believe that our only error throughout this 
entire experiment and the events following it has been our inability to correctly predict 
the duration of the process. I believe that our understanding of the mechanics of the 
process, aside from its duration, has been correct, though still incomplete. Time is still, in 
other words, the crux of this matter. At times my brothers free associations consisted of 
incidents which I had experienced more than a year previously and more than ten 
thousand miles from where Dennis was then living — incidents about which I had spoken 
to no one. 

Dennis seemed to possess the ability to hear my mind working during the period 
immediately after the experiment. I illustrate by recalling an incident when I was sitting 
outside of our jungle hut listening to his free association, having noticed a few moments 
before that his muscles were almost rigid with the enormous physical energy associated 
with some types of schizophrenia. I worried that he might at some future time resist my 
efforts to keep him from wandering away on the archetypal errands that constantly 
motivated him to try to leave our immediate living area. It occurred to me that with such 
strength he could easily injure me or perhaps escape. While mulling over this disturbing 
possibility for the first time, I noticed that Dennis had left his hammock and was standing 
in the doorway of the hut; in a perfect imitation of our father's voice, he consoled me with 
the spoken thought that "Dennis is a good lad and would never do a thing like that." 

Another incident occurred seven days after the reversal began, on March 12. Dennis 
announced that at eleven o'clock that night 



the "good shit" would appear. This was a reference to a kind of psilocyb in-enriched 
hashish that Dennis claimed he had encountered a few months before leaving the States, 
but which would be impossible to find in the Amazon. This prediction of a material 
transmutation is not so odd when the alchemical concerns and ideas that led us into this 
experiment are recalled. After all, we had been reading and discussing alchemical ideas 
ever since I had discovered Jung's Psychology and Alchemy, at age fourteen. It had 
seemed to us then that in the projection of the phantasms of the unconscious onto matter, 
the alchemists were achieving a kind of psychedelic state of understanding. And, after all, 
isn't the alchemical faith really a faith that the world is made of language? That poetry 
can somehow be the final arbiter of authentic being? 

After this conversation, Ev and I returned through rainy darkness to the forest house for 
the night and Dennis stayed at the river house with Vanessa and Dave, where he had 
moved by this time. As was our custom, we smoked a bit of our Santa Marta Gold before 
turning in. During this process, a small fragment fell, still burning, from the pipe. As I 
picked it up to return it to the pipe, the characteristic odor of Asian hashish was very 
noticeable. I examined the pipe's bowl very carefully and, though no change in the 
physical appearance of the smoking mixture had occurred, it was now definitely, to my 
own satisfaction and to that of skeptical Ev, behaving exactly like hashish — a luxury 
absolutely unknown in the Amazon in 1971. 

This phenomenon persisted for about five minutes and then slowly faded, returning to the 
rational continuum of normal behavior for materials. It is to be regretted that this 
transmutation occurred with a substance where any skeptic will be at ease in venting his 
or her scorn. We are all familiar with the facile view that "pot-heads can't think straight," 
but to anyone who has in-depth involvement with these two substances the difference is 
unmistakable. This experience contained a number of parallels to the Nijuli movement 
among the Lawangan people of Borneo, who in the early 1920s promulgated ideas 
centering around the claim that a piece of resin had suddenly become longer through the 
influence of a flute played nearby, and that the lengthening of the resin foreshadowed 
human immortality. 



Equally absurd and even more inexplicable was an incident that occurred on the morning 
of the fifth day, or the ninth of March. Dennis was sitting and raving to no one in 
particular with the normal camp life going on around him. I was sitting near the cooking 
fire sharpening the expedition's buck knife. I listened while Dennis raved, scanning his 
ramblings for a hint of a message. Suddenly I stopped my work. 

"Are you my tailor?" He demanded, in a strong English accent. 

That seemed familiar to me from somewhere. 

"All these reflections. See. It's me. Uh, but where is my tailor, my silly? Look, look at 
you, cor, why you've got my knickers on!" 



I blushed deeply. I looked at the ground and said nothing. I felt very boxed in. Dennis 
was imitating the conversation that I had had with my English friend in Nepal, after I had 
come looking for her and had returned with her delirious to my room during our LSD and 
DMT trip more than a year before! This crazy conversation, which I had never discussed 
with anyone save her, was now booming out over our Amazon clearing in the mad voice 
of my brother. 

It was hardly the sort of situation in which I wanted to exalt my brother's prowess as a 
telepath. I said nothing and waited, squirming, for his raving to drift off into incoherence. 
But I was impressed and convinced that he had somehow penetrated not only my 
immediate thoughts but my private memories. 

Most important among the factors arguing for more than a simple case of simultaneous 
schizophrenia is the surprising durability of the model we have created out of the careful 
observation of the things that happened to us. No one can deny that the theory of the 
hyperspatial nature of hallucinogenic drug states, and the experiment my brother devised 
to test that theory, yielded spectacular results. But I have taken the fruits of the visionary 
revelation and carried them further, deconstructing them to discover a very elegant 
wave/particle theory of the nature of time. Quite unexpect- • edly, what I now propose, 
based on those initial experiences, is a revision of the mathematical description of time 
used in physics. According to this theory, the old notion of time as pure duration, 
visualized as a smooth plane or straight line, is to be replaced by the idea that time is a 
very complex fractal phenomenon with many ups and downs of many sizes over which 
the probabilistic universe 



of becoming must flow like water over a boulder-strewn riverbed. I had discovered the 
fractal dimension of time itself, a mathematical constant that replaces probability theory 
with a complex, but elegant — indeed an almost magical — set of constraints on the 
expression of novelty. 

After the first mushroom experience at La Chorrera, Dennis and I were involved with two 
ideas in particular. These were the motifs of the "teacher" and the insect. We could feel 
the overwhelming presence of some unseen, intelligent entity that seemed to be observing 
and sometimes exerting influence to keep us moving gently toward a breakthrough. 
Because of the bizarre nature of the DMT flash, with its seeming stress upon themes 
alien, insec-tile, and interstellar, we were led to speculate that this teacher was somehow 
a diplomat-anthropologist, come to give us the keys to galactarian citizenship. We 
discussed this entity in terms of a giant insect and through the insect trill of the Amazon 
jungle at midday we seemed to be able to discern a deeper harmonic buzz that was the 
signal keying us to the entity in hyperspace. 

This sense of the presence of an alien third party was sometimes very intense, especially 
from March fifth to the tenth, after which it faded off gradually. The image of the insect 
teacher gave rise to numerous entomological speculations: 



We thought at the time that the process we were involved with was akin to giving birth to 
a child, but also much like the metamorphosis that occurs in the life cycle of insects, 
especially beetles, moths, and butterflies. We "knew" that tryptamine was somehow a 
major part of the solution to the enzyme mysteries surrounding metamorphosis. We 
recalled certain unconfirmed reports of the grub of a beetle eaten by Indians in Eastern 
Brazil for its hallucinatory effect. 

The diffraction of light that occurs in natural phenomena such as rainbows, peacock 
feathers, certain insects, and the colors that appear on the surfaces of some metals during 
heating are persistent motifs within a particular stage of the alchemical opus. The cauda 
pavonis (the peacock's tail) is the brief stage that heralds the final 



whitening; by exotic intuition I "knew" that the occurrence of such iridescence in nature 
indicated the presence of tryptamine-related compounds. Going further, I "knew" that the 
New World butterfly genus Morphoea, which is characterized by a large wing area 
usually entirely expressed in brilliant blue iridescence, would be an ideal group upon 
which to conduct research to illuminate this unstudied field. 

I "knew" that the enzymes active in insect metamorphosis received molecular tuning and 
control through resonation induced by the harmonic strum of those forest insects with 
psychoactive trypt-amine in their bodies. The tryptamine acted for them as an antenna to 
the electron spin resonance signal of the collective DNA, just as it did for us in the 
experiment. This signal is somehow keeping the entire class Insecta keyed into a point of 
stable equilibrium in the evolutionary stream. This odd notion explained the remarkable 
durability of insect adaptation, which, it is true, stabilized its basic evolutionary strategy 
some hundreds of millions of years ago. Such improbable insights into nature were 
delivered quite conversationally by the voice in my mind. 

During this time, an iridescent black sheen from the mushrooms particularly caught my 
eye. This effect occurred when Stropharia cubensis grew in clumps, and larger 
mushrooms shed spores on the caps of smaller companions. Interestingly enough, this 
same metallic blue-black sheen was quite noticeably present on the carapace of a large 
and shrill beetle, a member of the genus Buprestidae that I had captured in the forest in 
the heat of the afternoon. It is known that the chitinous material that forms the outer 
covering of insects and spores is one of the most electron-dense materials in organic 
nature, being, in this property, similar to metal. The inner teacher urged that this 
specimen be analyzed for the presence of psychoactive tryptamines. If they were found, it 
would tend to confirm the idea that some species responsible for the buzz of the forest 
would be discovered to contain tryptamines. The tryptamines are the antenna of a 
bioelectronic system that allows the insects to key in on harmine present in local 
Banisteriopsis lianas and through them to key on the collective DNA network. I supposed 
that if a few of these species resonated, then other shrilling species could tune themselves 
to the molecular signal — 



thus amplifying it and sustaining it through the forest for some hours of every day. 
Acoustically driven chemical reactions are well known; I felt sure that some of the life 
processes of the Insecta must be acoustically regulated by a few species in this way. 

These unlikely and bizarre ideas unfolded themselves over those long, hot days, while 
Dennis lay confined to his hammock and I squatted on the earth nearby. By the third or 
fourth day following the experiment, I had learned enough of the new and peculiarly 
symbolic language that he was speaking that I was increasingly convinced that through it 
I could observe him achieving a gradual but progressive integration. Often, then, long 
silences would fall between the raves, and we would each drift off into a world of private 
reveries. Several times on such occasions I looked down and noticed with a weird thrill 
that my unconscious fingers had been engaged in gathering small twigs and arranging 
them in patterns as though they were to be miniature fires. This unconscious laying of 
small fires by my busy fingers seemed to me most extraordinary — I interpreted it then as 
a literal overflowing of the organizing energies that were being poured into me from 
some unknown source, the same source that was supplying me with energy so that I could 
matter of factly go without sleep. 

Occasionally Dennis would interrupt me to ask that I or Ev smoke a cigarette for him. 
Questioning uncovered his belief that in hyperspace the topology of all human bodies is 
continuous and so he could effortlessly absorb what he needed directly out of our bodies. 
For five days life went on in that mode, a waking dream of overkill by palindrome and 
pun. We sent amazingly few waves of interaction out into the "real world" around us. No 
one stopped to stare at us or our camp; we seemed to have become invisible. The 
morning of the tenth of March changed that. 

I had hardly been away from the hut and the short stretch of trail that separated it from 
the edge of the pasture for five days; so after breakfast on that particularly flawless 
morning I chatted with Dennis and found him calmer and more lucid than he had been at 
any time since the experiment. So composed and relaxed did he 



seem that I made the inevitable mistake of taking the situation for granted. I slipped away 
with Ev and the butterfly net for a relaxed stroll down the trail and deeper into the jungle. 

The trail was of washed, white sand, inches deep in places and soft and inviting. We had 
walked hardly a quarter of a mile when lust overtook our interest in lepidoptera. Adding 
to our thrill was the risk of discovery by Witoto trail users. We tossed caution to the 
winds and were soon lost in each other. Pleasant it was in that verdant setting to part and 
defile the shaggy, slippery riches of Ev's sex. I thought of it as "Doing it for Vladimir." 
Verdant lust and butterflies were always entwined in Nabokov's enviable mind. 



We were gone scarcely forty minutes, but returned to the hut and clearing to find it 
humming with a deserted, heart-sinking air of emptiness. I was no longer afraid that 
Dennis would wander into the forest and become lost. I was convinced that whatever his 
state of mind it did not include that sort of thing. What I did fear was that he might focus 
others' attention on us and the borderline area that we were investigating. 

Leaving Ev at the camp in case Dennis should turn up, I ran to the pasture and across it to 
the mission on the far side. As I ran I was busy telling myself that he had probably just 
gone down to see Dave and Vanessa and that I would find him there. I was too 
preoccupied to notice that the bells of the mission, silent normally except on Sundays, 
had been pealing for some time. As I came over the rise that gave me a clear view of the 
river house and the lake below the chorro, I saw Vanessa leading Dennis toward the river 
house. I could sense as I arrived that the situation was more difficult than I had hoped. 

Vanessa was angry and had seized the situation to drive home her point. It seemed that 
Dennis must have bolted from his hammock the moment Ev and I had passed out of 
sight. He had gone straight to the mission, located the bell rope of the bell used to call the 
people to Mass, and had rung it furiously until the priest found Vanessa and Dave and 
they had none too gently persuaded Dennis to desist from his hijinks. Nevertheless, the 
already circulating rumor that one member of our expedition had gone a bit off the deep 
end was not eroded by this sudden and totally public outrage. The delicate political 
balance I had established allowing me to 



have my way in the matter of how to treat Dennis was now destroyed. Vanessa's idea that 
he should be moved to the river house was brought forth and endorsed by the priests and, 
I was told, by the police. Riding on the inner assurance that worry would be preposterous 
and acknowledging that I had completely lost control of the situation, I agreed to all 
suggestions. 

Vanessa had more news. An airplane was coming. It was not coming to take us out, but it 
would enable us to begin our withdrawal, since it would allow one of us to get a lift over 
a hundred kilometers of jungle to San Raphael, where we had left the cache of equipment 
before making the overland march to La Chorrera. This was the only opportunity to fly 
rather than walk back to those supplies, and Vanessa pressed that we should take 
advantage of it. I agreed with everything. I assumed that the eruption of the millennium 
would soon obviate all such mundane concerns, but that was a fact that I would let others 
discover for themselves as they made their way into the ever-deepening dimension of the 
future. 

Dave volunteered to go on the airplane — the decision was made almost at a moment's 
notice. He would reach our supplies and single-handedly undertake to have them and 
himself shipped up the Rio Putumayo and then back to Bogota. We would meet him back 
there when and if we got out by some means not yet clear. A bag was hastily packed. The 



airplane came skimming in, and then it was gone again, and with shocking suddenness 
we were four. 

Dennis was moved to the river house, and Vanessa and Ev became his nurses. I preferred 
to continue to live at the jungle house to avoid crowding. The debate continued as to 
whether the direction in his raving was toward improvement or whether he was only 
drifting further into the world in which he had become lost. As residents of Berkeley, we 
had all encountered acid casualties; comparison of Dennis's state with those lost souls 
was not reassuring. Dennis's move to the river was a turning point, for from then hence 
the effects the phenomenon unleashed were less in our minds and more in the world. 

Through it all, even after the move, he and I were still after the lens-shaped object. What 
the teacher told me in the first few days after the experiment was, "You almost got it; you 
didn't quite get it." Or rather it used the metaphor of condensation: "It is condensing." 



It was like a perfect alchemical metaphor. The stone is everywhere. It is here. 

Dennis would say, "I can see the lapis. It is two hundred and fifty feet away to the left; it's 
down near the waterhole, hovering above the water." I continued to ask him each day for 
the stone, and each day the Sophie hydrolith — a.k.a., the universal panacea — would get 
closer in. There were freak lightning storms. Slowly I noticed that meteorological 
phenomena tended to concentrate in the southeast. I began to look there and whenever I 
did, I would see rainbows. 

Our intuitions concerning what was going on ranged from the religiously profound to the 
utterly absurd. On the afternoon of the twelfth of March, Dennis underwent a few hours 
when he was able to respond, however cryptically, to the questions we put to him 
concerning how things appeared to him. This conversation went on at the river house 
underneath which a handsome rooster and his mate were living. He was perhaps the very 
cock that I heard crow at dawn on the day of the experiment and again two days later. 
There was a perky alertness about this cock and hen that had received comment among us 
before. This particular afternoon, Dennis called our attention to the little hen, saying that 
if one thought of her as art, then the achievement she represented was immense. Who 
could make such a hen? Only the one who could have fashioned the peculiar world that 
we had fallen into. And that was? He looked around expectantly, but finding no takers he 
delivered his own punch line: 

"James Joyce." 

Over the next few minutes he proceeded to make his case: that Finnegans Wake 
represented the most complete understanding yet achieved of the relation of the human 
mind to time and space and that therefore Joyce, at his death, had somehow been 
shouldered with the responsibilities of overseeing this corner of God's universe. In this 



Dennis was only following Wyndham Lewis, who made Joyce's ascent to eminence in 
the afterworld the subject of his novel The Human Age. 

"Jim and Nora," as Dennis called the newly revealed deity and his consort, were both in 
and acting through everything at La Chorrera, particularly in the things that Joyce had 
loved. The little hen as the symbol of Anna Livia Plurabelle of the Wake was one of 



these things. It was Joyceaen humor that radiated outward from everything in our jungle 
Eden. These ideas were absurd but delightful, and they led me eventually to reread Joyce 
and to accept him as one of the true pioneers in the mapping of hyperspace. They did not, 
however, shed much light on our predicament at the time. 

From the view of life as literature Dennis moved on. He reminded me that one of our 
alchemical analogues for the philosopher's stone, which we shared in our private code of 
associations as children, was a certain, small, silver key to a box of inlaid wood with a 
secret compartment that had belonged to our grandfather. I reminded him that the key had 
been lost since our childhood. I said that the ability to produce that key right then would 
prove the reality of Dennis's shamanic powers and ability to transcend normal space and 
time. The conversation took the form of a question-and-answer session that ended with 
Dennis demanding that I hold out my hand, and then, slapping his closed hand into my 
open one, letting out a loud, ludicrous squawk, and depositing in my palm a small, silver 
key. 

At the time I was thunderstruck. We were hundreds of miles from anywhere. He was 
practically naked, yet the key before me was indistinguishable from the key of my 
childhood memories. Had he saved that key over all those years to produce it now, in the 
middle of the Amazon, to completely distort my notion of reality? Or was this only a 
similar key that Dennis had been carrying when he arrived in South America, but that I 
had somehow not noticed until he produced it? This seemed unlikely. He was confined to 
a room far from our stored equipment, and it was difficult to conceive of him becoming 
calm and organized enough to go to the baggage and carefully sort through it to find the 
secreted key. And anyway, it was I who had conceived of asking for the key; had he 
somehow tricked me into asking for the one object that he had brought with him to 
deceive me? This matter of the silver key, whether it was the original key or not, has 
never been satisfactorily settled. The original box was lost long ago, so the key was never 
tested. A final ironic note is added to the episode by the fact that both Dennis and I are 
fans of the stories of H. P. Lovecraft and so were aware of his story "Through the Gates 
of the Silver Key," a tale seething with 



many dimensions, strange beings, a cosmic time scale, and reckless, oddball adventurers 
like ourselves. 



After Dennis was moved to the river house, there was no longer any need for my 
sleepless watch at night. But the lack of a need to sleep prevailed. I actually looked 
forward each night to the time when everyone would retire and I would have before me 
long hours of delicious, silent thought. Like the fox spirit of the / Ching who wanders 
eternally among the jeweled, night grasses, I wandered in the pastures and on the trails 
around La Chorrera. Sometimes I would sit beneath the AMA-initialed tree for hours, 
watching vast mandalas of time and space turn and glisten around me. At times I would 
walk with long strides, nearly loping, head thrown back, gazing at the every-colored 
stars. Effortlessly, the deeper something that shared my mind connected up the 
constellations for me and showed me the enormous Zodiacal machine of stellar fate that 
must have come to the ancients with the same suggestive force. 

I immersed myself in millions of images of humankind in all times and places, 
understanding and yet struggling with the insoluble enigmas of being and human destiny. 
It was during those velvet, star-strewn, jungle nights that I felt closest to understanding 
the tripartite mystery of the philosopher's stone, the Alien Other, and the human soul. 
There is something human that transcends the individual and that transcends life and 
death as well. It has will, motive, and enormous power. And it is with us now. 

I have come to believe that under certain conditions the manipulative power of 
consciousness moves beyond the body and into the world. The world then obeys the will 
of consciousness to the degree that the inertia of pre-existing physical laws can be 
overcome. This inertia is overcome by consciousness determining the outcome of the 
normally random, micro-physical events. Over time the deflection of micro-events from 
randomness is cumulative so that eventually the effects of such deflections is to shift the 
course of events in larger physical systems as well. Apparently, when want-ing wishes to 
come true, patience is everything. 

Is this just a fantasy, a grown man trying to explain to himself how wishes can come 
true? I don't think so. I have lived it and 



know that the greater the amount of time that consciousness has in which to make its 
effects felt, the greater the possibility becomes that the desired event will come to pass. It 
is as though subtle pressure toward a given end accomplishes a series of micro-deviations 
leading to a non-random and anti-entropic situation — a wish come true. And I confess the 
desire to make wishes come true was a wind ever blowing at my back. I remember being 
so small that my mother could cradle me in her arms, and she would lean over me and 
whisper the old nursery rhyme, "If wishes were horses, beggars would ride." I could say 
it before I could understand it. In fact I am still trying to understand it. 

Now it seems to me that this must be how consciousness works within the brain, where 
matter and energy are in a more unbound and dynamic state than throughout the rest of 
nature. It is easy for consciousness to direct the electrical flow in the central nervous 
system (though we have no idea how this is done); it is less easy for it to move, not 



electrons, but the whole atomic system spread far and wide in time and space. This may 
explain why it is easy to form a thought, but having one's wishes come true takes longer. 

I pondered these things during the long, starry nights at La Chorrera when the very heart 
of the mystery of being seemed about to give itself to me. Alchemical gold was ever 
flowing through my fingers; I was certain that if I could alloy it with hope and 
imagination it would not pass away. 

I saw that there is an interphase between consciousness active in the world and 
consciousness active in the central nervous system, whose intermediary is the body. That 
interphase is language. To use language, consciousness informs the brain to inform the 
body to impart coherency to the random motion of the air molecules near but outside the 
body. This coherency is supplied by consciousness in the form of a word. None of the 
physical laws operating on the air molecules have been violated, because the coherent 
pattern of behavior of the molecules is due to an input of energy — an input of energy 
whose release was initiated by an act of conscious will. Will is not an item in the toolkit 
of scientific explanation. 

Language is thereby seen to be a kind of parapsychological ability since it involves action 
at a distance and telekinesis, albeit 



voice-transduced. Perhaps under the influence of psilocybin an immense energizing of 
will could be vocally transduced into the world where it might do more than imprint a 
signal onto the random motion of air molecules. Perhaps instead a word, visibly beheld, 
might be transduced and appear through appropriate shifts of refraction in those same 
nearby air molecules. 

Normal speech itself is sometimes seen to effect the refractive index of the air in front of 
the speaker's mouth. Viewed in profile a speaker is sometimes seen to generate a 
wavering of the air in front of the mouth that is like the shimmer of a mirage above a hot 
highway. Perhaps this is an indication of the hidden potential of speech to go beyond its 
normal function of symbolizing reality to actually signifying it. A more perfect Logos 
would seem to be the result — a Logos able to regulate the activity of the ego as it exists 
in the sum total of individuals living at any time. It is like a god; it is the human god. It is 
something that will happen to human destiny sometime in the future, and because it will 
happen, it is happening. Nothing is unannounced. The ontological mode of the higher 
dimensions into which humanity is being propelled is being anticipated by the singularity 
that we call the wholly Other or the alien. The alien is teaching something through its 
reinforcement schedule: It is preparing us to confront the God facet of ourselves that our 
explorations into the nature of life and matter are about to reveal. 

Such was the table talk of our distressed band of adventurers. How long ago our arrival at 
La Chorrera then seemed! 



CHAPTER FIFTEEN 



A SAUCER FULL OF SECRETS 

In which we plan our departure, I encounter a flying saucer, and theories sprout like 
mushrooms as we return to Berkeley. 

The ELEVENTH OF MARCH was a full moon. It passed uneventfully enough after the 
adventure of Dennis and the mission bell, meaning that I can now recollect little of what 
happened. I remained ecstatic, certain that all was for the best, certain that some 
definitive tipping of the hand by the thing we were dealing with was about to occur. 

The next day, in the late afternoon, Ev walked out from the river house to see me. She 
invited me to return with her to the river and for all of us to have dinner together. She 
showed the strain of what we had all been going through. There was no doubt that 
whatever had happened was pushing us to the limit of what we could assimilate without 
wanting to move against it. As we walked back across the pasture, the atmosphere 
seemed to be even more alive and active than usual, with spawning clouds and drifting 
mist. Ev pointed to the southeast, where a black, stratocumulus mass was seething and 
boiling up to great altitudes. We watched for a few 



moments, and it became like a vast mushroom cloud — the aftermath of a thermonuclear 
blast. The impression was very startling, and Ev recalled to me Dennis's words with 
regard to Stropharia cubensis. He said that it was the mushroom at the end of history. To 
him the shape of the atomic cloud was a physical and biophysical pun on the 
transformative powers of the Strophariad and its eruption into human history. 

As we watched, suddenly Ev gasped. From the seething base of the cloud what looked 
like a column of light emerged. The column was sustained, not merely a bolt of lightning. 
It was hard to see how it could be a shaft of sunlight, since it was late afternoon and the 
sun was in the west, while the cloud was in the southeast. We watched it for perhaps a 
minute. Then it stopped abruptly. Ev was quite shaken. Even more than the frozen 
appearance of the river, this occurrence was of an empirical order different than anything 
that she had experienced at La Chorrera. 

Arriving at the riverside campfire we learned that Vanessa had been up at the mission 
with Father Jose Maria talking on the radio to the bush pilot who had whisked Dave from 
our midst. The pilot was willing to follow Vanessa's intent and think of us as a low-grade 
emergency. He promised to return in a few days to fly us out. I was unhappy with these 
arrangements. I knew that we, the gringo strangers, would lose face with the local people 
when our need for this airlift became known. Also, I did not have Vanessa's faith that all 
Dennis needed to return to normal was to check into the world of modern psychiatry. But 



there was nothing to be done for it, and so we dined in silence, each lost in unshared 
thoughts. 

The next day we were to pack all our equipment and move it to the river in preparation 
for a flight that could come unannounced at any time. Already we were preparing to 
withdraw from the vortex at La Chorrera. 

The evening's only moment of humor was provided by Ev's animated description of 
Dennis evading Vanessa's wardenship and slipping away from the river house sometime 
during the previous night to go and sit quietly in the house of some Colombian colonistas, 
who awoke to find him there as unassuming as a piece of furniture. As the story died 
away, the unspoken dimensions of it returned to move in each of our minds. 



The next day was March 13. The camp in the forest, the hallowed-seeming spot where 
the transforming experiment had occurred, was dismantled. All the artifacts that set it 
apart from dozens of other Witoto huts were tucked away, and it was returned to its 
native anonymity. Outside, in a pile, we left quite a cargo trove behind us, for our forced 
evacuation by airplane left precious little room for any gear; some insect and plant 
specimens would leave with us, the cameras, the notebooks on the experiment — that was 
it. The things that we left would be swiftly assimilated by the tolerant Witotos who 
owned the site of our attempted probe of hyper-space. 

We were all installed in the river house ready to go with the airplane whenever it should 
appear. Everything seemed to be moving forward of its own accord. We swam in the 
river and sat on the rocks, scanning the sky and listening for the drone of the little 
amphibian. Thus the afternoon passed, with even Dennis quiet after an episode in the 
early morning in which he had methodically thrown the contents of his room out the 
window to the point of ripping out the window frame and hurling it after everything else. 

Around four o'clock, I was lying on the river bank about twenty feet back from the river's 
edge. I was thinking about a walk to the river I had taken two days before, when each 
step nearer the water seemed to bring more rhyme and rhythm into my thoughts. From 
out of nowhere I remembered an old Celtic saying that Robert Graves discusses: "Poetry 
is made at the edge of running water." My recent experience at water's edge had 
something to do with that, I believed, and I was pondering it. Vanessa and Ev were 
washing in front of me at the river bank. Directly across the river from us was the 
southeastern sky in which Ev and I had seen the cloud with the shaft of light just twenty- 
four hours earlier. 

I was gazing in that direction when I noticed what I thought was the weak beginning of a 
rainbow, a place low in the sky near the horizon where there seemed to be the faint touch 
of a spectrum. After a few seconds, I called down to the two women and asked if they 
saw a rainbow across the river. They glanced across the river for only a moment and said 



that they saw nothing. I did not persist, but instead watched the sky in that spot. By this 
time, I had stopped forcing my opinions on people. I was already 



regarded as nuts, not incoherent exactly, but not to be trusted or relied upon because I 
believed such odd things. That was my 

flaw. 

I kept watching across the river and I saw the thing intensify. I became extraordinarily 
interested. In this pastoral setting, it seemed to me that a great revelation was brewing. I 
watched and I saw the colors deepen; the bow of a rainbow never formed, but the 
deepening of the colors in one spot was very definite. Again I inquired of the women if 
they saw the rainbow across the river. Again the light glance. And? Wonderful! 

"Yes, we see it. Not much of one is it?" 

The clue-scanning part of my hyperactive imagination was upon this detail in an instant. 
Yes, first a cloud with a shaft of light; now a spot of spectrogrammatic color in the same 
spot in the sky. I had the strong sense of the eye-in-the-sky drawing close to my thoughts 
and watching with satisfaction as I understood the importance of the southeast, and of 
watching and focusing my attention on that spot. In my mind, the teacher said, "This is 
the place. This is the sign. Watch here." 

I said nothing to anyone, but I formed the resolve to not spend that sleepless night as I 
had spent the others: wandering the fields like the fox-spirit or meditating at the chorro. 
Rather I would sit here where the lake emptied and the Igara-Parana resumed its languid 
course. Here at the boat landing, seventy feet down a steep mud bank from the river 
house, I would sit through the night and watch. 

And so, all night long, I sat reviewing the things that had passed, seeming to divide my 
consciousness and send it both backward through my family tree and forward into the 
future. I seemed to see all the years still ahead; I saw some technique emerging from this 
contact, our careers pursued across space and time, and finally vindication as the world 
realized the truth of the transdimensional nature of the Stropharia visions and the true 
nearness of the worlds that they had thrown open. For it had become my belief that the 
contact with an intelligent and utterly alien species was beginning 



for humanity. It seemed that out of the long night of cosmic time the novelty of novelties, 
the moment of contact between minds on utterly different planes, was beginning. 

We were among the first to achieve contact with this Other species. It was the real thing. 
We had come to the equatorial jungle to explore the dimensions glimpsed in tryptamine 



ecstasy, and there, in the darkness of the heart of the Amazon, we had been found and 
touched by this bizarre and ancient life form that was now awakening to the global 
potential of a symbiotic relationship with technical humanity. All night long strange 
vistas and insights poured through me. I saw gigantic machineries and worlds of 
vegetable and mechanical forms on scales inconceivably vast. Time, agatized and 
glittering, seemed to pour by me like living super- fluids inhabiting dream regions of 
terrible pressure and super cold. And I saw the plan, the mighty plan. At last. It was an 
ecstasy, an ecstasis that lasted hours and placed the seal of completion on all of my 
previous life. At the end I felt reborn, but as what I knew not. 

In the gray of a false dawn, the wave of internal imagery faded away. I rose from where I 
had been sitting for hours and stretched. The sky was clear, but it was still very early and 
stars were still shining dimly in the west. In the southeast, the direction toward which my 
attention had been focused, the sky was clear except for a line of fog or ground mist lying 
parallel to the horizon only a few feet above the tree tops on the other side of the river, 
perhaps a half mile away. As I stretched and stood up on the flat stone where I had been 
sitting, I noticed that the line of fog seemed to have grown darker, and now seemed to be 
churning or rolling in place. I watched very carefully as the rolling line of darkening mist 
split into two parts and each of these smaller clouds also divided apart. It took only a 
minute or so for these changes to be executed, and I was now looking at four lens-shaped 
clouds of the same size lying in a row and slightly above the horizon, only a half mile or 
so away. A wave of excitement swept through me followed by a wave of definite fear. I 
was glued to the spot, unable to move, as in a dream. 

As I watched, the clouds recoalesced in the same way that they had divided apart, taking 
another few minutes. The symmetry of this dividing and rejoining, and the fact that the 
smaller clouds were all the same size, lent the performance an eerie air, as if nature 



herself were suddenly the tool of some unseen organizing agency. As the clouds 
recoalesced, they seemed to grow even darker and more opaque. As they all became one, 
the cloud seemed to swirl inward like a tornado or waterspout, and it flashed into my 
mind that perhaps it was a waterspout — something I still have never seen. But even as the 
thought formed, I heard a high-pitched, ululating whine come drifting over the jungle tree 
tops, obviously from the direction of the thing I was watching. 

I turned and gave one glance at the river house seventy feet behind me and up the steep 
hill, gauging whether I had time to run and awaken someone to get confirmation of what 
was happening. To arouse someone I would have had to go hand-over-hand up the slope 
and consequently take my eyes off the thing I was watching. In the space of an instant, I 
decided that I could not cease observing. I tried a shout, but no sound came from my fear- 
constricted throat. 

The siren sound was rapidly gaining pitch, and in fact, everything seemed to be speeding 
up. The moving cloud was definitely growing larger rapidly, moving straight toward the 



place where I was. I felt my legs turn to water and sat down, shaking terribly. For the first 
time, I truly believed in all that had happened to us, and I knew that the flying 
concrescence was now about to take me. Its details seemed to solidify as it approached. 
Then it passed directly overhead at an altitude of about two hundred feet, banked steeply 
upward, and was lost from sight over the edge of the slope behind me. In the last moment 
before it was lost, I completely threw open my senses to it and saw it very clearly. It was 
a saucer-shaped machine rotating slowly, with unobtrusive, soft, blue and orange lights. 
As it passed over me I could see symmetrical indentations on the underside. It was 
making the whee, whee, whee sound of science fiction flying saucers. 

My emotions were all in a jumble. At first I was terrified, but the moment I knew that 
whatever was in the sky was not going to take me, I felt disappointment. I was amazed 
and I was trying to remember what I had seen as clearly as possible. Was it real in the 
naive sense in which that question is asked of UFOs and tables and chairs? No one else 
saw this thing as far as I know. I alone was its observer. I believe that had there been 
other observers, they would have seen 



essentially what I have reported, but as for "real," who can say? I saw this thing go from 
being a bit of cloud to being a rivet-studded aircraft of some kind. Was it more true to 
itself as cloud or aircraft? Was it a hallucination? Against my testimony can be put my 
admitted lack of sleep and our involvement with psychedelic plants. Yet curiously this 
last point can be interpreted in my favor. I am familiar through direct experience with 
every known class of hallucinogen. What I saw that morning did not fall into any of the 
categories of hallucinated imagery I am familiar with. 

Yet also against my testimony is the inevitable incongruous detail that seems to render 
the whole incident absurd. It is that as the saucer passed overhead, I saw it clearly enough 
to judge that it was identical with the UFO, with three half-spheres on its underside, that 
appears in an infamous photo by George Adamski widely assumed to be a hoax. I had not 
closely followed the matter, but I accepted the expert opinion that what Adamski had 
photographed was a rigged up end-cap of a Hoover vacuum cleaner. But I saw this same 
object in the sky above La Chorrera. Was it a fact picked up as a boyhood UFO 
enthusiast? Something as easily picked out of my mind as other memories seem to have 
been? My stereotyped, but already debunked, notion of a UFO suddenly appears in the 
sky. By appearing in a form that casts doubt on itself, it achieves a more complete 
cognitive dissonance than if its seeming alienness were completely convincing. 

It was, if you ask me — and there is no one else really that one can ask — either a 
holographic mirage of a technical perfection impossible on earth today or it was the 
manifestation of something which in that instance chose to begin as mist and end as 
machine, but which could have appeared in any form, a manifestation of a humorous 
something's omniscient control over the world of form and matter. 



It was not a mirage of the conventional sort. Years later it occurs to me that perhaps it 
was a kind of mirage still unknown to us — a temporal mirage. The ordinary mirage is an 
inverted image of water or a distant place. The cause is the distortion of light by alternate 
levels of hot and cold air. Outside Benares, in India, I saw a triple image of the city 
suspended over the surface of the Ganges River. But a temporal mirage is another matter; 
it is a lenticular image of 



a distant time and place. Cause unknown. What makes the ordinary and temporal mirages 
members of the same class is that both types of mirages require the intercession of the 
human mind in order to exist. Certain areas of the world have local conditions which 
make them mirage prone; might the same be true of temporal mirages? Or perhaps the 
temporal mirage is a natural phenomenon, and the UFO is an artifact resulting from the 
temporal mirage being used or experimented with by some future technology? 

I believe that this latter comes close to the mark. The UFO is a reflection of a future event 
that promises humanity's eventual mastery over time, space, and matter. We, in our 
clumsy attempt to probe these mysteries, were able to coax nature into throwing out this 
great, burning scintilla of pure contradiction from the dark retort where she labors over 
the chemistry of the millennium. That we were able to do this is full of import. It meant 
to me that we were on the right track; the Stropharia cubensis mushroom is a memory 
bank of galactic history. Alien, but full of promise, it throws open a potential for 
understanding that will sweep away the petty concerns of earth and history-bound 
humanity. 

At La Chorrera I had only the isolated personal conviction that our approach would be 
vindicated; now, as our ideas are finding a small community that share these intuitions, I 
am yet more sure that the answer to all of the mysteries that disequilibrate our view of the 
world are to be understood by looking within ourselves. When we look within ourselves 
with psilocybin, we discover that we do not have to look outward toward the futile 
promise of life that circles distant stars in order to still our cosmic loneliness. We should 
look within; the paths of the heart lead to nearby universes full of life and affection for 
humanity. 

The UFO encounter marked for me the culmination of our work at La Chorrera. My 
contact with the saucer took place at dawn on the fourteenth of March. The following 
morning at eleven, March 15, the airplane arrived, unannounced but not unexpected. 
Vanessa had been anticipating it for three days. It was a matter of a 



few moments to clamber aboard after saying farewell to the priests and the police, all of 
whom had been most patient with our colorful party and its unusual preoccupations. Only 
in visions had my eyes recently rested on stuff such as the little airplane was made of — 
the highly polished, acrylic surfaces of machines and things impervious to hard, 



ultraviolet radiation; what the people of Amazonas call "machete skin." It was a reminder 
of all that we were returning to. 

Dennis was on his best behavior. Beyond his commenting as we got aboard that an 
airplane was a partial condensation of a flying saucer, he said little. A roar of the engine, 
a hard pull back on the stick, and we and our legendary bush pilot were airborne. We 
circled the mission once before settling down to follow the Rio Igara-Parana back to the 
Rio Putumayo and the version of civilization that the town of Leticia would afford. What 
a tiny world La Chorrera is, left behind in the trackless jungle after only a glimpse of 
buildings and Zebu cattle resting in the green pastures, looking like lumps of melting, 
vanilla ice cream. I imagined that whatever we had touched and been touched by, it was 
now falling behind us. 

We stayed two days in Leticia, days in which Dennis showed marked improvement while 
the rest of us drifted into various stances of distance with regard to each other. This 
seemed to be compensation for the excessive intimacy our isolated expedition had made 
necessary. The oddest thing about Leticia was that we were hardly off the plane before 
we ran into Jack and Ruby, an American couple who had rented Ev's apartment in Bogota 
for a few weeks. I had thought the name combination weird when I met them six weeks 
before, and now the fact that they were practically awaiting us in Leticia heightened the 
strangeness. I could not quite get my mind around it. 

By the time we reached Bogota, Dennis had almost completely returned to normal, 
lending weight to the idea that some form of temporary chemical imbalance had been 
responsible for his reaction rather than the emergence of a chronically unbalanced 
personality structure. He was very shaky and very bummed by any mention of fourth- 
dimensional superconducting bonds, ayahuasca, or shamanism. He said, "Look, I have 
had it." He had, too. 



He was nearly normal, but I was just at the beginning of a years-long period of unusual 
ideation — the state of suspended disbelief that gave birth to the ideas concerning time set 
out in The Invisible Landscape. 

On the twentieth of March, there was general agreement that Dennis was totally back 
with us. It was an occasion of great happiness and we celebrated at one of Bogota's finest 
restaurants. It was an immense accomplishment to have been able to allow the reversal to 
work itself out without the aggravating influence of modern mental health care 
procedures. The ordeal in the wilderness that all shamans must face had been endured. A 
step on the path to knowledge had been taken. 

On March 21,1 made a journal entry — the first in weeks and the only one that I was able 
to make for another couple of months. I said this: 



March 21, 1971 



It is now seventeen days since March fourth and the concretizing of the ampersand. If I 
have more or less correctly understood this phenomenon, then tomorrow, the eighteenth 
day, will mark some sort of half-way point in this experience. I predict that tomorrow 
Dennis will return to the psychological set he experienced prior to March first, though it 
is possible that rather than a residual amnesia concerning events at La Chorrera he will 
have instead a growing understanding of the experiment of which he was the creator. The 
past weeks have been harrowing and seemingly made of so many times, places, and 
minds that a rational chronicle has been impossible. Only Finnegans Wake gives some 
idea of the reality of the paradoxicum as we experienced it by virtue of being able to 
pierce beyond time's double face. In spite of earlier misunderstandings and mis- 
projections concerning the cycles of time and number operating within the phenomenon, 
I now believe that in these seventeen days we have experienced, albeit sometimes 
running backwards and certainly enormously condensed, enough of a full cycle to begin 
to foresee in some dim sense the events of the next twenty or so days and have some idea 
of the approximate nature and direction of the opus. 



This journal entry makes clear that while Dennis was recovering from his submergence in 
the titanic struggle I was quite in the grip of a struggle of my own. I was caught up in an 
obsessive immersion, almost an enforced meditation, on the nature of time. The ordinary 
concerns of ordinary life ceased to matter to me. My attention was entirely claimed by 
my efforts to build a new model of what time really is. Resonances, recurrences, and the 
idea that events were interference patterns caused by other events temporally and causally 
distant claimed my attention. In those early speculations I imagined a mythic cycle 
needing forty days to be brought to completion. It was only later, when I began to be 
impressed with the DNA-related and calendrical nature of the temporal cycles, that I 
turned my attention to cycles of sixty-four days duration. This speculation eventually led 
me to turn to the / Ching. In those early notions of a forty-day cycle of alchemical 
redemption there is only the slightest hint of the eventual theory in its operational details; 
yet the intent is clearly the same. Resonances, interference patterns, and fractal regresses 
of times within times — these were the materials that I began to build with. Eventually, 
after some years of work, the result would have a certain elegance. However, that 
elegance was reserved for the future; the early conception was crude, self-referential, and 
idiosyncratic. It was only my faith that it could be made coherent and rational to others 
that kept me at it for those several years, transforming the original intuition into a set of 
formal 

propositions. 

The end of March was mostly spent in Bogota, a dreary time. The urban frenzy of a 
teeming, modern city did not rest lightly on our jungle-sensitive perceptions. Dennis 
seemed quite normal, though weakened and sobered. There were no messages from 
Dave, and Vanessa finally returned to the States. On the twenty-ninth, Dennis followed 
her example and flew to Colorado. I insisted that Ev and I go to southern Colombia so 
that I could have some time to reflect. This we did. I reviewed the whole incident at La 



Chorrera with no new insights and concluded that some sort of psychic gravity was 
pulling us home. On the thirteenth of April, one day short of a month after my encounter 
with the UFO, we arrived in Berkeley. 

It was a short and difficult visit. I was beginning to see the dim outlines of what would 
become the / Ching time-wave theory. The 



first maps of the / Ching hexagram hierarchy, which was eventually turned into a 
computer software program I called Timewave Zero, were done at that time. I kept 
myself away from people. I was totally immersed in my work; I had no interest or 
patience for anything else. I was in the grip of a creative mania more extreme than any I 
had thought possible. Each conversation with someone on these matters seemed to open 
vast gulfs of misunderstanding. 

The most grotesque of these incidents involved my effort to obtain feedback concerning 
our ideas from what I thought of as "real experts." This misguided notion found me, one 
perfect day in May, inside the Donnor Laboratory of Virology and Bacteriology on the 
University of California campus at Berkeley. Earlier I had made an appointment to see 
Dr. Gunther Stent, the world-class molecular geneticist and author of the The Molecular 
Chemistry of the Gene. I didn't know at the time that Stent was a legend for his 
Scandinavian rectitude or that he fancied himself quite the Renaissance man and social 
philosopher. A year or two later he would publish a book advocating a reform of global 
society with the traditional social models of Samoa as an ideal goal. 

I found the great man in his lab whites in a room filled with bubbling glassware and 
adoring grad students. I was shooed out of the lab, and an underling ushered me into his 
private office looking west over the campus toward the Golden Gate Bridge miles away. 
From that ninth-floor vantage point, the spring crop of students were reduced to ant-like 
scurryings on the greensward below. Gunther Stent joined me a few minutes later. 

Austere and balding, he settled back in his chair while I launched into the ideas behind 
the experiment at La Chorrera. I tried to begin gently, but I was overawed and very 
nervous. After a few minutes, I sensed that he might be calculating the odds of whether I 
would physically attack him. To his credit, he seemed to fight back this alarming swarm 
of thoughts, allowing me to ramble on and on. His face became utterly impassive as I 
became more and more uncertain of the direction in which the conversation was headed. 
Finally, after a particularly long and outlandish burst of speculation through which he 
remained utterly unreadable, I decided to try to bring the matter to a head. 



"Dr. Stent, my concern in coming here to discuss this with you is simply that I would like 
to know whether this theory has any validity or is simply fallacious." 



He seemed to soften slightly and left his position behind the desk to join me in looking 
westward through the thick, tinted glass. With a sigh of resignation that was heart sinking 
to his visitor he turned to me and spoke. 

"My dear young friend, these ideas are not even fallacious." 

My chagrin was bottomless and I fled, dizzy with embarrassment. So much for my bridge 
building efforts toward normal science. 

Encounters such as that convinced me that I had to relearn epistemology, genetics, 
philosophy of science — the entire gamut of subjects necessary to discuss the areas for 
which I now had such compelling concern. As my study of the / Ching, or Book of 
Change, advanced, I had refined the idea that its structure was the basis of a timewave or 
waves. These waves are discrete periods of change that follow each other as well as 
enclose each other. I came to realize that the internal logic of the timewaves strongly 
implied a termination of normal time and an end to ordinary history. At that point, the 
idea of concrescent psycho-matter and the UFO that I had encountered at La Chorrera 
became identified in my mind with each other and with the end of time scenarios of the 
Western religious traditions. 

The early unquantified time chart was full of coincidences relative to my own personal 
life. In particular, the termination points of each component section of the wave seemed 
to have special meaning for me. Positioning one of these points on the experiment at La 
Chorrera seemed to make other points in the past (the death of my mother and my 
meeting with Ev), and points then in the future (my twenty-fifth birthday), especially 
important. I saw that important events in my own life seemed to be occurring every sixty- 
four days with eerie regularity. It was necessary to work these ideas out alone, since my 
intensity concerning them and their paradoxical nature looked absurd in the eyes of other 
people. I understood that whether or not the effect I was exploring was a general 
phenomenon in nature or a unique idiosyncrasy, it was obviously vitally important 



for me, personally, to let the forces I had become entangled with play themselves out to 
the end. 

Bizarre as the plan seemed to others, I resolved to return to La Chorrera, to its solitude 
and its strangeness, and to spend time there simply and calmly observing the thing that 
had come over me. Ev and I had bought emeralds as one of our last acts before leaving 
Colombia and the sale of these was more than enough to finance our return to the surreal 
domain of sunlight, forests, and rivers that had spawned my obsession. Once back at La 
Chorrera, I was determined to write down all that had overtaken us; that was my resolve, 
and much of the early draft of The Invisible Landscape was the result. This decision to 
depart California was hailed by my circle in Berkeley. Concern for my mental state was 
rife among my friends, and rumor had reached us that the FBI was aware that I was 



somewhere back inside the country and had begun looking for me. The Bombay-to- 
Aspen hashish blues were catching up with me. It was, as they say, time to make a move. 



CHAPTER SIXTEEN 
RETURN 

In which Ev and I return alone to La Chorrera and a new comet heads toward the earth. 

On THE FIFTEENTH of July, Ev and I again stood on the edge of the Amazon interior. 
My intention to return to La Chorrera was fast becoming fact. My journal takes up again 
as we started down the Rio Putumayo, a name that by then suggested to me an etymology 
like "the whore of illusion": 

July 15, 1971 

Having left the vicinity of Puerto Leguizamo a few hours ago with our cargo of beer and 
cattle, Ev and I are once again enclosed by and moving through the dream that is the 
forests and rivers of the Amazon Basin. This return to continue the contemplation of the 
phenomenon in the pure medium of tropical nature in which we discovered it marks a 
dedication to and an immersion in the phenomenon that, I imagine, anyone familiar with 
the events which overtook us in March finds incredible and even perhaps not without an 
element of risk. 

I refer not to danger inherent in the jungle or to the inevitable hardships attendant upon 
travel in remote areas, but rather to the psychological stress inherent in confronting the 
phenomenon — 



strangely so much a part of one's self and yet vast and other—away from the mitigating 
world of friends and a world that is unaware or skeptical concerning our encounter with 
the phenomenon and the subsequent understanding which we derived from it. My first 
consideration in this area is to do all in my ability to eliminate the unexpected. My 
brothers crypto-schizophrenic reversal is ever in my mind in this regard. I believe we are 
dealing with something to which no vagueness or uncertainty of inner dynamics adheres. 
Careful thought and study can eliminate the possibility of the contact phenomenon 
suddenly "turning on us" or otherwise behaving unexpectedly. 

The right approach to these things remains elusive. Again and again the "inner voice" of 
the phenomenon has insisted that since my brother's opus of hyper-carbolation nothing at 
all remains to be done, and that if something is required in the way of activity, then by 
virtue of the very nature of the contact, that something will be precisely what we are 
doing. 



Ev and I lived quietly at La Chorrera from August until mid-November of 1971 . There 
were moments of frequent high hilarity. And during that time I was able to completely 
indulge my submersion in the interior processes that I was experiencing. My days were 
filled with long, thoughtful walks on the trails around La Chorrera and by hours crouched 
over the tablets of graph paper that I had brought with me. There in the center of the 
Amazon greenery I elaborated my theories of time and covered sheet after sheet of paper 
with my wave mechanical fantasies. When not reading or daydreaming, Ev and I 
indulged ourselves in long conversations in which the new view of being in the world 
seemed almost within reach. 

During this second residency at La Chorrera, the theme of oo-koo-he recurred. We made 
the acquaintance of several of the Witoto people who regularly walked the path near our 
own hut, which was a few hundred yards down the same trail where the original 
experiment had taken place. Among those Witoto who stopped to exchange a word or 
watch me collecting insects was a sturdy older man named Demetrius. He was a cloudy- 
eyed old weasel who positively exuded the stench of the cosmic gatekeeper. In my 
excited 



state of mind, the letters D, M, T seemed to stand out in his name like a beacon. As soon 
as I could get him alone I haltingly put the question to him. 

"Oo-koo-he?" 

"Oo-koo-he!" He was barely able to believe his ears. It must have been incredible to him 
that this strange, weak creature, like something from another world, should directly 
inquire after a secret tradition of his people. I have no idea how many cultural 
conventions were overlooked, but after a bit more conversation, or what passes for 
conversation between people who share no common language, I was sure that he would 
try to help me. Days later, on my twenty-fifth birthday, I was brought a tarry goo 
wrapped into little leaf packets. I was never able to obtain a hallucinogenic experience 
from this material, but later analysis by the chemists of the Karolinska Institute in 
Stockholm confirmed the presence of di-methyltryptamine. Demetrius had been as good 
as his name. 

The important thing about the second trip to La Chorrera was that the teaching of the 
Logos was more or less continuous. And what it taught during those months and 
afterward was an idea about time. It is an idea that is very concrete and has mathematical 
rigor. The Logos taught me how to do something with the / Ching that perhaps no one 
knew how to do before. Perhaps the Chinese knew how to do it once and then lost it 
thousands of years ago. It taught me a hyper-temporal way of seeing. My books, my 
public life, my private dreams have all become a part of the effort to feel and understand 
the new time that was revealed at La Chorrera. A revolution in human understanding is 
not something that can be corralled within the confines of a conversation. 



This new model of time enables one to have as much of a certain kind of knowledge 
about the future as it is possible to have. The future is not absolutely determined; there is 
not, in other words, a future to "see" in which every event has already been determined. 
That isn't how the universe is put together. The future is not yet completed, but it is 
conditioned. Mysteriously, out of the set of all possible events, certain events are 
selected, in Whitehead's phrase, to undergo the formality of actually occurring. The 
Logos was concerned to reveal the mechanics of this process and did reveal it as the idea 
of the timewave. 



What had originally gotten me looking at the / Ching was the odd way in which my early, 
simplistic notion of sixty-four day cycles worked very well in my own life at the time. 
My mother's death was the first of these points in time that I isolated. Then I noted that 
my chance-formed relationship with Ev had begun sixty-four days after that, and that the 
culmination of the experiment at La Chorrera had occurred another sixty-four days later. 
The notion of a hexagram-based lunar year grew out of the idea of six cycles of sixty-four 
days each, a year of six parts, just as an / Ching hexagram has six lines. 

The personal worth of the idea was confirmed for me when I noticed that such a year of 
three hundred and eighty-four days, if begun at the time of my mother's death, would end 
on my own twenty-fifth birthday on November 16, 1971. 1 saw then that there were 
cycles and there were cycles of cycles: I imagined a three-hundred- and-eighty-four day 
lunar year and then the larger thing of which it was a part, a cycle of sixty-four times 
three hundred and eight-four days, and so on. The maps that I constructed and the 
eventual qualification of them that I achieved are described in The Invisible Landscape. 
But what was not told there were the experiences at La Chorrera and the way in which 
these coincidences and my unconscious mind — or something in my mind — guided me to 
discover these long hidden properties of the / Ching. 

What to make of the ocean of resonances that the timewave seemed to show connecting 
every moment of time to every other moment through a scheme of connection that knew 
nothing of randomness or causality? And what to make of the fact that certain details in 
the mathematics of the wave seemed to imply that the time in which we live was the 
focus of an ages-long and terribly important effort? These were inflationary images — and 
I recognized them as such — but the power and allure of them as a form of private 
entertainment was frankly irresistible. 

The timewave seemed to be an image from the collective unconscious that sought to 
prove, at least in its own terms, that the culmination of all the processes in the universe 
would occur within our lifetimes. For each of us this is obviously true: our own lives do 
seem to us, embedded as we are in our bodies and our historical milieus, to be somehow 
the expression of the final purpose of things. 



The timewave predicted its own end within our lifetimes; actually only a decade after the 
turn of the century, a time of such novelty that beyond it there could be nothing less than 
the end of time itself This was the most puzzling of all, more puzzling than its personal, 
idiosyncratic side, this implicit "end of time": a period when a transition of regimes 
would take place that would completely transform the modalities of reality. 

I was familiar with the idea of eschatology — the end of time — in a religious context, but 
it had never before occurred to me that regimes in nature might undergo sudden shifts 
that would reshuffle natural laws. There is nothing against it really. It is simply that 
science, in order to function, must assume that physical laws are not dependent on the 
time and the context in which they are tested. If this were not so, the idea of the 
experiment would have no meaning, since experiments performed at different times 
might then give different results. 

For years I continued to elaborate this theory and to clarify my own understanding of the 
theory-forming enterprise generally. I succeeded finally in 1974 in achieving a 
completely formal, mathematical quantification of the fractal structure that I had 
unearthed inside the structure of the / Ching. Throughout the eighties I worked, first with 
Peter Broadwell and then with Peter Meyer, to create personal computer software, which 
I called Timewave Zero, that allowed careful study of this wave. The computer is a 
powerful tool that made it possible to greatly refine my notions of what constituted proof 
or discontinuation of the theory. Today my conclusion regarding these matters is that the 
theory of the fractal and cyclical nature of novelty's ingression into the world is a truly 
self-consistent and completely mathematical theory. It is true to itself. And it returns the 
human drama and our own lives to the very center of the universal stage. 

It is possible, in a certain sense, that all states of liberation are nothing more than perfect 
knowledge of the contents of eternity. If one knows what is contained in time from its 
beginning to its end you are somehow no longer in time. Even though you still have a 
body and still eat and do what you do, you have discovered something that liberates you 
into a satisfying all-at-onceness. There are other satisfactions that arise out of the theory 
that are not touched 



on in this formulation. Times are related to each other — things happen for a reason and 
the reason is not a causal one. Resonance, that mysterious phenomenon in which a 
vibrating string seems magically to invoke a similar vibration in another string or object 
that is physically unconnected, suggested itself as a model for the mysterious property 
that related one time to another even though they may be separated by days, years, or 
even millennia. I became convinced that there is a wave, or a system of resonances, that 
conditions events on all levels. This wave is fractal and self-referential, much like many 
of the most interesting new curves and objects being described at the frontiers of research 
mathematics. This timewave is expressed throughout the universe on a number of 
extremely discrete levels. It causes atoms to be atoms, cells to be cells, minds to be 
minds, and stars to be stars. What I am suggesting is a new metaphysics, a metaphysics 



with mathematical rigor; something that is not simply a new belief or new religious 
conviction. Rather this insight takes the form of a formal proposition. 

I would be the first to admit that it has not been possible to find a bridge between this 
theory and normal physics. Such a bridge may be neither possible nor necessary. We may 
find that normal science indicates what is possible, while the time theory I propose offers 
an explanation for what is. It is a theory that seems to explain how, of the class of all 
things possible, some events and things undergo the formality of actually occurring. It is 
clear to me that the theory cannot be disproven from without; it can only be disproven by 
being found inconsistent within itself. Anyone is welcome to dismantle it if they are able; 
this is what I have attempted to do and failed. 

By November 16, 1971, 1 had begun to realize that the chart had too many variables to 
ever function as a predictive map of the future. It would be necessary, I realized then, to 
quantify somehow the various parameters of the wave so that judgments concerning it 
could be less subject to personal bias. My last piece of writing at La Cho-rrera was done 
on the morning of the sixteenth, my twenty-fifth birthday. It was a kind of fable: 



November 16, 1971 

Two old friends, Arabian somehow, yet more ancient, sit in a palace far older than 
themselves, set on a mountainside surrounded by vineyards, date palms, and citrus 
orchards. Insomniac and affable, they pass the long starry hours preceding dawn in the 
smoking of hashish and the propounding of riddles. 

"Share my pleasure at this puzzle and its resolution," said the darker to the older, and he 
passed his hand across his companion 's eyes. The older man then stood in the dream and 
watched the puzzle — a world of form and law, interlocking wheels and passion and 
intellect — unfold. He passed into its species and empires, dynastic families and individual 
men of genius, he became its philosophers and weathered its catastrophes. He felt the 
texture and tone of all the beings in the world his friend had created. He sought the secret 
pattern his friend, he knew, had surely hidden in his creation, for this was a game that 
they often played. 

Finally, in a great despotism, in an age of brash science and bright decadence, he saw 
himself divided into the persons of two brothers — and through them, through their 
wanderings and lifetimes which passed before him in a moment, he perceived the 
intricate and pleasing nature of the riddle. Understanding at last, he dissolved the mists 
and wheels of the dream fable with a laugh — a laugh they shared. And then once more 
they passed their pipe before strolling into the azure garden where dawn would find them 
conversing among the peacocks, beneath the pomegranates and bending acacias. 

Are we to be left then with nothing but fable? Or is there more here? Tropical gardens 
that I have planted have in them small acacias straining toward maturity. Perhaps there is 



still time for them to grow into shade for philosophical rambles. Life is stranger than even 
the strangest among us can suppose. 

The work at La Chorrera felt finished then. We folded our camp and retraced trails and 
rivers. It took time, there were books to write, loose ends to a life too loosely lived to be 
tidied and trimmed. We lived for a time in Florencia at the finca of a friend. There I wrote 
some of the early chapters of The Invisible Landscape. We went through the Christmas 
holidays of 1971 there, but the 



writing was slow, the lack of reference materials frustrating. We returned to the States 
and lived in Boulder with Dennis for a few months, during which I worked in the local 
hot house rose industry. It was a series of mundane American adventures. Eventually 
though we found ourselves back in Berkeley. 

Until the / Ching timewave was quantified with more data, its way of integrating 
seemingly meaningless and unrelated factors made it very easy to become 
psychologically entangled within. It seemed to operate like a kind of bottomless inkblot 
test; one could see whatever one wished to see in it. Even though my twenty-fifth 
birthday came and went with very little shift toward the novel, either in my own life or in 
the world, I continued to propagate the cycles of the chart forward into the future. I felt 
that the idea of a hidden structure of time was correct but that this could not be argued for 
until the correct alignment between that structure and human history had been found and 
confirmed. I began looking for a date with special features related to the wave, a date that 
would be a good candidate for the emergence of a special event. 

Here is a part of my story that I found most puzzling: After the seeming discontinuation 
of the cycles by my birthday, I looked at other future dates on which the three-hundred- 
and-eighty-four day cycles would end if I continued to assume that the sixteenth of 
November, 1971, was the end of one such cycle. That meant that the next ending date of 
the three hundred and eighty-four day cycle would be the fourth of December, 1972. 1 
consulted several astronomical tables, but the date seemed unpromising. The closing date 
of the next three hundred and eighty-four cycle was immediately more interesting, as it 
fell on the twenty-second day of December, 1973. 

I noticed this was the winter solstice. Here was a clue. The winter solstice is traditionally 
the time of the rebirth of the savior messiah. It is a time of pause when there is a shifting 
of the cosmic machinery. It is also the time of the transition of the sun from Sagittarius to 
Capricorn. I put no particular stock in astrology, but I noted that Dennis is a Sagittarius 
and Ev a Capricorn. I consulted my star 



maps and added another coincidence: where the ecliptic crosses the cusp of Sagittarius 
and Capricorn, at 23 degrees Sagittarius, is the very spot to within one or two degrees 



where the galactic center is presently located. Over twenty-six thousand years the galactic 
center, like all points on the ecliptic, slowly moves through the signs, but now it was on 
the cusp of Sagittarius and Capricorn on the winter solstice day. 

This seemed an unusual number of coincidences and so I pressed my search. Consultation 
with the almanac of the Naval Observatory brought a real surprise. On the very day that I 
was researching, December 22, 1973, a total, annular eclipse of the sun would occur and 
the path of totality would sweep directly across La Chorrera and the Amazon Basin. I was 
dumbfounded. I felt like a person in a novel; this string of clues was actually real! I 
researched the eclipse to determine exactly where it would achieve totality. This would 
occur, I learned, almost directly over the city of Belem in Brazil, in the delta of the 
Amazon River. The vertiginous elf chatter of hyperspace rose squealing in my ears. Was 
it mocking me or egging me on? 

Meditation on this eclipse data carried my mind out of the realm of astronomical 
coincidence and back to the motifs of the trances at La Chorrera. Belem means 
Bethlehem in Portuguese. My perceptions, sensitive to any messianic possibility, seized 
on this. Belem is Bethlehem; it lies at the delta of the Amazon. Delta is the symbol for 
change in time; delta in Joyce's fiction and among graffiti artists throughout history 
represents the vagina. Dennis was born in Delta, Colorado. Was it possible that all of our 
experiences could have been a premonition of an event at a time and place two years 
hence in Brazil? Was this why, absurdly, at the conclusion of the experiment at La 
Chorrera, the strains of "Oh Little Town of Bethlehem" had come echoing through my 
mind? By late spring of 1972, 1 knew everything that I have just mentioned. Why did the 
wave point to December 22, 1973? And why was there such a stream of coincidence 
pointing to that time? Had I known of the impending eclipse on some unconscious level? 
Had I known it would achieve totality over Belem? Why did the dates that were 
important to my life line up with that date according to the wave I had learned to 
construct in the wake of the UFO encounter at La Chorrera? To me 



it seemed impossible that I had somehow known these things and manipulated my 
conscious self to imagine that it was "discovering" these things. I was like a snow-blind 
traveler caught in a blizzard of coincidence. 

Finally, in the early spring of 1973, an event occurred that offered perfect proof that 
something larger than my unconscious, seemingly larger even than the total collective 
consciousness of the human race, was at work. This was the discovery of the comet Ko- 
hotek, heralded as the largest comet in human history, dwarfing even Halley's Comet. 

"Brightest Comet Ever Headed Toward Earth" was the headline in the San Francisco 
Chronicle. As I scanned the article, I actually let out a yell of amazement. The comet 
would make its nearest approach to the sun on the twenty-third of December! A non- 
periodic comet, unknown to anyone on earth until March of 1973, was hurtling toward a 
rendezvous with the sun within a hundred hours of the solstice and the eclipse over the 



Amazon. It was a large coincidence, if we define a coincidence as an improbability that 
deeply impresses its observer. This coincidence is not diminished by the fact that 
Kohotek never really lived up to expectations, for the expectations alone became a wave 
of millenarianism and apocalyptic restlessness among the fringes of the population that 
would die only as the comet returned to the darkness out of which it emerged. Did 
anything happen in Belem on the day of the eclipse? I do not know; I was not there. I was 
by then a prisoner of mundane obligation. But I do know that the compression of events 
that occurred around that date, and the way in which the charts predicted this, were 
uncanny. 

Only with the development of personal computers was I able to understand the way that 
the timewave describes the ebb and flow of novelty in time over many different spans of 
time: some last scant minutes, others endure for centuries. Now anyone who becomes 
operationally familiar with the theory can join me in this intellectual adventure and see 
for themselves the immense challenge involved in predicting a concrescence. I have not 
been content to merely understand the theory: I have continued efforts to apply it 
specifically to predicting the course of future events. If over years of study one becomes 
convinced that the wave does 



show the future course of novelty, then the ordinary anticipation of the future is gradually 
replaced with an almost Zen-like appreciation and understanding of the complete pattern. 

Was the above series of events the first intimation that I had that something of 
importance was connected with a specific date in time and the city of Belem? Strangely, 
no; it was not. I must mention the following incident in order to connect the history of my 
own unconscious processes with the curiously specific and puzzling piece of information 
that was seeking to emerge from me. 

In the spring of 1970, 1 had been in Taipai, Taiwan, readjusting to city life after a long, 
butterfly-collecting ramble through the outback of Indonesia. I was killing time awaiting 
a traveling companion, who I had last seen in Bali several months before. One night, I 
had a very peculiar dream. It occurred, though I did not know it, on the very day that my 
father and Dennis were told that our mother was dying of cancer. That was something 
that I would not learn until nearly a week later. My journal records the dream as follows: 

May 24, 1970 

Dhyanna and I were walking up a gentle, grassy slope. Below us on all sides the valleys 
were filled with scudding white clouds, tops brilliantly reflecting the sun back into 
thedepthless azure. Ahead of us the steeply rolling hills ascended — many miles away, as I 
remarked, into the main range of the Rockies. We were in dream geography, somewhere 
in Western Colorado [where I was born and lived until I was sixteen]. As we continued 
upward, Herr B. [an Indonesian acquaintance], came to meet us wearing white tennis 
shorts and drew our attention to several small meteorological balloons whose dangling 



nylon cords had caught in nearby wind-bent trees. To our left, upon a crest, deeply 
dimpled, blazing white, and perhaps thirty feet high, was a large balloon perhaps three- 
quarters filled with gas. The ropes enclosing the gas bag cut deeply into it, sectioning it as 
though it were a great, bleached orange. As we gazed, Herr B. depressed a lever that had 
appeared from nowhere and the apparatus rose simultaneously with my query: Would not 
the wind whipping over the hill cause it to falter? Its white bulk rushed over us, perhaps 
only twenty feet above our 



heads and then, passing higher, it met the wind and the fate I had anticipated. Turning on 
its side, it gently came to earth. We ran toward it and other people [the impression was of 
children], appeared from the opposite direction, also running toward the rippling white of 
the now deflated machine. 

Amid our laughing examination of the balloon, we were invited into B's home, now 
visible as a sprawling, "ranch style" house nearby. [This was a house not unlike the house 
in which I spent my childhood.] As we entered the house I paused to examine a large map 
of the Amazon Delta on the wall — published, the legend informed me, to commemorate a 
conference of a French archaeological society which convened on a small island there in 
1948. When I rejoined Dhy anna, she informed me that the children ofB. had told her that 
one of the densest rainforests in the world was nearby. I, familiar as only a native can be 
with Colorado geography, was incredulous. I returned to the bookcase under the map and, 
taking out a large atlas, sought the rainfall and forest map of Colorado, opening instead 
upon Assam — while first rejecting a topological rendering of Bengal. I heard myself say 
that Shalimar was the logical jumping off place — then allfaded. 

The meaning of this dream was far from clear at the time, and even now it remains 
obscure. What is clear is that at a given date an event of importance was to be expected in 
the delta of the Amazon. I hoped then that the total eclipse of the sun was that long- 
anticipated event, and that its totality over the vagina of the world mother anticipated an 
event of great import for everyone. 



CHAPTER SEVENTEEN 
WALTZING THE ENIGMA 

In which I flash back to my near recruitment by a band of renegade Nazi scientists while 
visiting Timor. 

A FEW MONTHS BEFORE that precursive dream a strange incident occurred that I now 
look back on as further proof that I was destined to travel to the Amazon, and that 
somehow I had come under the spell of the cosmic giggle: 



In February of 1970, a year before I arrived at La Chorrera, my fugitive wanderings had 
taken me to the island of Timor in Eastern Indonesia. Under indictment in the States for 
the heinous crime of importing hashish, I traveled and lived under the dramatic 
assumption that international police agencies were combing the globe looking for me. My 
cover, that of a graduate student in entomology doing field work for a degree — a butterfly 
collector — had worked well over the previous six months as I had made my way slowly 
through Malaysia, Sumatra, Java, and a host of other less familiar but equally exotic 
insular backwaters. 

A particularly muggy and showery afternoon found me smoking ganja in my room at the 
Rama, the best and only hotel in Kupang, Timor. Until that moment, I had been the 
hotel's only guest for ten days and had pretty much had the run of the place. Not that it 
was palatial. The Rama was constructed of cinder block, and the walls of 



its eight identical rooms stopped well short of the ceiling. With concert walls and drains 
installed at the converging slopes of the floors, it had the cheerful ambience of a new and 
unused slaughterhouse. However, it was clean, as the manager would hurriedly point out. 

As I smoked, sitting cross-legged on my steel cot and reviewing the morning's collecting 
in the jungle, I became aware of the arrival of other guests. I could hear what seemed like 
half a dozen people speaking German and moving luggage about in the lobby, a central 
space with four rattan chairs facing each other over a threadbare rug. I presumed that 
these were travelers off the afternoon plane from Darwin and that they would presumably 
fly on to Bali on the next day's regular noon flight out of Timor. What was obviously a 
couple, to judge by their voices, had occupied the room next to mine. I recognized some 
German and the women seemed to speak some other language, one I could not place. 

When I went out for dinner the new arrivals were nowhere to be seen. The next morning I 
was up at dawn to catch an Indonesian Air Force plane that took me to Flores, the next 
island on my butterfly itinerary, and I thought no more about the unseen guests in a now- 
distant hotel I expected never to see again. I spent a week in the cloud forests on Flores, 
staying with an alcoholic Dutch priest with a club foot who ran a mission in the forested 
interior of the island. Then I returned to the steamy coastal capital, Maumere, a small 
town down the center of whose unpaved main street were piles of Macadamia nuts drying 
in the sun, waiting to be bagged for export. Maumere had a two-room Chinese hotel in 
which I expected to stay one night before returning to Bali. 

Then the fog closed in. It was a soupy, ground-hugging tropical fog that my Chinese host 
assured me was known to last for weeks this time of year. I visited the airport the next 
day but it was clearly a futile gesture. The Bali plane circled the field four times looking 
for a hole in the cloud cover before giving up and flying on. I was no stranger to delay. 
Travel in Asia is made of delay. I returned to the hotel for another round of chess with the 
local chess fiends and assumed that the next day would be clear. 



Five days later I was still on Flores. I had played chess with all comers, I was running out 
of dope, and the specter of staying forever in Maumere seemed too real to be a joke. I 
thought it over, 



decided to forget Bali, and put out the word that I would take the next plane out to 
anywhere. 

That decision seemed to be all that was necessary for the weather to clear off long enough 
for a plane to get in under the clouds. It was the weekly Garuda flight to Kupang. Before 
I had time to reconsider my decision, I was on the plane and headed back to Timor. 

The town was unchanged and my earlier visit had put me on a first-name basis with the 
rickshaw boys. I felt almost like I was home. "Rama Hotel," I told my favorite driver, and 
before I knew it I was back in room number one, and the fog-bound chess tournaments on 
Flores seemed no more than a half-remembered dream. 

As I lay on the bed watching the ceiling fan idle against a background of spider-webbed 
corrugated metal, I became aware of voices in the next room. German and something 
else, which was softened by a women's voice and more exotic, not Indonesian, maybe 
Pashtun, I thought. Apparently the travelers who had checked in the night before my 
departure nearly two weeks ago were still there. That meant they were certainly not 
tourists; nobody without a good reason lingered long in Kupang. 

I am not big on chance meetings. In those days I always tried to avoid having anything to 
do with what I considered "non-freaks." However, that evening as I let myself out of my 
room to go to dinner, the door of the next room opened and I was face to face with its 
occupants. 

"Herr McKenna, is it not?" 

As I turned to face my questioner, the uneasiness that I felt being addressed by my name 
must have shown in my face. 

"The manager here has told me of your biological researches on Timor. Allow me to 
introduce myself. I am Dr. Karl Heintz of Far Eastern Mining and Minerals, Inc." 

My relief was immediate. Obviously this guy wasn't some kind of Interpol porker come 
to track me down. But he had the look. He was powerfully built with swept-back, iron- 
grey hair and strikingly intense eyes of glacial blue. He sported a schmiss on his left 
cheek, a long, thin scar. I had never seen a schmiss before but the crossword puzzle term 
sprang into my mind unbidden. I wondered if he 



had received it in the traditional manner, in a sword duel that is part of the hazings that 
used to go on in the university fraternities of Prussia. 

"As we are the only guests here at Rama Hotel, may I invite you to join my wife and me 
for some schnapps? I am keen to hear your perceptions concerning Timor." 

The town was too small for me to refuse gracefully. Had I said no we would have ended 
up at separate tables in the same five-table restaurant. I hated the idea of spending time 
with straight people but there seemed no decent way to escape. 

Hearing him speak brought his wife into the small foyer to join us. She made the decision 
easier, though I was careful to guard my reaction of amazement. Only a year or two older 
than myself, maybe twenty five, she was stunningly beautiful, dark, sari-clad with huge 
fawn-like eyes, a gold nose ring, and many bracelets. In that tropical backwater her 
appearance was as unlikely as a flying saucer; she was a vision of overdressed Brahmanic 
perfection. Her name was Rani, and when she spoke her voice was cultivated and 
musical. Though she rarely spoke, her English was better than his. This was no girl from 
the villages. I confess that I was intrigued. What could I do but accompany this pair? It 
wasn't as though I had something better to do. 

Once we were seated at the restaurant with our quart bottles of Bintang beer in front of 
us, the conversation began to flow and I started to form an impression of my companions. 

Dr. Heintz was, he said, a geologist with an outfit in Singapore. The year before, a survey 
team had found evidence of a large deposit of nickel that straddled the border between 
Indonesian and Portuguese Timor. He was there to confirm their findings and to estimate 
the feasibility of a mining operation. That seemed straightforward enough, although there 
were references to a set of instruments that could somehow determine the true size of the 
deposit. I knew very little of prospecting technology, but a device that could see hundreds 
of feet into the ground sounded farfetched to me. 

I gently inquired about the language that I had heard them both speaking, thinking this 
would lead him on to discussing his wife. It turned out to be a favorite subject of his. She 
was, he told 



me while she merely sat and watched us both, a granddaughter of the Maharani of 
Maharashtra. It seemed that Heintz had been in the market for a few hundred acres of 
prime Maharashtran agricultural land and the old Maharani had a parcel that she was 
willing to cut loose. This had lead to Heintz meeting Rani. Before the deal was closed, it 
was clear that a wedding would soon follow. He waxed eloquent over the joys of tractor 
farming in India, how he was really a very simple man, the joys of watching the growth 
of a new crop, and so on. He was quite a raver, and I was content to let him spin it all out. 
It seemed that he was a kind of vice-president in charge of operations for the mining 
concern, a kind of trouble shooter really. He ordered another beer and told a story about 



being ambushed by guerrillas during the start up of a big tin extraction operation in 
northern Thailand. At the story's climax he stood and lifted his shirt to display for my 
edification three neat scars across his chest. From a machine gun, he said. 

"Any one of them could have killed me outright. But no! I was preserved, and the 
triumph of our company's project was complete." Describing the start up of a tin mine as 
a triumph seemed a bit overblown to me, but it was clear that I was in the presence of one 
intense dude. 

Hardly pausing he moved on to the time in Tanzania when he alone, bare chested and 
unarmed except for an axe, had strode into a crowd of six thousand angry workers during 
a strike at a bauxite operation. Modest he was not, but the stories were well told and 
compelling. And standards for dinner conversation in the warm tropics leave room for the 
self-aggrandizing traveler's tale. 

Eventually he turned his attention to the company that he worked for. "FEMMI is no 
ordinary company, Herr McKenna, please be assured of that. No. We are like a family. 
This is the source of our strength. And we have plans for the future. Very big plans." I 
only nodded, thinking it best not to inform him that I considered large mining 
corporations the scourge of the earth. But this devotion to his corporation was no casual 
matter, and he seemed unable to leave the subject alone. 

"Nowhere on earth is there a more closely knit and dedicated group than are we. We are 
bound like comrades in arms. Each member of the core management group is a genius in 
his or her own 



right." He pronounced genius like "tchenius." "And why is that you must wonder? Ach, I 
am telling you why. It is because we, each one of us, has known the horror of privation, 
the depths of despair, and the glorious feeling that comes from overcoming these things. 
We are united in our triumph, Herr McKenna, and the sense of inevitable conquest of 
difficulty has made us invincible!" At this last word, his voice rose and his fist descended 
to the flimsy table with such force that our quart bottles of Bintang jumped in reply. 

Seeing my uncertain response, he continued. "You are amazed to hear this, I see. Maybe 
you are asking what privations, what difficulties? It is like this: we all lived through the 
Hitler times and the war. Germany was nothing after the war. There was not one stone 
upon another in my Berlin. In the ruins of Europe we were like cockroaches. May I tell 
you that the bank accounts of all the SS families were frozen. My mother, my poor 
aristocratic mother, was reduced to selling paintings from our estate in order to buy 
potatoes to feed herself and my younger sister. Imagine this!" 

"Oh no," I thought, "Not Nazis. Is this guy telling me he was a Nazi?" I fought to get my 
look of horror under control, but now he was on a roll and seemed to take no notice. 



"My father was captured by the Russians during the battle for Berlin. He was hung like a 
dog in Moscow for war crimes. Can you imagine? Verdammen Russian schweinen 
talking about war crimes? For all the SS it was like that." 

This conversation was like a bad dream or a B-movie. I looked over at his companion 
who returned my gaze with utter impassivity. It seemed important to deflect the 
conversation if only even slightly. "And you, Herr Heintz, what of your role in all of 
this?" 

He shrugged. "I was a mere nothing. A Messerschmidt pilot in the Luftwaffe. A good 
German only." This last was said without a trace of irony. "Before the war I was a young 
engineering student. The war changed everything. After the war, a few of us, my fellow, 
young scholars from the Max Planck Institute, gathered in the ruins of Berlin. We were 
finished with ideology, with the grand political dreams." 

This was the first good news in a while. I gratefully signaled the Indonesian waiter for 
another round of beer while Heintz continued: "We were a small group, pitiful really, but 
united by our 



revulsion at the horror all around us. We determined to build a new world for ourselves, a 
world based on two principles, two great powers, the power of capital and the power of 
science. We began slowly, with patents, processes that had been discovered at the Planck 
Institute during the war, trade secrets really. Carefully we expanded on this, we 
established ourselves in Singapore. There was not a shoemaker among us. Each member 
of our small team was a genius. Our furher was a professor who' had trained us all, a true 
genius. His name was Max Bockermann. It was he who held us together; it was his faith 
and strength that made it all possible." 

The schmiss on his cheek had turned bright red at this turn of the conversation. I had 
hoped that there were no further depths of discomfiture to be plumbed in this 
conversation but I was wrong, for now I saw that he was moving, perhaps under the 
influence of the third quart of Bintang, from passionate intensity to outright maudlin 
sentimentality. "No man has ever loved another as Bockermann loved us. We are his 
kinder, his little birds, ja. When it seemed that there was no hope he inspired us; he made 
us believe in ourselves." 

Tears rose in his eyes at this, then he seemed to regain his self control and continued. 
"And what is the result? FEMMI, Herr McKenna, Far East Mining and Minerals 
Incorporated. We have grown and prospered. From our offices in Singapore we control 
projects in eleven countries. Oil, nickel, tin, bauxite, uranium — we have it all. But we 
have more, we have love, companionship, community, and the power to make our dreams 
come true." At this he broke stride and reached over to put his hand on the thigh of the 
woman beside him. I looked away. 



When I returned to his depthless blue gaze his mood had changed. "But what about 
yourself, Herr McKenna. It is clear that you are leading the gypsy life." He pronounced 
the word gypsy like chipsy. "And we gypsies always have our stories to tell. So what 
about you?" 

I swallowed hard. He didn't look like the sort of person who would appreciate my stories 
of fighting the police at the Berkeley barricades shoulder-to-shoulder with affinity groups 
like the Persian Fuckers and the Acid Anarchists. Nor did my participation in the Human 
Be-In or the rolling orgies of the Summer of Love in 



the Haight-Ashbury seem appropriate to mention. And my recent stint as a hashish 
smuggler in India and my subsequent move undercover to avoid capture by Interpol also 
seemed out of place in this particular interview. 

I decided to go with the usual half-truth reserved for straight people. "I am an art 
historian turned biologist. I went to Nepal to study Tibetan but found that I am no linguist 
when it comes to Asian languages. I have returned to biology, my first love. Specifically, 
I am an entomologist. I am collecting butterflies here in Indonesia retracing the route of 
Alfred Russell Wallace. Wallace was the real discoverer of the theory of natural 
selection, but Darwin got all the credit. I identify with his underdog status. Wallace was 
shafted by Victorian science because he was of the wrong class and didn't know how to 
play politics the way Darwin did. Wallace explored the Amazon Basin as well and if all 
goes well, I hope to travel and collect there too. Eventually I will write a monograph on 
speciation among the butterflies of Amazonas and Eastern Indonesia, which will get me a 
degree. Then, who knows. Teaching perhaps. Hard to say." 

"So you are a real gypsy, then. And an outsider by your dress and beard. I like this. We 
like this young man, don't we, Rani?" It was the first time that he had addressed his 
companion during the entire conversation. She replied with a nod, never taking her eyes 
off me. " Ja, good. So now we eat. And tomorrow we talk more. I will expect you to join 
us here at breakfast." And with that he applied himself to his water buffalo steak with a 
ferocious intensity. 

Later we returned to the hotel together, but by then the electricity had been turned off in 
that part of town and we had to give our slightly sloshed attention to picking our way 
along the muddy, rutted streets. There was no further serious conversation. As we parted 
in the atrium of the hotel he turned to me. "You must call me Karl. Jetzt wir sind 
freunden. You understand?" I nodded yes and we parted. 

Breakfast was another story. Whatever contribution the beer had made to the evening's 
conversation it must have been minimal, 



because within a few minutes of sitting down to breakfast he was fully wound up all over 
again. 

"Last night you spoke of your ambitions to visit the Amazon. This is a commendable 
dream. But believe me, I know the Amazon well, a jungle the size of a continent; it is not 
like these islands here. Here you do well to stay with the priests and to make your 
expeditions, one week, two weeks into the forest. But in Amazonas to do serious work 
you will have sustain yourself in the field for perhaps months. You will need a boat, 
equipment, bearers. Believe me, I know. It is not for shoemakers. Therefore I make you a 
proposal. You have said your work is nearly completed here, that you are going soon to 
Japan to earn money for South America. Give up this plan and do instead the following. 
FEMMI, as it turns out, has a deep interest in the Brazilian Amazon. Two years ago I was 
part of a resource assessment team that made some interesting discoveries. As it happens 
we are sending our people back for a serious second look. Our teams are thirteen in 
number and some of these are natural scientists such as yourself. The new team is nearly 
formed but Bock-ermann, if he approves of you, would accept my recommendation that 
you join the team as the thirteenth member. You will be well paid, and our expectations 
are only that you would complete the monograph that you have already planned. You see, 
by having scientists with us we can write off part of our tax liability, and anyhow we are 
believers in the worth of pure science. This plan must be cleared with Singapore, but if 
they agree then you would go there nearly immediately. You would meet Bockermann. 
We give you dental check up, complete physical, new eyeglasses, two weeks of tennis to 
get you physically in shape. The cruise liner Rotterdam will call in Singapore in one 
month. We will ship three speedboats specially outfitted, all our equipment, and the team 
on the Rotterdam. In Rio you will continue training two weeks at the Krosnopolski Hotel, 
where they have excellent tennis courts. And I tell you something else, my father's old 
cook is the chef there! We fatten you up some and then we give you your dream of the 
Amazon. Well, what do you say?" He sat back, evidently very pleased with himself. 

I was caught completely off-guard. He was right about the Amazon being difficult for 
one person. Wallace himself had said as much. He had thrown in with the botanist 
Richard Spruce and the 



discoverer of animal mimicry, Walter Henry Bates, in order to do his Amazon exploring. 
But I was not whom I must seem to Heintz. I was no academic. I was an international 
fugitive with a price on my head. And also, I thought, what about my hippie girlfriend 
studying dance back on Bali, who was assuming we would travel on to Japan together? 
To mention any obligation to another person seemed almost ungrateful in the 
circumstance. And what about the Nazi connection? Did I really want to go off with a 
bunch of ex-SS types to the Amazonian rain forest? On the other hand I was running out 
of money. And my lady friend had a penchant for torrid affairs carried on in my absence. 
As for the Nazi matter, I was confused. I knew that Max Planck was supposedly the only 
person ever to stand up to Hitler, telling him to keep his hands off the pure science of the 
Institute. Heintz had also gone far out of his way to let me know that his brother, also part 



of FEMMI, was married to what he described as "a Nigerian lady so black she is almost 
blue," and his own choice of women was definitely non-Nordic. 

I thought to myself "Here is the knock of fate and opportunity. What now, McKenna?" I 
looked from his face to hers. They both seemed truly expectant. "This is a generous offer, 
extraordinary really." 

"Then you accept?" 

"Yes." 

"Excellent. You have chosen well. You are no shoemaker. This I like." 

"Yes. Thank you. As you know, I am returning to Bali this afternoon. I have collections 
and obligations there that I must attend to. Also I confess that I am without much 
money." 

"This is no problem. Set your affairs in order in Bali. I will cable Singapore to arrange 
money for your air passage from Bali to the home office. There is only one thing." At this 
his steely gaze became even harder and he fixed me in a glacial stare. "You must be 
interviewed by Bockermann himself. He can see into the soul of a human being. If there 
is one iota of falsity in your character or your story he will detect it. Then there is no deal. 
This is terribly important, we must have no shoemakers!" The schmiss had become an 
angry line once more. 



This last speech was heart sinking. "No deal. I understand." But I was thinking, "Oh shit, 
what have I gotten myself into." We shook hands on it, and I left to pack my things at the 
hotel and hurry to the airport. 

My mind was in turmoil on the flight back to Bali. One by one the Lesser Sunda Islands 
slid past beneath me, and as they did, so did my doubts and my objections to Heintz's 
offer. "This has the feeling of fate," I thought to myself. "Play it out, give it a chance, and 
see what happens." 

Over the next week I made my arrangements. I told the story to the freaks of Kuta Beach 
and most people encouraged me. My lady friend even supported me. We had agreed 
months before that Bali might be the parting of the ways for us. Each day I walked to 
Poste Restante in Denpasar expecting to find my tickets and the five hundred dollars in 
travel money that Heintz had promised. Three days went by, then five, and then seven. 

On the morning of the seventh day, I awoke with the conviction that I had been had. It 
had all been some kind of weird mind game. I decided that Heintz must be nuts, a weirdo 
whose idea of fun was to get American freaks to buy into his secret Nazi mega- 
corporation fantasy and then drop them into reality just to see how far they would fall. Of 



course there was another possibility; that somehow they had been able to check up on me 
and had discovered my false history. That I was sure would put me in the shoemaker 
class and effectively cook my goose. Anyway, I had certainly made an ass of myself by 
telling everyone in Bali that I was about to board the Rotterdam for a corporate- 
sponsored trip to the Amazon. I had to endure lots of good-natured kidding for the next 
couple of weeks as I returned to my original plan, outfitting myself for a final Indonesian 
collecting expedition out to Ambon and Seram in the Moluccas. 

And there the matter rested. I buried the whole episode in a tomb in the back of my mind 
marked "Weird People You Meet on the Road." But it was an unquiet grave. A year later, 
in the aftermath of La Chorrera, I decided that it had been a precursive reflection of the 
true craziness that did finally find me in the Amazon. It had been an anticipation, a 
wavering in the time 



field, a kind of living prophetic dream, an instance of the cosmic giggle. But it wasn't the 
last I would see of Herr Heintz either. 

A year after the events at La Chorrera and two years after my visit to Timor, in the spring 
of 1972, 1 was in Boulder, Colorado. I had returned from South America to settle my 
legal status and try to put life on the road behind me. Dennis and I were working together 
on the manuscript of The Invisible Landscape and spending a lot of time at the university 
library, studying the various disciplines that had to be mastered if our ideas were to stand 
a chance of being taken seriously. 

One day I was scanning the student newspaper when I came upon a startling 
announcement. A full page had been reserved to announce that the University of 
Colorado, in association with the Max Planck Institute for Neurophysiology, would co- 
sponsor the next meeting of the World Congress of the Neurosciences. At the words 
"Max Planck Institute" my attention sharpened and I read on. Seven hundred scientists 
from around the world would be converging in Boulder for ten days of meetings and 
seminars. All the greats would be in attendance: Sir John Eccles, John Smythies, 
Solomon Snyder, and all the rest, the gods of the very Valhalla that we dreamed of 
conquering. The catch was that all the meetings would be closed to the general public 
with the single exception of the opening address, which would be titled "Autocatalytic 
Hyper-cycles" and would be delivered by the then-reigning star in the world of 
neuroscience, Manfred Eigen of the Max Planck Institute. 

I was familiar with the outlines of Eigen' s ideas. Autocatalytic hypercycles seemed to me 
an obvious necessary correlative to the ideas that I was working out concerning the 
timewave and the way in which it was expressed and reflected in living organisms. This 
was something that Ev, Dennis, and I simply had to attend. However, I did not give the 
Planck Institute much thought, as it is the major, pure science research outfit in Germany 
with hundreds of researchers on its payroll. 



The lecture was to be held on campus in the Physical Science Lecture Hall, a barrel- 
shaped enclosure that placed the lecturer at 



the bottom of a deep well surrounded on three sides by tiers of seats, somewhat in the 
manner of an old style operating theater. There had apparently been a black tie dinner for 
the invited speakers before the lecture, and as we filed in to take our places I was 
impressed that the usually dowdy science crowd had dressed to the nines for the event. 
There was a babble of languages. From where I sat I could hear German, Italian, 
Japanese, Russian, a smattering of Hindi, Spanish, and Chinese. 

As my eyes roved over the crowd, I suddenly experienced something very close to a 
physical jolt. There, less than fifty feet away from me and nearly directly across the 
intervening open space, sat Dr. Karl Heintz! I felt absolute amazement. Heintz! Here! 
Could it be? Somehow I must have betrayed my agitation to him, for as I watched in near 
disbelief I saw him move his hand to the pocket of his jacket and with a faultlessly 
smooth motion remove his name tag and drop it into his pocket. He did not even interrupt 
the animated German conversation he was carrying on with the person sitting to his right. 
I looked away, trying to pretend that I was unaware of him, had noticed nothing. The 
house lights dimmed and Manfred Eigen, magnificent with his swept back shock of white 
hair, began his lecture. 

My mind raced. Was it all true then? Here he was! This was a Planck Institute event. It 
must all be true. He recognized me! And he was intent on concealing his identity! I felt 
completely weird as I scribbled a note outlining the situation and handed it to Dennis and 
to Ev. They both responded with looks that said plainly "Are you losing it, or is this a 
joke?" I sat there in the dark pondering the situation. Whatever Eigen was saying I would 
have to get it off Dennis's hand-held tape recorder later. I finally figured, nothing 
ventured, nothing gained. I knew there would be an opportunity to approach him 
immediately following the lecture. That was when I would make my move. 

While Eigen brought his talk to a brilliant conclusion, I fidgeted. As the applause died 
down and the lights went up, people began to move toward the exits. Heintz was about 
fifty feet away talking animatedly to a couple of rather toad-like colleagues. But I could 
see that he was watching me, and as I began to approach he excused himself and began to 
move toward me. It was transparently 



clear to me that this maneuver was executed to make certain that we would be alone and 
our conversation unheard when we met. I moved directly into his oncoming path. 

"Dr. Heintz. I believe that we met on Timor." I extended my hand. 



Ignoring my outstretched hand, he smiled broadly, but the schmiss perceptibly reddened. 
"Heintz? Heintz? My name is not Heintz. And I have never been in Kupang." 

Then he turned quickly and rejoined his departing colleagues, adding to their animated 
assessment of Eigen's performance. The word "Kupang" rang in my ears. The bastard 
was rubbing my nose in it! 

As the king said to Mozart, "So there you have it." Madman, a creature of my fevered 
imagination, a charlatan, or the tip of a Nazi iceberg of scheming dreamers? To this I 
have no answer. That's how it is with the cosmic giggle. 



CHAPTER EIGHTEEN 
SAY WHAT DOES 
IT MEAN? 

In which I attempt to link our experiences to a science that is anything but normal. 

THOUGH HAVING LEFT the Amazon, this wild and woolly tale continues on a little 
further. It is time to try to distill some conclusions out of the ideas that were generated in 
La Cho-rrera. A model of the world is a way of seeing, and to assimilate the timewave 
theory that was forced upon us there is to see the world differently. My approach has 
been to grant the possibility that the theory is true. It may someday be disproved, but until 
then, I shall believe it, albeit with tongue in cheek. Perhaps, if it is given a hearing, others 
will strengthen and contextualize the idea. Many good ideas simply perish for lack of a 
context. But this idea proposes a fundamental reconstruction of the way in which we see 
reality. And it can be taught. It fulfills my spiritual aspirations because it is 
understanding, simply and purely understanding. 

The theory elaborated in the wake of the experiment at La Chorrera doesn't deny any 
body of knowledge; it augments. There is an argument for it on the physical level, though 
the idea is very complicated, touching as it does on areas involving quantum physics, 
submolecular biology, and the DNA structure. These notions are 



laid out with what is hoped is care and attention in The Invisible Landscape. 

While what Dennis did in the Amazon may not have caused the idea that I developed, I 
have the strong intuition that it did. In the wake of the experiment, my ordinary private 
concerns were replaced with such utterly strange musings that I could not recognize them 
as products of my own personality. He performed his experiment and it seemed as though 
I got a kind of informational feedback off my DNA, or some other molecular storage site 



of information. This happened precisely because the psychedelic molecules bound 
themselves to the DNA and then behaved in the way that we had expected; they did 
broadcast a totality symbol whose deep structure reflects the organizational principles of 
the molecules of life itself. This totality entered linear time disguised, in the presence of 
ordinary consciousness, as a dialogue with the Logos. The Logos provided a narrative 
voice able to frame and give coherency to the flood of new insights that otherwise would 
have overwhelmed me. My task became to unearth and replicate the symbolic structure 
behind the voice and to discover if it had any significance beyond myself and my own 
small circle of acquaintances. I felt as if I was creating a file system for a newly revealed 
world of infinite variety. The timewave is a kind of mathematical mandala describing the 
organization of time and space. It is a picture of the patterns of energy and intent within 
DNA. The DNA unfolds those mysteries over time like a record or a song. This song is 
one's life, and it is all life. But without a conceptual overview one cannot understand the 
melody as it plays. The timewave theory is like the score of the bio-cosmic symphony. 

I am interested in disproving this theory. A good idea is not fragile and can withstand a 
lot of pressure. What happened at La Chorrera cannot be explained away; rather it asks 
simply to be explained. If it is not what I say it is, then what is the concrescence, the 
scintilla, the encounter with the wholly Other? What does it really represent? 

Is it, as it appears to be, an ingression of a higher-dimensional epoch that reverberates 
through history? Is it a shock wave being generated by an eschatological event at the end 
of time? Natural laws are easier to understand if we assume that they are 



not universal constants, but rather slowly evolving flux phenomena. After all, the speed 
of light, which is taken as a universal constant, has only been measured in the last 
hundred years. It is pure inductive thinking to extrapolate the principle of the invariance 
of the speed of light to all times and places. Any good scientist knows that induction is a 
leap of faith. Nevertheless, science is founded on the principle of induction. That 
principle is what the timewave theory challenges. Induction assumes that the fact that one 
did A, and B resulted, means that whenever one does A, B will always result. The fact is 
that in the real world no A or B occurs in a vacuum. Other factors can intrude into any 
real situation sending it toward a different or unusual conclusion. 

Before Einstein, space was thought to be a dimension where one put things; it was 
analogous to emptiness. Einstein pointed out that space is a thing that has a torque and is 
affected by matter and by gravitational fields. Light passing through a gravitational field 
in space will be bent because the space through which it travels is bent. In other words, 
space is a thing, not a place where you put 

things. 

What I propose, in a nutshell, is that time, which was also previously considered a 
necessary abstraction, is also a thing. Time not only changes, there are different kinds of 



time. And these kinds of time come and go in cyclical progression on many levels; 
situations evolve as matter responds to the conditioning of time and space. These two 
patterns condition matter. Science has long been aware of the patterns of space — we call 
these "natural laws" — but the patterns of time? That is another consideration entirely. 

Matter has always been assumed to epitomize reality, but it actually has some qualities 
more nearly like thought. Changes in matter are defined by two dynamic patterning 
agencies that are in a co-relationship: space and time. This idea has certain axioms, one 
of which is taken from the philosopher-lensmaker Gottfried Wilhelm von Leibnitz. 
Leibnitz described monads, which he envisioned as tiny particles that are infinitely 
reduplicated everywhere in the universe and contain all places within themselves. 
Monads are not merely here and now; they are everywhere all the time, or they have all 
space and time within them, depending on your point of view. All monads are identical, 
but they interconnect to build up a 



larger continuum while at the same time maintaining their individual, unique 
perspectives. These Leibnitzian ideas anticipated the new field of fractal mathematics, an 
exotic example of which is my idea of a temporal pattern. 

Ideas such as this offer a possible explanation for the otherwise mysterious mechanisms 
of memory and recall. Destruction of up to 95 percent of the brain does not impair 
memory function. It appears that memory isn't stored anywhere; memory seems to 
permeate the brain. Like a hologram, all of the memory seems to be in each part. 
Similarly, one can take a holographic plate of Mount Fuji and cut it in half; when a half is 
illuminated, the entire image is present. One can do this again and again: the holograph is 
made up of a nearly infinite number of tiny images, each of which in combination with its 
fellows presents one image. 

This "holographic" aspect of memory has been assumed to be of central importance by 
such thinkers as David Bohm and Karl Pri-bram. But it was Dennis and I who went so far 
as to suggest that this form of organization could be extended beyond the brain to include 
the cosmos at large. 

Quantum physics makes similar pronouncements when it states that the electron is not 
somewhere or sometime; it is a cloud of probabilities and that is all one can say about it. 
A similar quality adheres to my idea of time and the comparison of time to an object. If 
time is an object, then the obvious question to be asked is what is the smallest duration 
relevant to physical processes? The scientific approach would be to keep dividing time 
into still smaller increments in order to find out if a discrete unit exists. What one is 
looking for by doing this is a chronon, or a particle of time. I believe the chronon exists, 
but it is not distinct from the atom. Atomic systems are chronons; atoms are simply far 
more complicated than had been suspected. I believe that atoms have undescribed 
properties that can account not only for the properties of matter, but for the behavior of 
space/time as well. 



Chronons may not be reducible to atoms, but I suspect that what we will find is a 
wave/particle that composes matter, space/ time, and energy. The chronon is more 
complicated than the classical Heisenberg/Bohr description of atomic systems. The 
chronon has properties that make it uniquely capable of functioning as a 



fundamental constituent of a universe within which minds and organisms arise. So far we 
have been unable to define the dynamic properties that would allow a particle to 
participate as a necessary part of a living or thinking organism. Even a bacterium like E. 
coli is a staggering accomplishment for the atom of Heisenberg and Bohr. 

The Heisenberg/Bohr model allows us to simulate the physical universe of stars, galaxies, 
and quasars; but it doesn't explain organisms or mind. We have to overlay that atomic 
model with different qualities in order to represent more complex phenomena. We must 
imagine an atom with new parameters if we wish to understand how we could exist, how 
thinking, tool-using, human beings could arise out of the universal substratum. 

I don't claim to have done this yet. But I do believe that I have stumbled upon an 
intellectual avenue that could be followed to achieve this understanding. The key lies in 
cycles of temporal variables nested in hierarchical structures, which generate various 
kinds of fractal relationships unfolding toward often surprising kinds of closure. 

The person who has laid the most firm foundation for understanding this sort of notion 
philosophically is Alfred North Whitehead. Nothing we have suggested is beyond the 
power of his method to anticipate. Whitehead's formalism accounts for minds and 
organisms and a number of phenomena poorly resolved by the Cartesian approach. 

Other visionary thinkers are probing these areas. Chaotic at-tractor dynamics is the idea 
that any process can be related through a mathematical equation to any other process 
simply by virtue of all processes being part of a common class. The overthrow of a 
dictator, the explosion of a star, the fertilization of an egg — all should be describable 
through one set of terms. 

The most promising development in this area has been the emergence of the new 
evolutionary paradigm of Ilya Prigogine and Erich Jantsch. Their work has achieved 
nothing less than a new ordering principle in nature — the discovery and mathematical 
description of dissipative self-organization as a creative principle underlying the 
dynamics of an open and multi-leveled reality. Dissipative structures work their miracle 
of generating and preserving 



order through fluctuations — fluctuations whose ultimate ground is in quantum 
mechanical indeterminacy. 



If you had a perfect understanding of the universe, you would be able, by applying this 
insight, to tell a man how much change was in his pocket. Since this amount is an 
accomplished fact, it would be, at least in principle, possible to calculate. What is 
important is to understand the true boundaries of reality, not the probable boundaries of 
possible future events. Although boundary conditions operate on the future, they are 
probabilistic constraints, not absolutely determined fact. We assume that ten minutes 
hence, the room we are in will still exist. It is a boundary condition that will define the 
next ten minutes in our space/time coordinate. But we cannot know who will be in the 
room ten minutes hence; that is free to be determined. 

One may ask if we can really know that the room will exist at any future moment. This is 
where induction enters the picture, since in truth we cannot know with certainty. There is 
no absolutely rigorous way of establishing that. But we can make the inductive leap of 
faith that has to do with accumulated experience. We project that the existence of the 
room will remain a boundary condition, but in principle in the next ten minutes there 
could be an earthquake and this building might not be left standing. However, for that to 
happen, the boundary condition will have to be radically disrupted in some unexpected 
and improbable manner. 

What is so curious is that such a thing could occur. That is what the timewave allows one 
to predict, that there are conditions under which events of great novelty may occur. There 
is, however, a problem with it. Because we suggest a model of time whose mathematics 
dictate a built-in spiral structure, events keep gathering themselves into tighter and tighter 
spirals that lead inevitably to a final time. Like the center of a black hole, the final time is 
a necessary singularity, a domain or an event in which the ordinary laws of physics do 
not function. Imagining what happens in the presence of a singularity is, in principle, 
impossible and so naturally science has shied away from such an idea. The ultimate 
singularity is the Big Bang, which physicists believe was responsible for the birth of the 
universe. We are asked by science to believe that the entire universe sprang from 
nothingness, at a single point and for 



no discernible reason. This notion is the limit case for credulity. In other words, if you 
can believe this, you can believe anything. It is a notion that is, in fact, utterly absurd, yet 
terribly important to all the rational assumptions that science wishes to preserve. Those 
so-called rational assumptions flow from this initial impossible situation. 

Western religion has its own singularity in the form of the apocalypse, an event placed 
not at the beginning of the universe but at its end. This seems a more logical position than 
that of science. If singularities exist at all it seems easier to suppose that they might arise 
out of an ancient and highly complexified cosmos, such as our own, than out of a 
featureless and dimensionless mega-void. 

Science looks down its nose at the apocalyptic fantasies of religion, thinking that the final 
time can only mean an entropic time of no change. The view of science is that all 



processes ultimately run down, but entropy is maximized only in some far, far away 
future. The idea of entropy makes an assumption that the laws of the space-time 
continuum are infinitely and linearly extendable into the future. In the spiral time scheme 
of the timewave this assumption is not made. Rather, final time means passing out of one 
set of laws that are conditioning existence and into another radically different set of laws. 
The universe is seen as a series of compartmentalized eras or epochs whose laws are 
quite different from one another, with transitions from one epoch to another occurring 
with unexpected suddenness. 

To see through the eyes of this theory is to see one's place in the spiral scheme and to 
know and anticipate when the transition to new epochs will occur. One sees this in the 
physical world. The planet is five or six billion years old. The formation of the inorganic 
universe occupies the first turn of the spiral wave. Then life appears. If one examines this 
planet, which is the only planet we can examine in depth, one finds that processes are 
steadily accelerating in both speed and complexity. 

A planet swings through space two billion years before life appears. Life represents a 
new emergent quality. The instant life gets started, a mad scramble is on. Species appear 
and disappear. This goes on for a billion and a half years and then suddenly a new 
emergent property takes the stage: thinking species. This new epoch of 



mind is brief in comparison to what preceded it; from the dumb confrontation with 
chipped flint to the starship is one hundred thousand years. What could that era be but the 
ingression of a new set of laws? An emergent new psychophysics is allowing our species 
to manifest very peculiar properties: language, writing, dreaming, and the spinning of 
philosophy. 

Like rattlesnakes and poplar trees, human beings are made by DNA. Yet we trigger the 
same energies that light the stars. We do this on the surface of our planet. Or we can 
create a temperature of absolute zero. We do these things because, though we are made of 
mush and mud, our minds have taught us how to extend our reach through tools. With 
tools we can unleash energies that normally only occur under very different conditions. 
The center of stars is the usual site of fusion processes. 

We do such things using mind. And what is mind? We haven't a clue. Twenty -thousand 
years from nomadic hunting and gathering to cybernetics and spaceflight. And we are 
still accelerating. There are yet more waves to come. From the Model-T Ford to the 
starship: one hundred years. From the fastest man on earth being able to move thirty 
miles per hour to nine miles per second: sixty years. 

Most puzzling are the predictions the timewave theory makes of near term shifts of 
epochs made necessary by the congruence of the timewave and the historical record. The 
timewave seems to give a best fit configuration with the historical data when the 
assumption is made that the maximum ingression of novelty, or the end of the wave, will 



occur on December 22, 2012. Strangely enough this is the end date that the Mayans 
assigned to their calendar system as well. What is it that gives both a twentieth-century 
individual and an ancient Meso-American civilization the same date upon which to peg 
the transformation of the world? Is it that both used psychedelic mushrooms? Could the 
answer be so simple? I don't think so. Rather, I suspect that when we inspect the structure 
of our own deep unconscious we will make the unexpected discovery that we are ordered 
on the same principle as the larger universe in which we arose. This notion, surprising at 
first, quickly comes to be seen as obvious, natural, and inevitable. 



The analogy that explains how this might be so is provided by looking at sand dunes. The 
interesting thing about such dunes is that they bear a resemblance to the force that created 
them, wind. It is as if each grain of sand were a bit inside the memory of a natural 
computer. The wind is the input that arranges the grains of sand so that they become a 
lower-dimensional template of a higher-dimensional phenomenon, in this case the wind. 
There is nothing magical about this, and it does not seem mysterious to us: wind, a 
pressure that is variable over time, creates a rippled dune, which is a structure regularly 
variable in space. In my thinking, the genes of organisms are grains of sand arranged by 
the ebb and flow of the winds of time. Naturally, then, organisms bear the imprint of the 
inherent variables in the temporal medium in which they arose. DNA is the blank slate 
upon which the changing temporal variables have had their sequence and relative 
differences recorded. Any technique that saw into the energetic relationships within a 
living organism, such as yoga or the use of psychedelic plants, would also give a deep 
insight concerning the variable nature of time. The King Wen sequence of the / Ching is 
the product of this kind of insight. 

Human culture is a curve of expanding potentiality. In our own tormented century it has 
reached vertical gain. Human beings threaten every species on the planet. We have 
stockpiled radioactive materials everywhere, and every species on earth can feel this. The 
planet when viewed as a sentient entity can react to this kind of pressure. It is three 
billion years old, and it has many options. 

Dualistic talk about humanity not being part of the natural order is foolish. We could not 
have arisen unless we served a purpose that fit into the planetary ecology. It is not clear 
what our purpose is, but it seems to have to do with our enormous research instruments. 
And crises! By stockpiling atomic weapons, we have claimed the capacity to destroy the 
earth like a stick of dynamite in a rotten apple. Why? We do not know why. Surely not 
for the political and social reasons that are given. We are simply a tool-building species 
that is itself the tool of a planetary ecology that is a higher intelligence. It knows what the 
dangers and limits on the cosmic scale are and it is furiously organizing life to both 
preserve and transform itself. 



My story is a peculiar one. It is hard to know what to make of it. The notion of some kind 
of fantastically complicated visionary revelation that happens to put one at the very 
center of the action is a symptom of mental illness. This theory does that, and yet so does 
immediate experience, and so do the ontologies of Judaism, Islam, and Christianity. My 
theory may be clinically pathological, but unlike these religious systems, I have enough 
humor to realize this. It is important to appreciate the intrinsic comedy of privileged 
knowledge. It is also important to have recourse to the scientific method whenever 
appropriate. Most scientific theories can be disproven in the calm confines of the 
laboratory, evolution to the contrary. 

To empathize with the visions at La Chorrera one must imagine what one can imagine. 
Imagine if wishes were horses, how beggars would ride. The ideas developed at La 
Chorrera were so compelling because they promised new dimensions of human freedom. 
The Amazonian rumors of time-binding magical fluids self-generated out of the bodies of 
master shamans are nothing less than intimations of the metamorphosis of the human 
body/mind into a higher-dimensional state. Were such a transformation of matter 
possible, one could do anything with it. One might spread it out and climb on it and take 
it up to any altitude, adding oxygen at will. It's the haunting image of the flying saucer 
yet again. One can climb inside it: putting on your mind like a mental wet suit. The flying 
saucer is an image of the perfected human mind: waiting, warmly humming, at the end of 
human history on this planet. When it is perfect, there will be an ontological mutation of 
the human form, nothing less than the resurrection-body that Christianity anticipates. 

It is the genius of human technology to master and to serve the energies of life and death 
and time and space. The UFO holds out the possibility of mind become object, a ship that 
can cross the universe in the time it takes to think about it. Because that is what the 
universe is — a thought. And when thought becomes mobile and objectified, then 
humanity — novices in the mastery of thought — will begin to set out. 

Of course we may discover that we are not to set out; the future may reveal instead that 
there is something out there calling us home. Then it will be our technology and the call 
of the Other that 



will move toward meeting. The saucer is an excellent metaphor for this. When Jung 
suggested that the saucer was the human soul, he was more correct than he may have 
supposed. It is not so far away. That is the other thing. The last shift of epochs gave us 
relativity theory and quantum mechanics. Another epochal shift looms, but whether or 
not it is the final epoch is hard to say. Our roles as parts of the process introduces an 
uncertainty in our observations that bedevils prediction. 

All these themes are woven around DMT, possibly because DMT creates a microcosm of 
this very shift of epochs in the experience of a single individual. It seems to lift the 
perceiving mind out of the confines of ordinary space and time and give a glimpse of the 
largest frame of being possible. When Plato remarked that "Time is the moving image of 



Eternity," he made a statement every voyage into the DMT space reinforces. Like the 
shift of epoch called the apocalypse and anticipated by religious hysterics, DMT seems to 
illuminate the regions beyond death. And what is the dimension beyond life as 
illuminated by DMT? If we can trust our own perceptions, then it is a place in which 
thrives an ecology of souls whose stuff of being is more syntactical than material. It 
seems to be a nearby realm inhabited by eternal elfin entelechies made entirely of 
information and joyous self-expression. The afterlife is more Celtic fairyland than 
existential nonentity; at least that is the evidence of the DMT experience. 

We human beings must admit that ours is a peculiar situation: having been born, we are 
autonomous, open chemical systems that maintain themselves through metabolism at a 
point far from equilibrium. And we are creatures of thought. What is that? What are the 
three dimensions? What is energy? We find ourselves in the strange position of being 
alive. Having been born, we know we are going to die. A lot of thinking says that this is 
not so strange, that this happens in the universe — living things appear. And yet our 
physics, which can light the fires of the stars in our deserts, cannot explain the 
strangeness of the phenomenon of our being alive. 

Organisms are completely outside the realm of physical explanation at this point for 
science. So what is it for? Spenser and Shakespeare, quantum theory and the cave 
paintings at Altamira. Who are we? What is history? And what does it push toward? Now 



we have unleashed processes potentially fatal to the planet. We have triggered the final 
crises for all life. We have done this, but we do not control it. No single one of us. No 
leader or state can call a halt to the fact of our being trapped in history. We are moving 
toward the unimaginable as information piles up about the real nature of the situation we 
confront. To paraphrase J. B. S. Haldane: Our situation may not only be stranger than we 
suppose; it may be stranger that we can suppose. 



CHAPTER NINETEEN 

THE COMING OF THE STROPHARIAD 

In which Ev and I part company and the mushroom delivers an oration while turning into 
an underground growth industry. 

SUCH ARE THE CONCERNS with which I navigated the intervening years to the 
present. But during the two year period after my second return from La Chorrera, before 
the publication of The Invisible Landscape in 1975, 1 was not idle. 

My brother and I concluded that the truly novel element, the candidate for being the 
causal agent at La Chorrera, was the mushrooms. It was Stropharia cubensis that stood 



behind all of the effects we had experienced. As this realization grew, so did the 
understanding that new expeditions into the unimaginable could be launched only if a 
supply of mushrooms could be secured. It happened that on the second trip to La 
Chorrera the mushroom had been much less abundant than before. This scarcity had 
impelled me to take a number of spore prints from the few specimens that we did run 
across. Those spore prints had been kept refrigerated over the years while my brother and 
I pursued academic careers and wrote our book. 



During those years we dabbled with the thought of cultivating Stropharia cubensis, but 
the only work on the subject was Wasson and Heim's work in French, and it somehow 
seemed a remote and technically difficult thing to attempt. In the spring of 1972, we had 
already isolated the mycelium of the mushroom and had it growing on agar in petri 
dishes. But we could get nothing to happen. Then in the early spring of 1975 we 
encountered an article detailing a method for growing commercial mushrooms on rye in 
canning jars under very carefully controlled conditions. We wondered if perhaps this 
method would also work for Stropharia cubensis and get our stalled exploration of the 
invisible world moving again. 

Ev and I had parted earlier in 1975. Our relationship of convenience formed on the road 
had not flowered after we returned to careers and school stateside. Ev quickly found work 
and I did not. Later she enrolled in secretarial school and I went back to Cal to finish my 
degree in Conservation of Natural Resources. How far we seemed to have fallen from the 
exaulted vistas revealed at La Cho-rrera. Our lives were financially marginal, 
intellectually constrained, and eventually our attachments and interests went elsewhere. 
When the breakup finally came it was ugly and heartrending. We may have seen into the 
heart of the mysteries, but that did not mean that we were any wiser than ordinary people 
when it came to the affairs of our own hearts. Ev departed from my life in the company 
of an old friend of mine from my days at the Experimental College, and I was left 
confused and defensive by what felt like a double betrayal. 

The awful conclusion of our long affair left me tormented with migraines and living 
alone. I was finishing up schooling that had lasted far too long, what with seven years of 
wandering around the world scheduled in. It was a time of loneliness, self-examination, 
and the pressure of pressure. During the weeks in which Ev and I were continuously 
fighting and struggling to find some sort of inner equilibrium, I had thrown myself into a 
state of hypermanic activity centered around the effort to grow the mushrooms. And then, 
when we finally parted, I dropped it completely and seemed to spend weeks either sitting 
staring at the walls or walking for hours in the Berkeley hills and Strawberry Canyon. 



One day, returning from one of my long, introspective rambles, I thought of my 
abandoned experiments with a new method of growing mushrooms using beds of 
sterilized rye. Now the beds were doubtlessly dried out or rotting in the small, unattended 



greenhouse in the backyard. "I should clean out the greenhouse and empty the 
experimental beds," I thought. If I did that perhaps it would be the beginning of cleaning 
up my now excessively messy and unhappy psychic life. I had not so much as looked in 
the greenhouse for over two weeks. The reluctant greenhouse door was nearly swollen 
shut and only opened with a rending screech. 

And there they were! By the dozens, by the hundreds, huge picture perfect specimens of 
Stropharia. The dark night of the soul had turned my attention elsewhere, and in that 
moment they had perfected themselves. I was neck deep in alchemical gold! The elf 
legions of hyperspace had ridden to my rescue again. I was saved! As I knelt to examine 
specimen after perfect specimen, tears of joy streamed down my face. Then I knew that 
the compact was still unbroken, the greatest adventure still lay ahead. 

Working in close consultation with Dennis, who was back in Boulder, we determined 
within a matter of weeks that the hardy Stropharia not only grew and fruited with the new 
method, but that they could be more easily grown than the Agaricas species sold in 
grocery stores as food. The implications of all this were a constant topic of our endless 
telephone consultations. 

From the spring of 1975 onward I was not without a continual supply of Stropharia. Into 
my world of humdrum grief suddenly appeared the perfected method for growing the 
same organism that had opened up the dimension of contact four years before. The very 
spores gathered at La Chorrera were now furiously producing mushroom psilocybin in 
my home. During the spring, I experimented with low dosages several times. The sense 
of peace and lightness that I associated with the halcyon days at La Chorrera was 
definitely there; so too was the presence of a teaching voice and a return to close 
consultation with a cosmic agency of complex intent. 

Throughout the spring and summer of 1975, 1 took the mushroom at doses of five grams 
dried, or fifty grams fresh, as often as I felt was prudent, which worked out to about once 
every two weeks. 



Each of these experiences was a lesson — a chilling, exhilarating plunge into an ocean of 
noetic images. I discovered my own mind like a topological manifold, lying before me, 
inviting me to rove and scan the reflective knot of past and future time that is each of us. 
Alien presences and translinguistic elves bent near to me in those trances. The mushroom 
stressed its age, its vast knowledge of the ebb and flow of historical forces in many 
civilizations through the millennia. Images of the past and future abounded. 

Once I found myself on a hill with a crowd of people. The view looked out over a curved 
plain. It was the interior of a cylindrical space colony miles wide with vast sweeps of 
windows alternating with farmlands and towns scattered along the floors of the valleys. I 
knew somehow that in the particular future I was seeing, hundreds of millions of people 
lived in such cylindrical worlds. The teeming worlds that populate the galaxy in the 



minds of our science fiction writers had been recreated inside a sphere only twelve light- 
hours in diameter with the sun at its center. Within that sphere thousands of independent 
societies pursued their destinies and their evolution; thousands of independent cylinder 
worlds swarmed around the vast energy furnace of the sun. What a rich and endlessly 
creative force humanity had become in escaping the confines of the planet! Through the 
vast windows I could see more advanced machinery being made ready, glittering, 
obsidian machinery built to challenge the mind-numbing distances that lie between us 
and the suns of Centaurus. Before me was the spectacle of the departure preparations of a 
starship. In my mind Copeland's Fanfare for the Common Man was being played. 

On other occasions I saw alternative futures where the knowledge of the mushroom was 
not fused with humanity's restless expansionism. I saw a planet covered with a society of 
slave- worker machine symbiots. I saw the life of North American society running 
through several hundred years of upheaval and political change, an image like a great 
animated, war-planning map. The dualism of fascism and democracy hung around North 
America's neck like an albatross. Again and again, nightmare police-state fascism would 
sweep like a fouled tide over the aspirations of the people, and again and again, the 
subtlety of the people would organize against the stupidity of the oppressor. They would 
rise in wild and bloody 



revolt to secure the space of a few generations in which to inaugurate attempts at 
democratic social reform. 

The mushroom always returned to the theme that it was wise in the ways of evolution and 
sympathetic therefore to a symbiotic union with what it referred to as "the human 
beings." It was eager to share its own sense of the howness of things, a sense that had 
been developed over millions of years of conscious experience as an intelligent organism 
radiating through the galaxy. From its point of view, the mushroom is an elder life form, 
and as such it offers its tempering experience to a vibrant but naive child-race standing 
for the first time on the brink of flight to the stars. As our imagination has striven outward 
to attempt to encompass the possibility of the intelligent Other somewhere in the starry 
galaxy, so has the Other, observing this, revealed itself to be among us, when we are in 
the psilocybin trance, as an aspect of ourselves. In the phenomenon of Stropharia 
cubensis, we are confronted with an intelligent and seemingly alien life-form, not as we 
commonly imagine it, but an intelligent alien life nevertheless. In the often zany way that 
it does, popular culture has anticipated even this odd turn of events. Invasion of the 
Mushroom People, a schlocko-socko B science fiction film from those same good folks 
who brought us Godzilla, contains a final scene in which a team of Japanese explorers are 
transformed beyond the reach of audience identification into a group of mushrooms 
singing together in an islanded Asian rain forest. 

Only an anachronistic lack of informed self-reflection would lead one to suppose that an 
intelligent, alien life-form would be even remotely like ourselves. Evolution is an 
unceasing river of forms and adaptive solutions to special conditions, and culture is even 



more so. It is far more likely that an alien intelligence would be barely recognizable to us 
than that it should overwhelm us with such similarities as humanoid form and an intimate 
knowledge of our gross industrial capacity. Star-traveling species could be presumed to 
have a sophisticated knowledge of genetics and DNA function and therefore would not 
necessarily bear the form that evolution on a native planet had given them. They might 
well look as they wished to look. The mushroom, with its habit of living off nonliving 
organic matter and its cobweb-fragile underground network of ephemeral mycelium, 
seems an organism designed with 



Buddhist values of noninterference and low environmental impact in mind. 

In the late summer of 1975, Dennis and I decided that the world we were exploring 
required a wider audience. We hoped to establish a community of consensus about what 
was going on. To that end we wrote and published a guide to the method we had 
developed cultivating the Stropharia. At the beginning of that little book, I introduced 
what we had personally learned about the world of the mushroom: 

The mushroom speaks, and our opinions rest upon what it tells eloquently of itself in the 
cool night of the mind: 

"I am old, older than thought in your species, which is itself fifty times older than your 
history. Though I have been on earth for ages, I am from the stars. My home is no one 
planet, for many worlds scattered through the shining disk of the galaxy have conditions 
which allow my spores an opportunity for life. The mushroom which you see is the part 
of my body given to sex thrills and sun bathing. My true body is a fine network of fibers 
growing through the soil. These networks may cover acres and may have far more 
connections than the number in a human brain. My mycelial network is nearly 
immortal — only the sudden toxification of a planet or the explosion of its parent star can 
wipe me out. By means impossible to explain because of certain misconceptions in your 
model of reality, all my mycelial networks in the galaxy are in hyperlight communication 
across space and time. The mycelial body is as fragile as a spider's web, but the collective 
hypermind and memory is a huge historical archive of the career of evolving intelligence 
on many worlds in our spiral star swarm. Space, you see, is a vast ocean to those hardy 
life forms that have the ability to reproduce from spores, for spores are covered with the 
hardest organic substance known. Across the aeons of time and space drift many spore- 
forming life-forms in suspended animation for millions of years until contact is made 
with a suitable environment. Few such species are minded, only myself and my recently 



evolved near relatives have achieved the hypercommuni-cation mode and memory 
capacity that makes us leading members in the community of galactic intelligence. How 
the hypercommunication mode operates is a secret which will not be lightly given to 
man. But the means should be obvious: It is the occurrence of psilocybin and psilocin in 



the biosynthetic pathways of my living body that opens for me and my symbiots the 
vision screens to many worlds. You as an individual and humanity as a species are on the 
brink of the formation of a symbiotic relationship with my genetic material that will 
eventually carry humanity and earth into the galactic mainstream of the higher 
civilizations. 

"Since it is not easy for you to recognize other varieties of intelligence around you, your 
most advanced theories of politics and society have advanced only as far as the notion of 
collectivism. But beyond the cohesion of the members of a species into a single social 
organism there lie richer and even more baroque evolutionary possibilities. Symbiosis is 
one of these. Symbiosis is a relation of mutual dependence and positive benefits for both 
the species involved. Symbiotic relationships between myself and civilized forms of 
higher animals have been established many times and in many places throughout the long 
ages of my development. These relationships have been mutually useful; within my 
memory is the knowledge of hyperlight-drive ships and how to build them. I will trade 
this knowledge for a free ticket to new worlds around suns less forsaken and nearer 
galaxy center. To secure an eternal existence down the long river of cosmic time, I again 
and again offer this agreement to higher beings and thereby have spread throughout the 
galaxy over the long millennia. A mycelial network has no organs to move the world, no 
hands; but higher animals with manipulative abilities can become partners with the star 
knowledge within me and if they act in good faith can return both themselves and their 
humble mushroom teacher to the million worlds all citizens of our star swarm are heir 
to." 



Something that refers to itself as being as fragile and diaphanous as a spider's web — for 
such is the mycelial network of the mushroom — was not only able to communicate with 
me but was able to convey a vision of greater grandure and more transcendent hope than I 
had ever dared to dream possible. It was moving and breathtaking, but was it true? 

My own reaction to the mushroom's claims concerning the extraterrestrial origin of 
tryptamine hallucinogens and the visions that they bear has taken many forms. I think 
that it is possible that certain of these compounds could be "seeded genes" injected into 
the planetary ecology eons ago by an automated space-probe arriving here from a 
civilization somewhere else in the galaxy. Such genes could have been carried along in 
the genome of a mushroom or some other plant, awaiting only the advent of another 
intelligence and its discovery of them to begin reading out a message that opens with the 
bizarre dimension familiar to shamans everywhere. The point of such a message could 
only be made clear when those for whom the message was intended had advanced to a 
sufficient level of technical achievement to appreciate it. The exponential growth of 
analytical tools and methods over the past century may indicate that we are now 
approaching such a level. I speculate that the final content of the message will be 
instructions — it will be called a "discovery" — of how to build a matter-transmitter or 
some other device that will allow us direct contact with the civilization that sent the 
message-bearing hallucinogen genes to earth so many aeons ago. The trances imply that 



such a civilization has a faster-than-light technology for information, if not for matter 
itself, but a receiver is required at the arrival point, otherwise the alien presence within 
the mushroom is as bound by the constraints of general relativity, as are we. 

Something, someone, has seeded intragalactic space with automatic biomechanical 
probes. These probes are immensely sophisticated by our standards, able to tailor-make 
message-bearing hallucinogens for the special ecological conditions that the probe may 
encounter and to release virus-like pseudo-organisms able to carry the artificial genes into 
the nucleoplasm of the target species and to implant them there. This is a far more 
enduring form of message than a solid-state monolith on the moon or an orbiting monitor. 
The artificial genes may be carried along in the stream of evolution 



for literally hundreds of millions of years without substantial degradation of their 
message. The information carried by the probe and broadcast by the hallucinogens is 
modulated by the needs of evolving intelligent life on whatever planet is contacted. 
Gradually the emphasis of the information available from the probe shifts. Predictions of 
good hunting, simple divinatory results like the finding of lost objects, and the provision 
of medical advice are slowly superseded by the revelation of the extraterrestrial source of 
this information and the purpose behind it: construction of the star antenna and the entry 
into the Logos of galactic civilization that it will bring. 

Speculative ideas indeed! But strangely enough many of the most current calculations 
and ideas about the density of life and intelligence in the galaxy confront exobiologists 
with the dilemma of why we have not yet been contacted. Cyril Ponnamperuma and A. 
G. W. Cameron's Scientific Perspectives on Extraterrestrial Communication gives an 
excellent overview of current thinking on the subject. R. N. Bracewell's contribution 
printed in the same work was the basis of my own ideas about interstellar probes. 

I will summarize the state of the art thus: current thinking concludes that the peak of the 
emergence of intelligence in the galaxy was achieved ten to one hundred million years 
ago, that most races in the galaxy are very old and sophisticated. We cannot expect such 
races to appear with a trumpet-blast over every city on earth. Such an entry into history is 
tantamount to crashing into someone's house completely unannounced — hardly the sort 
of thing that one would expect from a subtle and ancient galactic civilization. Perhaps 
they have always been here, or rather their presence has always been here in the 
hallucinogens — when we understand this on our own, we will be signaling to them that 
we are now ready for the contact. 

We can send that signal only by following the instructions contained in the seeded genes 
and building the necessary apparatus, social system, or vehicle. When that is done, 
somewhere in the galaxy lights will flash the message that yet another of the millions 
upon millions of seeded planets in the galaxy has achieved the threshold of galactic 
citizenship. Current estimates are that even in a galaxy teeming with intelligence, such a 
threshold is passed by an 



intelligent species only once every hundred or thousand years. It is a joyous moment, 
even for galactarians. If such a speculation has any validity at all, then its very 
articulation signifies the final moment of the pre-contact phase — and signifies also the 
pressing need to explore the psilocybin trance and to understand the role that it is playing 
in the psychology of the human species.* 




[* New light has been thrown on the phenomenon of voices heard in the head and the role 
that they may play in the evolution of consciousness. In 1977, Julian Jaynes of Princeton 
University published a most provocative book, The Origin of Consciousness in the 
Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind. Jaynes uses four hundred and forty-five pages to lay 
out his ideas concerning the role that hallucinations, especially audio hallucinations, have 
played in the structuring of mind. Jaynes believes that until the time of roughly the Iliad, 
around 1400 B.C., nothing at all like modern ego-centered and individuated 
consciousness existed. Instead he argues that people behaved like automata or social 
insects, unconsciously going about the tasks of the hive. Only in moments of great stress 
and personal danger was this regimen broken. In such moments an impersonal mind, 
outside the usual experience of the world, became manifest as a voice. According to 
Jaynes's theory, such voices were the guiding lights of human society, perhaps for 
millennia, whether they were understood to be the voice of an absent but living king, a 
dead king, an omnipresent god, or a personal deity. Migrations and the breakdown of the 
cultural insularity of the early human civilizations brought an end to man's relations to 
the bicameral mind, which is Jaynes's term for the cybernetic, god-like presence felt 
behind the hallucinated voices. Social prejudices against having a relationship with the 
bicameral mind in modern times has made "hearing voices" into a mystical phenomenon 
or a serious mental aberration — in any case something very rare. 

The interested reader should study Jaynes's case carefully, although his book is 
exasperating, since in a treatise on the role of hallucinations in human history, he fails to 
offer any serious discussion of hallucinogenic plant use at all. This is a serious failing, 
especially if the effect triggered by psilocybin is not, as I have suggested, a contact with 
an intelligence entirely distinct from ourselves. Jaynes's theory opens up the possibility 
that psilocybin returns one to rapport with the transpersonal Other in a way that 
duplicates on some level the state of mind that was characteristic of early human 
populations. It is reasonable to suggest that a voice in the head, interpreted by ancient 
man as a god, might be interpreted by a naive, modern person as a telepathic contact with 
extraterrestrials. Whatever "facts" may eventually be known, psilocybin offers a tool that 
allows direct experience of this voice that explains all things, this Logos of the Other.] 



CHAPTER TWENTY 



THE HAWAIIAN CONNECTION 



In which pirate Mantids from hyperspace attack me and my new lover in the volcanic 
wastes of Kau, Hawaii, and I deliver my last words on the Unspeakable. 

The FALL OF 1975 WAS a time of personal change and consolidation. Kat, an old friend 
met years before in Jerusalem during my opium and kabbala phase, became at last my 
lover. Eight years had passed since we had circumambulated the Mosque of Omar. She 
was a tide pool gazer and a solitary traveler. The mushroom had made good its promise 
to send another partner to share the ongoing journey through the interior world. In 
October, we went to Hawaii to write and to plan a trip to the Peruvian Amazon in early 
1976. And to languish in love. 

We rented a house in the remote and desolate Kau district of the big island of Hawaii. It 
was an area of twisted lava flows of all ages. Kapukas were the only vegetation, islanded 
areas of ancient forest surrounded by frothy seas of hardened rock, which had killed all 
low-lying and less fortunate life. Slowly, nearly imperceptibly, Mauna Loa's gentle bulk 
rose up to fourteen thousand feet in the distance behind us. We were at approximately the 
twenty-five hundred foot 



level. Our small house fronted the vast and forbidding cinder fields, but the lot ran back 
into a kapuka whose enclosing shade and many birds and insects provided welcome 
contrast to the primal devastation that stretched in all directions for miles. Our life was 
leisurely. I wrote and did some experiments with more arcane aspects of mushroom 
cultivation. Kat was immersed in doing line drawings for the book Dennis and I had 
written on Stropharia cubensis cultivation. A sun-filled erotic dream unfolded itself 
around us. 

We were isolated, as we both love to be, and we took mushrooms together often. It was 
during that Hawaiian idyll that I determined to return again to the Amazon Basin to track 
down the Banisteriopsis caapi in its native setting, in order to satisfy myself as to the role 
that it and the beta-carboline hallucinogens that it contains played in the experience at La 
Chorrera. I was especially interested to know if other chemically different aboriginal 
hallucinogens provoked the same experiences as did the mushroom psilocybin. I wanted 
to determine if our experiences were part of the general phenomenology of hallucinogens 
or were unique to psilocybin. 

At weekly or ten-day intervals throughout that October and November in Hawaii, we 
took the Stropharia that we had grown. We had an amazing series of experiences. The 
psilocybin definitely conveys the impression that sometimes other people can see with 
equal clarity the hallucinations that one is experiencing. Kat and I satisfied ourselves that 
this was true by taking turns describing the images in which we were immersed. During 
those times when the flow of images had a certain electric intensity, there was no doubt 
that we were seeing the same things. The relationship of the psyche to the surface of the 



body, the skin, is synesthetic and emotionally complex under the influence of psilocybin. 
Colors and feelings have a tactile quality that ordinary experience never hints of. By 
having large areas of skin in contact we seemed to somehow obviate the usual psychic 
individuality and integrity of the body; we would melt into each other's minds in a 
Tantric climax that was immensely pleasant and full of preposterous and hysterical 
potential for human growth and parapsychological studies. 

Ev and I had had no mushrooms since returning to the States. It was wonderful to have 
someone to again share the mushrooms 



with, for until Kat joined me, most of my mushroom trips had been entirely alone, one 
soul adrift in the cosmic ocean. Happily, there were now two of us navigating together 
through the billows of jeweled and demonically scintillating geometries. 

Two of those mushroom occasions stand out as especially memorable. The first occurred 
one evening late in November. We each ate five dried grams of Stropharia and sat inside 
by the fire watching the slow upwelling of hallucinations from behind closed eyelids. I 
seemed to see fleeting but prophetic images of the trip that we were planning into the 
Amazon. Camp fires and trails filled my head. The sound of nearby crickets seemed 
transformed into the roar of night jungle sounds that awaited us in Peru. We talked 
together of our plans and our future. The future seemed enormous and open before us. It 
was that evening that we both became committed to a family and a life together. It was a 
major turning point for me, I have no doubt. We walked together outside and stood 
beneath the stars near the sheds and gardens where we daily pursued the yet more perfect 
cultivation of Stropharia. The night was uncannily still and the sky blazing with stars. 

Looking into the southern sky, I thought, "If you are out there; if you approve the course 
we have set our lives on, if the mystery is real, then give us a sign." I stepped toward Kat, 
who was walking in front of me, to say, "I asked them for a sign." But before I could 
speak, the sky was rent from mid-heaven to horizon with a crimson streak of meteoric 
fire. The depth of atunement of psyche and world must be very great for such 
synchronisms to occur. 

"Such meteor-burns occur but once in all time," came the mushroom's comment, clear 
and unbidden into my mind. 

We sat down then on the warm, receptive earth and abandoned ourselves to the waves of 
visions and vistas. At one point a revolving night wind whipped the leaves on the 
otherwise perfectly still trees. The district was a remote one, but borne on the still air over 
miles and miles, from neighbors and ranches scattered far, we could hear the mournful 
howl of every dog in that whole part of the island. For hours they moaned and howled in 
eerie, wavering ululation. We could not imagine what it meant, but we took it as a 
coincidence as inexplicable as the sky sign on our future. 



Hours later, in the time of the false dawn, and at 4:49 local time according to seismic 
instruments scattered around the planet, an earthquake struck. A low, grinding roar 
moved through the lava fields stretching for miles all around and beneath us. Tidal waves 
and volcanic activity at Kilauea Caldera, near the epicenter and thirty miles away from 
us, followed fast on the first shock. An hour later another smaller shock wave occurred. 
Now the reason for the hours of howling was starkly explained. Thus it was that meteoric 
signs and a great earthquake — the most intense in Hawaii in a hundred years — attended 
our mushroom trip and our intensified exploration of the psilocybin deeps, just as we 
attended them. 

The second, and in many ways more puzzling, major mushroom experience that we 
shared in Hawaii brought to an end any further exploration of psilocybin until after our 
return from the Peruvian Amazon. It was the twenty-third of December, the day before 
Dennis would arrive to spend the Christmas holidays with us. Kat and I each took five 
dried grams and settled down before the fireplace to await the first wave of images. Soon 
we were deep into it. The mushroom was showing me a watery, blue-green planet with 
no land except a globe-girdling archipelago at the equator — a kind of super-Indonesia. 
Accompanying the views of the planet was a narration explaining that this oxygen-rich 
world was within one hundred light years of earth and was totally uninhabited by higher 
animals. As the implications of this last bit of data came home, I felt a wave of 
acquisitiveness that seemed to come right out of my primate gonads, a reaction to a 
million years of nomadism and the restless swelling of human populations. The narration 
was explaining that when the symbiotic fusion of humanity and the Stropharia was 
completed, "the human beings" would be free to claim such planets for the Strophariad. 

The narration had become personified into the inner voice that attends the mushroom 
trance. With it I began a discussion of the view of the watery planet and the technology 
such views implied. I wondered about the technology of star-travel and remote imaging. I 
asked the mushroom whether, for all the extravagant images it is able to bestow, could it 
produce any effect in the normal continuum? 

I had the idea that if we should go outside, as we usually did at some point in our 
journeys, we might see some continuation of the 



cloud-related phenomenon that had been a part of the experience at La Chorrera. Kat 
complained of being very hot and agreed that we should go outdoors. We were very 
unsteady on our feet, and though Kat said very little, I felt considerable alarm for her. 
However I assumed that going outdoors would be sufficient to cool her off. 

Outside, we stood unsteadily in the front yard. The night was overcast. Kat seemed to be 
lapsing in and out of consciousness. It was becoming harder and harder to rouse her. She 
kept saying that they were burning her, but that she thought she could hold them back. 



Finally, she collapsed altogether and I could not get any response. We were so isolated 
that it was impossible to get any sort of outside help. It would have taken hours to get 
anyone there, and doubtless no one on the entire island knew more than we did about 
psilocybin. The overwhelming gestalt of the situation was that somehow we had been 
placed in the scales of life and death, and that whatever was to be done was to be done by 
us alone and within the next very few minutes. 

I remembered that at the back of the house, near where we were accustomed to 
sunbathing, there was a large tub of water, which held the overflow from our rainwater 
collecting system. Even though I knew that we were in the face of a mortal threat, it 
required a complete organization of my consciousness to think of emptying that water 
over Kat. But as soon as I thought of it, it seemed to give the swirling world a direction. I 
picked her up in a single, sweeping motion and carried her, lurching through the dark, 
past the spiky palms now fantastic in the darkness. The moment was excruciatingly 
grotesque: my drawstring pants had fallen about my ankles so that I walked bare-assed 
and stiff-legged like Frankenstein's monster, carrying unconscious Kat. 

I laid her on the ground and began to empty can after can of clear, black and silver silken 
water over every inch of her. It was immediately apparent that we had found the antidote 
to whatever was making her feel a burning sensation and dragging her into 
unconsciousness. We tearfully and joyously embraced there in the water and mud, both 
sensing that this very uncharacteristic effect of the mushroom had been a close call. As 
we knelt together, realizing that we had surmounted the difficulty that had confronted us, 
a wild peal of unearthly sound — a howling laughter — split the 



air from the direction of the ancient woods behind the house. This laughter was like the 
scream of a panic-inducing god. Eldrich, amoral, mad — the throaty battle cackle of the 
unleashed fiend. We fled. 

We stumbled back into the house, and I made us tea while Kat talked to me and candidly 
confided that what she was experiencing "must be what it is like to be insane." She 
described having very frank hallucinations with her eyes open, strange "tangible" fern 
and orchid-like forms were growing and twisting out of every available surface. The 
previous sensation of heat continued, but it had changed into a field of white-hot potential 
energy that could be held away from burning contact with her body only by allowing the 
hallucinogenic energy to spend itself in a chaos of weird and explicit images. Only by 
applied concentration could she hold the burning plasma at bay a few feet away from her, 
where it became a skin of vision that encompassed everything else. After a few minutes 
of this Kat again seemed to be fading, and so we drew a cold bath and she lay in that for 
awhile until the symptoms again abated. 

When later we talked it became apparent that her experience had dimensions for her that 
had not been apparent to me. From the moment we had first stepped out of the house, she 
discovered that the sensation of heat had not diminished but grown stronger. She noticed 



that directly above her was a disk of light and color — a giant tinker-toy assemblage of 
softly glowing rods of light, with jewel-like connectors emanating every color. 

"I understood," she told me, "that the relationships of the places — their lengths, their 
angles to each other — was infinitely complex and also the embodiment of perfect truth. 
By seeing it, I was understanding everything ... but there were creatures inside the 
vehicle, mantis-like and made of light, that didn't want me to know. Bending over their 
instrument panels, the more I understood, the more they burned me with their ray. I 
couldn't stop looking, but I was being vaporized. I felt you pick me up and, as you carried 
me, I thought, 'I hope he hurries. I'm becoming a cloud....' For a moment I was floating 
above and looking down at us — people bigger than life, out of time. Then I felt the water 
on my skin redefining the limits of my body and condensing me again." 

Kat's impression of the situation was that this was not a threat conveyed by the 
mushroom, but a force inside the continuum that 



the mushroom makes available — a force that is seemingly morally ambiguous: pirates in 
hyperspace? Kat was having a UFO close-contact experience while I was seeing nothing. 
It was a contact fraught with danger and the threat of extinction. It had abruptly 
terminated when I had doused her with water. 

We sat up all night discussing what had happened. It served to accentuate other odd 
things that we had noticed when taking psilo-cybin in that remote environment. We had 
particularly noticed small scratching and rustling noises at the periphery of sense and 
vision during the trips, not unlike the activation of a classic poltergeist phenomenon. 
These small movements and noises were so regular a feature of these experiences that I 
came simply to accept them. We also noticed waves of activity that seemed to sweep 
through animate and inanimate matter alike during the mushroom voyages. For instance, 
after a prolonged period of near-trance in contemplation of the visions, if we were to 
draw away from it in a collective motion to stretch or talk, the fire would suddenly flare 
and burn brighter and the rustling at the periphery would increase. We were definitely at 
the brink of the same dimension that I had been plunged into at La Chorrera, again 
brought there by the agency of the mushroom. This time, however, we took our threat- 
laden brush with the thing as an admonition for us to ease up for a time. It was after this 
that we determined to go to Peru, to take ayahuasca and get some perspective on the 
nature of psilocybin relative to other visionary plant hallucinogens. 

Our walks in the rain forests of Hawaii were a pale but real echo of Amazon trails once 
followed in the past and in a few months to be traveled again. It was during one of those 
walks, reflecting on her encounter with the mantis-beings and their machines of light, that 
Kat pointed out that a lens is the natural result of the overlapping of two spheres. Is there 
something to be learned by applying this idea to the lens-shaped UFO? Perhaps some 
topological truth is implied in the thought that the lens is caused by the over-lapping of 
one continuum with another. Lenticular clouds were a part of the UFO contact that 



occurred at La Chorrera in 1971. This theme reemerged during those psilocybin 
experiences in the desolate landscapes of rural Hawaii. 

On yet another mushroom trip, when Kat and I stepped outside late at night, we beheld 
the stars through the moving 



interstices of a high lacework of thin clouds. Yet, hovering only a few hundred feet above 
and slightly in front of us, was a very dark, dense lenticular cloud. It grew more solid 
appearing as we watched; suddenly this tendency was reversed and it began to thin and 
fade very quickly. Then it was gone. 

Years go by and there is little intrusion of the peculiar into daily life. Then suddenly it is 
with us again, effecting coincidence and appearing to channel the flow of events toward 
some end which is sensed but not possible to anticipate. The paranoiac patina that has 
formed over modern society makes feedback from the culture difficult to evaluate. From 
a certain perspective, humanity is always a creature in transformation, imparting to every 
moment the deeply felt mystery of the unrealized future. Is the present situation really 
any different from many others in the past? 

Novelty is always in the process of emergence, but does it ever emerge explicitly, 
suddenly, from the events in which it is embedded? And what are we to make of it when 
it does emerge suddenly enough for us to recognize it as a true flux of the temporal 
continuum? I believe in miracles and ecstasy and in situations where "forces" are seen to 
be at work that are undescribed by today's physics. I felt it was necessary to retrace these 
familiar threads of my own life and thought. If I had not done this then no record would 
exist of the halting steps we took at La Chorrera, steps that lead us toward understanding 
psilocybin and its relation to the human soul — that knot of precious anomaly and fragile 
feeling that haunts our planet like a ghost. 



EPILOGUE 

In which I return to the present, Introduce my fellow explorers as they are today, and 
genuflect before the weirdness of it all. 

So WHERE DOES THIS all leave us today? Did the cosmic giggle move on? Am I like 
an archaeologist, condemned now to work diligently with toothbrush and nut-pick, 
attempting to exhume and reassemble the broken shards of dreams and visions obtained 
in long forgotten times and places? It was easy to look back and to tell this story as if it 
were a completed cycle, something finished and resplendent in its completion. The 
problem with that approach is that this story is true, its actors real people, their lives 
ongoing. The major mysteries of the experiment at La Chorrera remain just that, 
mysteries even to this date. 



My colleagues, my friends and lovers, have changed and moved on. Different fates have 
claimed each of us. Dave remained in South America, having returned to the United 
States only once in the last twenty years, for the briefest of visits. I have not seen him 
since 1971.1 know that he has lived in most of the countries of Andean South America. 
For years he remained true to his itinerant hippie roots, traveling from one high altitude 
village to the next teaching the local women to crochet. By now I should imagine that this 
minor art form is well established in places where before his 



visits it must have been utterly unknown. He didn't make it to the West Coast during his 
short visit to the States, but he called me and we talked at length. Same old Dave as far as 
I could tell. 

Ev married the friend for whom she left me in 1975, and they are still married, with a son 
soon old enough to be sent off to college. I have not seen Ev or her husband since her 
departure in 1975. We talked once on the phone years ago. I muttered something about 
how it might be nice to have dinner sometime, but it was up to me to follow through, and 
I never did. This avoidance has not been casual or unconsidered. There is still a 
reluctance on my part and a lingering pain that goes deep and puzzles me — but it is not to 
be lightly gone against. 

Vanessa returned to the States from the Amazon and followed in the tradition of her 
father and sister by obtaining a medical degree. Today she lives in Berkeley, as does Ev, 
and is a psychiatrist with a thriving practice. We see each other too rarely, and when we 
do get together I am reluctant to raise the issue of La Chorrera for two reasons. The first 
is that we were at opposite ends of the spectrum in our judgments concerning those 
events. And the second is that I don't wish to have our friendship turn, as it easily could, 
into a review of what might be thought of as my "case." Vanessa is smart and fair and has 
no motivation to judge me harshly. Our original differences arose out of her belief that, at 
the time, my unwillingness to treat Dennis's condition at La Chorrera as a medical crisis 
was the result of my own callousness, selfishness, lack of character, or just plain 
nuttiness. 

The only person who was part of the original team to whom I feel I can still rave at full 
bore with concerning the experiment at La Chorrera is Dennis. He obtained his degrees in 
botany, molecular biology, and neurochemistry years ago. He is now the scientist that at 
La Chorrera he could only aspire to be. He is married, has a precocious child, and works 
as a research pharmacologist for a Silicon Valley outfit called Shaman Pharmaceuticals. 
He tolerates my raving but is careful never to encourage me. I think that his attitude is 
still much as it was only a few months after the experiment, that whatever happened the 
toll on him was too great. He likes to rest with the facile argument that what happened 
was only a folie a deux, a delusion of two brothers grieving for their recently deceased 



mother and obsessed with conquering hyperspace. When I marshal my case against this 
and argue the evidence that something much more was going on, he reluctantly agrees, 
then shakes his head and turns away. To this day he remembers very little of what 
actually went on between the fourth and the twentieth of March 1971, and he prefers to 
keep it that way. 

So without rancor or surprise I can say that the matter is pretty much in my keeping. The 
morning that we all flew out of La Cho-rrera in Tsalikas's small plane, I was twenty-four 
years old, penniless, without plans, considered mad by my closest friends, and with a 
price on my head. In the intervening years, I have done what I could to keep the issues 
surrounding the experiment at La Cho-rrera from being forgotten. 

Together, during the mid-seventies, Dennis and I developed and promulgated the 
techniques for growing the mushrooms. Though others followed us into the field, we 
were the first and loudest to preach the home cultivation of psychedelic mushrooms. This 
technology brought to tens of thousands of dedicated and curious seekers the option of 
exploring what would otherwise have been an obscure and unobtainable tryptamine 
hallucinogen. Psilocyb in-taking in the seventies was the major factor creating and 
sustaining a small but dedicated public following for ideas such as those developed at La 
Chorrera. Over the years, the story of La Chorrera and the ideas spawned there have 
slowly made their way into public awareness via my books, and a film soon to be planned 
around them. My position is interesting but not enviable. Because the major idea to 
emerge out of this experience is the timewave and the computer software that supports it, 
I am in the absurd position of being either an unsung Newton or completely nuts. There is 
very little room to maneuver between those two positions. The timewave paints a radical 
picture of how time works and what history is. It provides a map of the global ebb and 
flow of novelty over the next twenty years and it also makes a prediction of a major 
transformational event in 2012. This is only as far in the future as La Chorrera lies in the 
past. It is soon. 

These personal developments have taken place against a background of deepening 
problems in the real world and a rising interest in the psychedelic experience by young 
people. I am, I am told, 



a minor icon in the culture of the underground. Is this all simply due to my schizophrenic 
tenaciousness in promulgating what are ultimately really only my ideas? Or do I have the 
winds of history blowing at my back and really did befriend the Logos and learn the 
secret of the universe, or at least one of many secrets, in the chaos at La Chorrera? 

I honestly confess that I do not know. As I write these words my marriage to Kat of 
nearly sixteen years seems caught up in a process of dissolution painful to both of us. 
This despite our two children, the house we built together, and both our efforts to be 
decent people. Apparently the presence of the Logos has done nothing to mitigate or 



ward off the ordinary vicissitudes of life. Like the Soul in Yeats's poem I am still an 
eternal thing fastened to the body of a dying animal. 

Yet if my sense of a special destiny and a way to save the world from the more dangerous 
and vulgar parts of itself is a delusion, then it is a grand delusion and one that is dying in 
me only slowly and by inches. I am assured by the people around me — publishers, 
editors, agents, marketing experts — people who are obviously uninformed as to the 
whispered promise of a special destiny made to me by the elves of hyperspace, that I am 
going to be big, have influence, and change the way people think. 

Perhaps this will be true. I hope so. Something happened at La Chorrera, something 
extraordinary. I was extremely fortunate to have briefly glimpsed a strange, beautiful, and 
better sort of world and to have made a marvelous pact with the alien gods who dwell 
there. The timewave, created over years of work, is both a prophecy concerning, and a 
map to, that better world. That I am an unworthy vessel for such high-minded work, I am 
sure. I have tried to make these transcendent fantasies return to normal and take their 
place in the mundane and dying worldview in which we all are imprisoned by late 
twentieth-century culture. But the job has been more than I could do. 

My fear is that if these ideas are less than true then our world is destined for a very final 
and ordinary death, for reason has grown too feeble to save us from the demons we have 
set loose. My hope is that I may bear witness to the fact that there is a great mystery 



calling to us all, beckoning across the landscape of our history, promising to realize itself 
and to give real meaning to what is otherwise only the confusion of our lives and our 
collective past. Twenty years after the experiment at La Chorrera, I still cannot say that it 
shall not be. 



ACKNOWLEDGMENTS 

THE AUTHOR WISHES to express appreciation to the many friends who encouraged 
the writing of this book. Twenty years in the writing means their names are legion, but 
especially important are Ernest Waugh and Kat Harrison McKenna, both of whom read 
and criticized the manuscript at various stages. Thanks also to Dennis McKenna, who 
encouraged the telling of our adventures, and to the other members of our expedition, 
who offered no objections to a public revealing of our story. Special and very deep thanks 
is due to Dan Levy, who believed in this project from the first moment that he 
encountered my work and who did a superb job in editing and criticizing these pages. 
Without his support this tale would still be an embryonic manuscript. Special thanks also 
to Tom Grady, my in-house editor at Harper San Francisco, to Jeff Campbell, who did the 
copyediting, to Leslie Rossman, my indefatigable publicist, and to Jaime Robles, who 
oversaw the design of the book. Also grateful thanks to my agent, John Brockman, and 



his assistant, Katinka Matson. Sincere thanks also to Sara Hartley, who allowed her 
photograph to be used as the frontispiece. And finally thanks to all the fans, friends, and 
colleagues who over the years have insisted that the story of La Chorrera reach all those 
who sense the importance of the psychedelic experience and the strange dimensions that 
is makes accessible. 



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Dick, Phillip K. The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch. London: Triad Panther, 1964. 
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-. The Transmigration of Timothy Archer. New York: Simon & Schuster, 1982. 

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Evans-Wentz, W. E. The Fairy Faith in Celtic Countries. New York: University Books, 
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Gibson, William. Burning Chrome. New York: Arbor House, 1986. 

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— . Food for Centaurs. New York: Doubleday, 1960. 

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Templeton, Alex. The Sirius Mystery. New York: St. Martin's Press, 1976. 

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The Invisible College. New York: Dutton, 1975. 

Wasson, R. Gordon. Soma: Divine Mushroom of Immortality. New York: Harcourt 
Brace Jovanovich, 1971. 

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BY DENNIS MCKENNA 

Dennis J. McKenna. "DMT: Nature's Ubiquitous Hallucinogen." Interdependences, in 
press. 

_ "Tryptamine Hallucinogens of the New World: An Ethno-pharmacological 

Survey." Interdependences, in press. 

Constantino M. Torres, David B. Repke, Kelvin Chan, Dennis McKenna, Augustin 
Llagostera, and Richard E. Schultes. "Botanical, chemical, and contextual analysis of 
archaeological snuff powders from San Pedro de Atacama, Northern Chile." Current 
Anthropology 32 (1992): 640-49. 

Dennis J. McKenna, X.-M. Guan, and A. T. Shulgin. "3,4-methyl-enedioxyamphetamine 
(MDA) analogues exhibit differential effects on synaptosomal release of 3H-dopamine 
and 3H-5-hydroxytryptamine." Pharmacology, Biochemistry, and Behavior 38 (1991): 
505-12. 

Chester A. Mathis, John M. Gerdes, Joel D. Enas, John M. Whitney, Yi Zhang, Scott E. 
Taylor, Dennis J. McKenna, Sona Havlick, and Stephen J. Peroutka. "Binding potency of 
parox-etine anaolgues for the serotonin uptake complex." Journal of Pharmacy and 
Pharmacology. Submitted. 

David E. Nichols, Robert Oberlender, and Dennis J. McKenna. "Stereochemical Aspects 
of Hallucinogenesis." In Biochemistry and Physiology of Substance Abuse, vol. Ill, 
edited by R. R. Watson, pp. 1-39. Boca Raton, FL: CRC Press, 1991. 

Dennis J. McKenna and Stephen J. Peroutka. "Serotonin neuro-toxins: Focus on MDMA 
(3,4-methylenedioxymethampheta-mine, Ecstasy')." In Serotonin Receptor Subtypes: 
Basic and Clinical Aspects, edited by S. J. Peroutka, pp. 127 A 8. New York: Alan R. Liss 
Publishers, 1990. 

. "The neurochemistry and neurotoxicity of 3,4-methylene- 

dioxymethamphetamine (MDMA, Ecstasy')." Journal of Neurochemistry 54 (1990): 14- 
22. 

. "Differentiation of 5 -hydroxy tryptamine2 receptor subtypes using 125I-R-(- 

)2,5,-dimethoxyphenylisopropylamine (125I-R-(-)DOI) and 3H-ketanserin." Journal of 
Neuroscience 9 (1989): 3482-90. 



Dennis J. McKenna, David B. Repke, Leland Lo, and Stephen J. Peroutka. "Differential 
interactions of indolealkylamines with 5 -hydroxy tryptamine receptor subtypes." 
Neuropharmacology 29 (1990): 193-98. 

Dennis J. McKenna. "It's a Jungle Out There: Biochemical Conflict and Co-operation in 
the Ecosphere." Whole Earth Review 64 (1989): 40-47. 

. "Plant Wisdom Resources." Whole Earth Review 64 (1989): 48-49. 

Cameron R. Hekmatpanath, Dennis J. McKenna, and Stephen J. Peroutka. "Reserpine 
does not prevent 3,4-methylene-dioxymethamphetamine-induced neurotoxicity." 
Neuroscience Letters 104 (1989): 178-82. 

Dennis J. McKenna, David B. Repke, and Stephen J. Peroutka. "Hallucinogenic 
indolealkylamines are selective for 5HT2A binding sites." Neuroscience Abstract 15 
(1989): 485. 

Dennis J. McKenna, Adil J. Nazarali, Andrew J. Hoffman, David E. Nichols, C. A. 
Mathis, and Juan M. Saavedra. "Common receptors for hallucinogens in rat brain: a 
comparative autora-diographic study using [125I]LSD and [125I]-DOI, a new psy- 
chotomimetic radioligand." Brain Research 476 (1989): 45-56. 

Dennis J. McKenna, Adil J. Nazarali, Akihiko Himeno, and Juan M. Saavedra. "Chronic 
treatment with (+_)DOI, a psycho-tomimetic 5HT2 agonist, downregulates 5HT2 
receptors in rat brain." Neuropsychopharmacology 2 (1989): 81-87. 

Adil J. Nazarali, Dennis J. McKenna, and Juan M. Saavedra. "Auto-radiographic 
localization of 5HT2 receptors in rat brain using [125I]-DOI, a selective psychotomimetic 
radioligand." Progressive Neuropsychopharmacology and Biological Psychiatry 13 
(1989): 573-81. 

Dennis J. McKenna, C. A. Mathis, and Stephen J. Peroutka. "Characterization of 1251- 
DOI binding sites in rat brain." Neuroscience Abstracts 14 (1988), no. 247.12. 

Akihiko Himeno, Dennis J. McKenna, Adil J. Nazarali, and Juan M. Saavedra. "(+_)DOI, 
a hallucinogenic phenylalkylamine, downregulates 5HT2 receptors in rat brain." 
Neuroscience Abstracts 14 (1988), no. 229.2. 

Dennis J. McKenna and Juan M. Saavedra. "Autoradiography of LSD and 2,5- 
dimethoxyphenylisopropylamine psychoto-mimetics demonstrates regional, specific 
cross-displacement in the rat brain." European Journal of Pharmacology 142 (1987): 313- 
15. 

Dennis J. McKenna, C. A. Mathis, A. T. Shulgin, and J. M. Saavedra. "Hallucinogens 
bind to common receptors in the rat fore -brain: a comparative study using 125I-LSD and 



12SI-D0I, a new psychotomimetic radioligand." Neuroscience Abstracts 13 (1987), no. 
311.14. 

Dennis J. McKenna, C. A. Mathis, A. T. Shulgin, Thornton Sargent III, and J. M. 
Saavedra. "Autoradiographic localization of binding sites for 125I-(-)DOI, a new 
psychotomimetic radioligand, in the rat brain." European Journal of Pharmacology 137 
(1987): 289-90. 

Dennis J. McKenna, L. E. Luna, and G. H. N. Towers. "Biodyna-mic constituents in 
Ayahuasca admixture plants: an uninvesti-gated folk pharmacopoeia." America Indigena 
46(1986): 73-101. 

Dennis J. McKenna and G. H. N. Towers. "On the comparative ethnopharmacology of 
the Malpighiaceous and Myristicaceous hallucinogens." Journal of Psychoactive Drugs 
17(1985): 35-39. 

-. "Biochemistry and pharmacology of tryptamine and B-carboline derivatives: A 
minireview." Journal of Psychoactiv*Drugs 16 (1984): 347-58. 

Dennis J. McKenna, G. H. N. Towers, and F. S. Abbott. "Mono-amine oxidase inhibitors 
in South American hallucinogenic plants: Tryptamine and B-carboline constituents of 
Ayahuasca". Journal of Ethnopharmacology 10 (1984): 195-223. 

"Monoamine oxidase inhibitors in South American hallucinogenic plants, Part 

II: Constituents of orally aowc Myristi-caceous hallucinogens." Journal of 
Ethnopharmacology 12. (1984): 179-211. 

Dennis J. McKenna and G. H. N. Towers. "Ultra-violet mediated cytotoxic activity of B- 
carboline alkaloids." Phytochemistry 20 (1981): 1001-1004. 

Dennis J. McKenna and T. K. McKenna. The Invisible Landscape. 

New York: Seabury Press, 1975. 



ANTHROPOLOGY/TRAVEL 



" Mr. McKenna is like a lovely psychedelic sophist... a sure sign that Reagan-Bushism is 
dead and in the ground, and that a wilder social moment may be upon us." »NEW YORK 
TIMES 

" Plenty of down-to-earth reasons for preserving the planet, going beneath the surface of 
scientific inquiry into the psychedelic experience, and some truly amazing dope tales." 
•VILLAGE VOICE 

" Terence McKenna presents a wryly knowing, studiously updated, wholly passionate 
version of the Psychedelic Revolution, circa 1992. ... It would be hard to find a drug 
narrative more compellingly perched on a baroquely romantic limb than this passionate 
Tom-and-Huck-ride-Great-Mother-river-saga of brother bonding. . . . Put simply, Terence 
is a hoot." 'ESQUIRE 

This mesmerizing, surreal account of the bizarre adventures of Terence McKenna, his 
brother Dennis, and a small band of their friends, is a wild ride of exotic experience and 
scientific inquiry. Exploring the Amazon Basin in search of mythical shamanic 
hallucinogens, they encounter a host of unusual characters — including a mushroom, a 
flying saucer, pirate Mantidsfrom outer space, an appearance by James and Nora Joyce in 
the guise of poultry, and translinguistic matter — and discover the missing link in the 
development of human consciousness and language. 

TERENCE MCKENNA is the author of Food of the Gods and The Archaic Revival and 
the coauthor, with Dennis McKenna, of The Invisible Landscape: Mind, Hallucinogens, 
and the I Ching.